||| . Not §o §imple After All . ||| [eviee, stare]
Jan 12, 2011 18:48:14 GMT -5
Post by gxk on Jan 12, 2011 18:48:14 GMT -5
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Nyx sprawled out on the bed she'd claimed as hers. If four of them were going to stay in this little cottage, then she was going to make damn sure that everyone respected her space. Not that either Paisley or Silver seemed like they were going to be much trouble, it was just her hate for feeling trapped and confined. As well Paisley's mother being a bit of a concern. Nyx's reputation in Four was bittersweet. Some people loved her, others swore she was a demon trapped in a young woman's body. But what right did they have to judge her anyway? None. They didn't know what it was like to have Mr.Dymock as a father, if you could even call him that. He lost all interest in her when she became too old to be in the Games. That came back to why she was uneasy about sharing the room with the thirteen year old's mother. What would she think of Nyx? The last thing Nyx wanted to put up with was a mother hen who didn't trust her to be around her baby girl. When I was Paisley's age I already knew how to use an assortment of weapons, for destructive purposes...
Sitting up slowly Nyx took a deep breath. Too much negativity, even for her. She was here to enjoy herself, it had been so long since she got out and had a good time. Though she couldn't help but feel like a stranger here. She hardly knew many of the guest, even though she'd seem them around Four. Clenching the blanket in her fists she let out an exasperated sigh. Was she really not capable of relaxing? The ability to be at ease had been trained out of her for the sake of the Hunger Games. And now it was nothing more than a pain in the ass. Was being a victor really worth it? Maybe. Maybe not. She wouldn't know. That old bitterness was bubbling up again. Nyx could not help but feel like years of her life were wasted on a goal she would never achieve. Who's to say she would have been able to win. But at least it would have made all the training mean something, have some worth. Sure she could defend herself extremely well, but it wasn't the same. Nyx knew there was no use getting worked up over it, but it still bothered her. And then her own failed marriage... All she could do know is pray for the best for Lucan and Evelyn, no one should have to experience what she did.
Storm blues eyes glanced around the room with a slight nervousness. Her mind was playing tricks on her again. It appeared as if the walls were closing in. Luckily after years of dealing with such strange illusions she had, for the most part, learned to ignore them. They hadn't been really up to this point, so there was no logical reason to worry about them. When she had went to therapy they had told her to use her coping skills, sixteen year old Nyx had taken that as an excuse to hurl a chair at the good doctor, and later regret it. She hadn't really meant any harm, she was just a frustrated teen with an overbearing father and useless mother. Letting her thoughts wander Nyx realized that both Paisley and Silver were much younger than she was. So basically she and Paisley's mother would be babysitting the girls. A small smile played onto her lips. She never had the chance to have children because of the ways things went with her partner. This could be fun. Even if there wasn't quite enough of an age difference for her to be the mother of either of the two girls she could pretend. She really did love children/younger teens, it was adults that pissed her off.
Pale hands lifted a glassed of lemon ice water to her lips. She took a long drink before putting it back down on the end table. A tinge of red in the glass caught her attention. She soon realized in her earlier mental rant she must have been biting down pretty hard on lip. Sure enough after touching two fingers to her upper lip, they came back with a small smear of blood. No big deal, the tissues in the mouth healed quickly, and it was barely deep enough to draw blood. But the sight of the stuff sent a tingling feeling through the deep scar on her back. Now that was a burden. Her dress for the ceremony had a high back on to hid the marred skin. It was a shame really, she was so beautiful, but now she had to stay covered up or risk all sorts of invasive questions that she didn't want to answer. That last thing she wanted was to drag up that story. The thought made her flinch, the point of the sword digging deeply into her back and tearing a jagged line. It was still a vivid memory. A reminder of why you never let you're guard. Nyx allowed herself a dry chuckle as she remember the faces of the doctors who put her back together again.
Enough of my problems This is Evelyn and Lucan's wedding. I at least need to make some attempt to have a good time. It isn't often I get invited to anything like this..
Looking up from her thoughts something dawned on Nyx. Soon Paisley, her mother, and Silver would probably be here to settle in. She had met two of them after getting off the boat, but went on ahead to take a break from it all. The crowed ship had really rattled her. If it hadn't been for the ocean breeze, and presence of the lovely sharks, she probably would have thrown herself overboard. Death by being eaten by a shark sounded pleasant to Nyx, as sick as it may sound to others. But many people already thought she was a bit off, so it didn't matter anyway.
"Welcome to the oh-so-cozy cottage." She kept her tone sweet and gentle. It would be nice to spend some time with the young girls. Hopefully mommy dearest wouldn't be a pain.