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The first thing you should probably know is that I hate explaining things in chronological order. Also, I'm kind of a very big fail at it. If, at any point, you are confused, or think this is too long to read, please stop reading to avoid some epic brain damage of the sorts. Thank you for even reading this at all, guys. (:

THE CAST LIST.
[ not real names.. hehe ]
Bruno -- does theatre / cross country&track / wicked sweet
Bob -- laxbro / really hyper funny but awkward around me
Billy -- kid a year younger than me / soo nice to me / best friend's worst enemy
Bonnie -- best friend / violent / ... we have issues
Barney -- ginger / theatre kid
Boris -- kinda obnoxious / really funny / past crush / bffls with bruno.
Beatrice -- good friend / bruno's ex.
Bella -- good friend / bruno's friend.


SCENE ONE. Last April was my first year at the middle school, which is 7th to 8th grade. I survived /most/ of the year, but track, starting in April, was the beginning of the time when I thrived. I was good at sprinting, and I still am. But everyday, I ran in the hopes that ONE GUY would stop by practice. He did, sometimes. He told me I was fast because he was as slow as hell. His name was Boris. (Hehe, the names are making me giggle.) He's kind of that guy who can be a dick to you and you still want to hug him. He always called me short and I guess he was just a flirt in general. I told my friend Bella, and of course, as she's very good friends with Bruno, who is also Boris' very good friend, she told Bruno. Bruno is on my track team, so he talked to me about it on the way to a track meet. I was ind of stressed. A day shortly after that, Me, Bella, Bruno, and a few other guys went over to Bella's house. I'm leaving a lot of details out here, but by the end of the day I was aware that Bruno liked me. I actually forget how. You know those early crushes, and how they work, with the stomach flutters and all. That was me.

SCENE TWO. We went out for about two weeks in May, I think. He asked me out over a phone call and I was soo happy. This may not seem like too long at all, but for my school, just trust me, we were probably the longest standing couple in at least three months. The one thing you should know is that his father was kind of sick One Thursday, more than one week after we had started going out, I had a track meet. Bruno is a long distance runner, so we saw each other often at meets and practices. After the meet, I was running around with Boris' ipod. It dropped while I was playing with it, and the scrolly thingy came loose.. While trying to fix it, I tore off the entire thing. Smoothe, right? I told him that I'd owe him, but he kind of had other plans. He wanted me to kiss Bruno, even though I knew I wasn't ready, and we were going to kiss the next night when we went to the movies. But it was awkward, and I felt really bad, so I broke up with him.

SCENE THREE. My friend Beatrice went out with Bruno, about a half year later. It wasn't awkward, even though I kind of kept thinking what could've happened if I hadn't broken up with him. She said she wanted to end the relationship two days after it began... but then it was his birthday, and then he was sick and she didn't want to break up with him over the phone. Oh yeah. What for? Apparently he was an awful kisser. I wasn't so sure about that. But then again, I dind't have anything to compare it to.

SCENE FOUR. Ok. The Bob thing. Ummm well, uhh. I went out with him for two months. But the end is what matters. I started to stop liking him about a month and a half into our relationship, but I was too chicken to do anything about it. Besides, our friends were friends. Well, except for my best friend, Bonnie. She said he hated him. But one day, her cousin Billy started talking to me on Facebook. he admitted he liked me and he asked if I would every go out with him. I kept answering him indirectly, because I knew Bonnie hated him, but I seemed to be leading him on and I didn't feel great about it. He was really nice though. he told me I was pretty, but never called me hot or sexy. He asked me about myself and it felt kind of good. I told Bonnie about it, and she flipped. She texted him and told him that I hated him, and I went along with it. Sort of. But I was still nice enough to him. However, I didn't know this, but she told Bob what had happened. I didn't know this until I got the nerve up to break up with Bob. I felt awful when everyone found out the PURELY INDIRECT IDKS AND NOT SURES I HAD ANSWERED TO BILLY. It was fixed when I started giving straight answeres to Billy, and I told him I wouldn't go out with him at that time.

SCENE FIVE. The last chapter, you could say. Umm, well, sort of. I made the school play. This year it was Music Man, if anyone's wondering. Bruno also made the play (as a salesman) and I started taling to him again, and I'm a little guilty to say that I think I like him again. I also started talking to Bob again, who I figured out is still madly in love with me and always was. And then there was Barney... who likes me. He's kind of obnoxious. When I told my firned about Barney, he said she was going to tell him I was in love with him (WHICH I'M NOT.) And just when I thought everything could be over, Billy starts speaking and flirting with me again, and I'm back to my same old indirect answers. I''ve hung out thoroughly with Bruno again, but I'm really not sure if he likes me, or even if I like him,

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I'm not looking for any in depth advice, or people telling me I'm too young for drama. Because you can't really stay out of it when your grade is full of fourteen year old sluts and manwhores -_- I'm just wondering which guy sounds best for me, or which one is best for you, if you have any preference. You probably could've skipped the whole story, now that I think about it. But I'm not sure. Life is getting complicated, and all I think I need is for someone to just tell me what to do. The biggest pain in this isn't getting to what I want, it's figuring out what I want. I'm not exactly sure what I'm want you to tell me, but really, anything helps (: <3 (-<)