Phoenix Linker - D4

Name: Phee
Age: 16
Gender: female
District/Area: District 4
Appearance:

she has long dark brown hair that is wavy and hard to manage. she normally wears it freely, letting it blow in the wind or lay still on her head. if phee even attempted in trying to tame her hair it would probably lead to disaster, so instead she lets her hair do it's own thing. of course, for special occasions she brushes it... though it seems to take hours to actually get all of the knots out. one feature phee actually likes about herself is her eyes; she has wide chocolate brown eyes and long eyelashes. with those eyes phee could tell five different feelings with one look. ("you know a look can give a thousand words? what am i saying?"). she is 5' 5" and weighs about 120 lbs, not that she could weight much even if she tried. even though district four is widely known as a district that has enough to eat, that isn't always so.

so her eyes are her favorite part of her but... then there's the part she doesn't like; she has bumpy olive skin, its not acne or anything but she has eczema. eczema makes your skin bumpy on parts like your arms, elbows, and knees. phees mother had it and sadly for phee, she inherited the trait. but, there are also the gifts phee got that phee herself doesn't see. like how her smile seems to light up her whole face, or when she flips her hair out of her eyes in the sunlight. there's her nose, that's shaped perfectly for her face, he curved frame, so many other things that she doesn't notice. some people just don't see their beauty sometimes.

Personality:

phee is crazy. like, honestly, she's freaky crazy. she loves to dance around like an insane person and doesn't care if you're watching. she just is what she is and doesn't let anyone put her down. to phee, everyone else, they're just kids to entertain. and if they don't her show, then forget them. she doesn't care, not about anything. and won't for a while. she grew up on the wrong side of the tracks, and knows all too well what it's like to be backstabbed. but, she doesn't let that affect her. she doesn't show that she's been hurt or what she does behind closed doors. she's just a normal kid around everyone else. well, not normal... but, you get it.

she has a bit of a cussing problem, and tends to add a cuss word here or there in her sentences, that's just how she is. but, she doesn't like obnoxiously spout off cuss words like some kind of weirdo. only when she's really excited or mad or happy... or embarrassed.... a lot of the time really. but, eh. oh well. there's not much she can do about it, as the people she grew up around were just as much of a potty-mouth as she is. and she doesn't mind it, but some people find it stupid or insulting. but, that's just how she is.

sometimes, phee can be a well, mean person to put it politely. but then again, can't we all be like that sometimes? she's not one to get violent, but she is quick to spit insults. she knows she's not strong enough to take on... anyone, and can't run worth crud, so she has to be careful with what she says, but really isn't afraid of anyone. she's been hit before, hard, she doesn't care what you do as long as she gets to do something back. eye for an eye, tooth for tooth, right?


depression sometimes takes over phee. sometimes, she just hates herself so much that she has to do something. and whether that be starving herself or binging, she does it. she feels like she shouldn't be here sometimes. she has to punish herself and when she's out and doesn't have her blade, and she gets these feelings, she uses her teeth. phee will literally pull the flesh off her own arm, just to hurt herself. just to feel the pain. but, she doesn't let anyone know. she's always in long sleeves and such, always covering the are where she's bleeding.

History:

phoenix linker was born to a single mother. she had no idea who the father was. carolanne was an addict, a whore, and everything else you'd expect from someone living on the wrong side of the tracks. she couldn't raise a child, but she did the best she could. phee was often left alone when she was a little older, around seven or so, and started to make herself dinner. she was basically living off butter and bread. carolanne was there from time to time, to kiss the booboos and tuck her in but phee never knew where she was afterwards. looking back, her mind seems sort of vacant when she tried to remember her mum.

carolanne may not have been a good mother, but phee loved her anyways. phoenix was sort of like her mother when it came down to do doing everyday things. she didn't sleep around as a child or do any kind of bad things, but the way she held herself and the way she walked and talked and acted, it was just like her mum. she walked like she was something important, even when she was just a little tot. she was just like her mum. carolanne brought lots of boys home, and phee figured her mum was a very popular gal. she didn't realize that carolanne would get well, strange in her bedroom and do all kinds of crazy things. she didn't really care either. all phoenix did was walk to school, play with her friends, and walk home.

when phoenix turned ten, her mum just stopped coming around. and she had to worry about things a ten year old shouldn't have to. she had to worry about how she was going to get food, and all the other things she needed to leave. but, a little envelope of money always found it's way to her kitchen table every month. it had just enough money to live off of. it's a bit ridiculous, thinking about it. a ten year old living by herself. but, that's the truth. phoenix lived by herself and fended for herself.

without a mother to show her what to do and not to do, when phee was twelve and just starting junior high, she lost her virginity and sort of became a bit of a whore. but, not like her mum. she just fooled around with the boys her age. and when one of the rich little boys asked her to be his girlfriend, how could she say no? today, phee can't even remember his name. but, he paid for her clothes when they were out shopping, as long as she gave him sex in return. he was the one to pay for her whole hair changing thing when she was fourteen. yeah, they dated for two years. during this period, the world came crashing down on phee's shoulders. and she began to cut herself. and when the boy broke up with her, and told her she was just a useless slut, she started to see herself like that.

when phee looked in the mirror she saw this horrible fat... slut. and she hated it. she tried to be anorexic, but the urge to eat was just overwhelming and she had to eat, but then she'd feel horrible and go and empty her stomach out. she knew it wasn't healthy, but she couldn't help it. phee's arms became so covered in scars that she was almost disgusted and horrified with herself. there were marks from where her teeth had torn chunks out of her own flesh. she had to stop this. but she didn't want to. and then, she discovered the drums.

phee had been just playing around on a friend's drum set when she realized that she was pretty bad on the drums. from there, she saved up enough money to buy a drum set for herself and a few drumsticks and began just beating away in the same messy little house she had been living in her whole life. her history isn't very collected, but it's something.

Codeword: Odair
Comments/Other:Writing Phee was weird, even for me. I mean writing about someone so pained that she has to physically hurt herself to feel better? That was frightening and well, a bit nauseating at times. But I'm proud of Phee. She's going to be a fun character. The thing is, District Four is close to the capitol so there should be some craziness going on, even in the future you know? And for the drums, I don't know, if you think they're a bad idea that's cool. xD But... she's close to the Capitol and I'm sure they play music there so... yeah.