Dies Irae [[SE; Day 3]]
Oct 10, 2010 18:44:16 GMT -5
Post by semper on Oct 10, 2010 18:44:16 GMT -5
Theodore Croggstad
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damnosa hereditas - Inheritance of damnation, ruinous legacy
deceptio visus - A deception of vision; an optical illusion
dementia - Insanity
Dies Irae - Day of Wrath (hymn for the Requiem Mass)
durante absentia - During [someone's] absense
durante dolore - While pain lasts
de mortuis nil nisi bonum - Speak nothing but good of the dead
Ducunt volentem fata, nolentem trahunt. Fate leads the willing soul, but drags along the unwilling one (Seneca) [rand=283411684002690062181307878266939830953100029316044357540851655687]
[/blockquote][/blockquote]Damnosa hereditas.
Sleep was impossible.
Sitting with his back up against a tree, pale blue eyes wide and bloodshot with sleep deprevation and horror, Theodore was silent. All his allies were dead, and there was nothing he could've done to help them -- except for Cole. You could have saved him, but you didn't. You're a hopeless coward, Theodore Croggstad -- a damned coward. You let him die! You stood by his side while he was dying, writing your name on the ground with his own blood, obviously trying to tell you something. And what did you do? Nothing, you selfish bastard.Durante dolore.
Theodore cringed, whimpering. He had promised himself earlier that he wouldn't cry, but as realization of the situation hit him, he could feel hot tears stinging his eyes. Cole was dead because of him; Estelle and Alkin too. He had had a chance to intervene with each of the deaths, but never got there in time. But with Cole, he could have done something. He could have given the antivenom to his ally -- and he sincerely considered itand he had actually given it to Cole until he was yelled at and pressured into editing the post-- but no. Theodore had thought long and hard about it, and ended up applying the stuff to his own wounds.
"How am I so damn stupid?"
Theodore slapped his hands to his face, rubbing his face vigorously as if he could rub off the guilt.
"Theodore."
"You're still alive, aren't you?"
Theodore froze. The startling familiar voices shocked him into raising his head, pale blue eyes wide. Through the morning mist he could see faint silhouettes in the distance -- recognizable ones, too. No... it can't be. They're both dead. He squint his eyes to try to get a clearer image, and sure enough, he saw Cole's dark hair and Estelle's blonde hair.
"Estelle...? Cole...? But--... you're both dead!"
Theodore's voice had risen to a cry of disbelief.
"Come over here, Theodore."
"We'd like to show you something..."De mortuis nil nisi bonum.
Without hesitation, the boy scrambled off the ground as he darted through the fog towards the silhouettes of his dead allies, but with every stride he took, they seemed to get farther, and farther, and farther. In a panic, Theodore forced himself to run faster, fingers clawing at the air as his arms swung.
"Cole! Estelle!"
Chasing the shadowy figures, Theodore hadn't realized how far it was leading him away from his supplies and the part of the lake he knew. Each stride was like a headlong leap into the abyss of the thick mist, completely unaware of where he was headed. All he wanted was to reach the fleeting silhouettesDeceptio visus.
The sudden disappearance of land beneath him shocked the boy back to reality as he fell into the icy water, air being sucked right out of his lungs. Startled, the boy thrashed around, trying to discern which way was which. A cry rose in his throat, but all that came out was a plume of bubbles. Get out! Get out! Theodore could feel his lungs burning, begging for oxygen as he continued to in the deep water -- wasn't the land supposed to slope down, not just drop off? -- and suddenly his hand reached air. He fallowed that direction, taking a deep breath as soon as he broke the surface, soothing his burning lungs.
Hauling himself up onto the shore, Theodore spit out a mouthful of water, though the liquid caused his throat to begin burning. On his hands and knees, he coughed hoarsely, lowering his head to lay on his forearms.
"Great... just great..."
He growled, trying to soothe the pain in his throat.
"You know you can drink the water."
Pale blue eyes shot up, seeing Cole -- or what he believed to be Cole -- standing above him. Estelle was also beside him, though her face was streaked with tears.
[drinks unboiled water]
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Amoebic Dysenterydamn you, Theo D:-- 25Ducunt volentem fata, nolentem trahunt.
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damnosa hereditas - Inheritance of damnation, ruinous legacy
deceptio visus - A deception of vision; an optical illusion
dementia - Insanity
Dies Irae - Day of Wrath (hymn for the Requiem Mass)
durante absentia - During [someone's] absense
durante dolore - While pain lasts
de mortuis nil nisi bonum - Speak nothing but good of the dead
Ducunt volentem fata, nolentem trahunt. Fate leads the willing soul, but drags along the unwilling one (Seneca) [rand=283411684002690062181307878266939830953100029316044357540851655687]