and i'm so glad! (oh brad) ; kara's junkyard
Mar 21, 2011 12:15:05 GMT -5
Post by ja'mie on Mar 21, 2011 12:15:05 GMT -5
Basically... I'll be putting old posts/poems/anything that I feel like, here! c: It'll be wonderfully disorganized. <3
This was for a previous site I was on, and Charlie was a policewoman. The police Department was referred to as 'Pax Pacis'. Her boss, whom she disliked immensely, was named Lawley.
Charlie stared down at her bowl of honey nut cheerios, nudging the small donut-shaped pieces into flower patterns with the end of her spoon. The milk rippled as soon as the metal touched its smooth surface, causing her previous oat formations to split apart and float away. Charlie bit her lip, gliding them back into place, which, in turn, caused even more cheerios to stray. Thoroughly frustrated, she leaned back in her chair for a moment, turning her attention to the flickering television screen in the living room. A re-run of ‘Ghostbusters’ was playing on mute, the unmistakable image of Sigourney Weaver walking down a street toting a baby carriage. She stopped to talk to somebody, letting go of the carriage, and suddenly it went rolling down the road on its own. Charlie pivoted in her seat to watch the events unfold as Sigourney rushed down the street after her baby. What would it be like to have hair like that, brown and kind of poof-y? Sigourney could hide things, probably, like papers and keys and lots of stuff! And evidence too, for further clarification later at the lab if Sigourney was part of Pax Pacis. Charlie considered asking for something like that next time at the salon, because it would definitely be productive and handy. And then she would definitely be a better cop than Lawley because he was a boy, and he didn’t have lots of hair. Smiling, she turned back to her cereal, scribbling ‘jumbo hairs’ onto the back of her hand with the neon green gel pen she always kept on the table for times like these. Speaking of the time… Charlie glanced at her arm, but as usual she didn’t have a watch on. Instead, she peeked at the clock on the microwave: 7:39 pm. Hmm… dipping her spoon back into the cereal, she scooped up a spoonful. 7:39… which meant she still had the night to do anything. Picking up the bowl, she stood up and rested it next to the sink, dropping the frosted spoon into the dishwasher. Bolting into the living room, she flopped down onto the couch, turning up the volume on the outdated TV she had purchased from an old neighbor’s garage sale when first moving to Switchblade; it was square and a bit bulky for a 17’’ set, but it had pink neon lights around the edges and a pretty good sound quality, and it worked well. “Egon, I didn’t imagine this.” “I’m not saying you did…” Charlie grinned. Poor Sigourney, Harold Ramis probably didn’t believe her about the ghosts. She could probably get proof, and she could hide the video camera in her hair, which would be extremely cool…
Sometimes, you don’t get what you want. I learned that from the start; I was born into nothing. Blind, they said. Genetic, they said. Sorry lady, they said. And they handed me to my mother and I bet her sobbing was louder than mine. His eyes, his eyes, they seem fine, are you sure, I’m sorry. His eyes… And that was it. From that day forward, I lived by my own hunches.
There isn’t any certainty. Seeing is part of the learning process, and I have only part of the equation. But you learn things quickly; Clothing is the material on your body, ground is the surface below you, people are the things that are like you. And they talk. A lot. They talk all the time, and apparently they don’t just talk next to you, or in front of you, or behind you. They talk on screens and radios. They talk to each other and at each other and then laugh and laugh and laugh. Cry, scream, gasp, rasp, mumble. All these speech characteristics and emotions are different, for I hear they don’t have an image. Noise. That’s what they call it.
Shapes too. I used to spend hours studying spheres and cubes with my fingers. Textures. The other four senses to help me along. I can make assumptions.
I’m going to talk about death now, but don’t be alarmed, I’ll get off the topic quickly enough. I just wanted to ask… if you’ve ever actually tried to think about death. Namely yours. Because whenever I think of my death, it always ends the same way; denial, then realization that it is going to happen no matter what I do, what I say.
If I was sane, I would just accept that. Honestly, what else can one do, right? We’re all humans, we’re all in the same boat. We all die. But I just can’t accept it, I never can When I’d sit at home, alone, on a Friday night, and think about death, I’d always stop thinking right before admitting the truth, that I would die one day eventually. Like a dream, when you fall off a cliff, and you wake up right before you meet the ground. I… I would just ignore fate. Tell myself that when I was older, there would be a cure, and people would be immortal due to scientific advances and stuff. Tell myself that when I was older everything would be better, that we would live forever in a perfect world. I believed in a utopia. I had to believe in a utopia… because without hope for the future, where would we all be? Sadly, the world isn’t like that. It’s not beautiful and perfect, like I and my generation believed it would be, like every generation wants to believe. And it will never be that way; instead the world just turns and turns, and history repeats itself over and over and over and over…
If I was sane, I would just accept that. Honestly, what else can one do, right? We’re all humans, we’re all in the same boat. We all die. But I just can’t accept it, I never can When I’d sit at home, alone, on a Friday night, and think about death, I’d always stop thinking right before admitting the truth, that I would die one day eventually. Like a dream, when you fall off a cliff, and you wake up right before you meet the ground. I… I would just ignore fate. Tell myself that when I was older, there would be a cure, and people would be immortal due to scientific advances and stuff. Tell myself that when I was older everything would be better, that we would live forever in a perfect world. I believed in a utopia. I had to believe in a utopia… because without hope for the future, where would we all be? Sadly, the world isn’t like that. It’s not beautiful and perfect, like I and my generation believed it would be, like every generation wants to believe. And it will never be that way; instead the world just turns and turns, and history repeats itself over and over and over and over…