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Stille Nacht {GXK} Nov 6, 2010 6:39:58 GMT -5

Post by semper on Nov 6, 2010 6:39:58 GMT -5

Dominic knew he was going mad and that it was only a matter of time before the voice got the better of him again. Who would the next victim of his insanity be? Images flashed through is head of people: some passerby he'd seen frequently, some other lumberjacks, shop clerks, Landon, Mr. Hale -- Jana. A sudden wave of icy panic swept over him as he envisioned her lying on the ground in a bloody heap, his hands dripping with her blood.

Oh, Ripred, no....!

He wouldn't hurt her -- he couldn't. But the image was too convincing with his attacking patterns: bruises around her throat, lashes from a thick tree limb scattered on her body, more bruises from a blunt force, and even odd dotted bleeding woulds from the end of the tree limb jabbing her.

One day she'll look like that.

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The boy took his hands off his head and held them in front of his face as though he were examining them. They were both trembling as though from the cold, but there was no blood on them aside from when he had touched his own wounds. How would his hands betray him like that? To clamp down on Jana's neck and squeeze until her windpipe crushed -- that wasn't like them. Sure he had killed before with those hands, but that had been the first time such a homicidal feeling had filled him. The only thing he felt toward Jana was love; but that had also been what he had felt toward his father before he murdered him. The trembling in his hands grew worse, forcing him to clench his fists to stay somewhat steady.

"No.... she won't."

Dominic's voice hoarse and small, but his tone was steady. His eye, chest, and knuckles were smarting -- his back had gone numb a while ago -- but it was nothing compared to the emotional wreck inside of him. As his fists stayed tightly clenched, they began visibly vibrating; he cast a glance at the tree he had struck and the thought of bashing his head in sounded almost appealing.

"Dominic?"

The sound of Jana's voice snapped him out of his angst, bloodshot eyes turning to see her approaching. Half of him wanted her to stay back, away from the danger zone if he spooked. But the other half wanted to be next to her, to lightly hold her soft hand in his rough and calloused hand. He wanted to feel her against him, to hold her tightly and know that she really was there; that he was no longer alone in the world.

He knew she was right: in the midst of un-acceptance, at least they had each other; someone to turn to whenever things were going south.

Dominic's bloodshot eyes turned, resting their gaze on her for a moment.

"You're right,"

he said quietly, dropping his gaze to the ground.

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Last Edit: Nov 6, 2010 11:26:04 GMT -5 by semper

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Stille Nacht {GXK} Nov 7, 2010 19:26:23 GMT -5

Post by gxk on Nov 7, 2010 19:26:23 GMT -5

~Jana~

Jana felt sick with worry when she looked down at Dominic. He was trembling, his hands slightly coated in blood from his own wounds. He looked scared, the voice must be ripping at him mercilessly, she would have sworn he'd just seem a ghost, or something worse. Which he probably had, god only knows what went on in his head. Some kind of sick torture that couldn't be escape because it was in his mind. And Landon and her father had surely made it worse, going at him the way they had. She still couldn't help but blame herself for this. How could she have been so stupid as to believe her father and Landon would have been ok with her relationship with Dominic...

She got down beside Dominic and reached her hand on, gently stroking his cheek in what she hoped was a somewhat calming gesture. Letting him know that she was here, and wasn't going to leave him for anything or anyone. He looked so afraid, Jana wasn't sure what she should do. She had never been put in a position like this before meeting Dominic. She was used to breaking up scuffles between her co-workers, and treating minor wounds that were bound to happen when working with lumber. But this was different. This was something she had no experience with, no clue what she could do other than try and be there for him. But how much could he take before he lashed out at her? Jana didn't want to believe that he would ever, but the more reasonable part of her said it was in fact a possibility.

"I am right, or I wouldn't have said it, because I'm not willing to make a liar out of myself." She smiled briefly. I was so worried about you. I wish I could be of more help..."

Slowly, as not to frighten herself or Dominic further, Jana moved closer to him. Wrapping her arms loosely around him and leaning herself against his chest. Jana was content to listen to his heart beating, proof he was alive. Nothing went terribly wrong, he was still here. Dominic was here, and Landon was back at the house, no one was dead, no one was mortally wounded. This was indeed a plus. As bad as things went, they could have gone much worse. There was still her father to deal with, he was of course not at all happy with her right now. But maybe she justed didn't want to deal with him period. After all he'd put her through tonight, and still sided against her, Jana wasn't sure she was ready to forgive him, at least not yet anyway.

Jana wanted to say something but found she couldn't anything into words at this point. She wanted to ask what he wanted to do now, where he wanted to go from here. Of course she wanted to stay together but how to go about it is what nagged at her. Her father and Landon were to much of a danger to Dominic to be around him, unless they straightened up and learned to get along with him. Though Jana wasn't hopeful that either of the two would change their minds. But whatever they were going to do didn't need to be decided this moment.

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Stille Nacht {GXK} Nov 20, 2010 18:55:44 GMT -5

Post by semper on Nov 20, 2010 18:55:44 GMT -5

Dominic felt stuck, stuck like a bird with its foot caught in its own nest as the tree's falling, crashing through other limbs in a furious rain of twigs and splinters, hurtling faster and faster towards the ground. Instead of a nest, though, it was his relationship with Jana; and instead of a tree, it was his schizophrenia. He desperately wanted to stay with her -- having had no constant sane contact with any other person, he felt, made him a bit clingy towards her -- but the reaction of others was making him worried. Would people torment Jana because she chose to stay with a mentally unstable boy? Would they assault him for even thinking he had a chance at an almost-normal life? Already things seemed to be turning against them, which were starting to form his doubts.

He really did like Jana (who wouldn't like the first person that came along and didn't ward them off verbally or physically?), and because of that, he didn't want to leave her anytime soon. But because Landon and her father were bluntly expressing their dislike for the situation, Dominic was starting to think it would be better for him to just quietly leave and let things simmer down. That, though, would mean leaving Jana behind; doing the one thing he did not want to do. But if they were to escape together, how would Landon and her father react? Most likely they would go looking for her and heaven only knows what they would do if they found him with her somewhere far off. The boy wouldn't be the least bit surprised if that event turned out to be his demise, though not untimely; it was only a matter of stability and karma that was keeping other people, or even himself, from murdering him.

Feeling Jana's arms come around him was like the falling tree being set back upright and secured in place, the little bird pulling its foot free of the nest. Things would turn out alright -- wouldn't they? Maybe the end wouldn't be as bad as his tormented mind pictured it to be; maybe he actually would grow old with her, raise some little ones and watch them grow. The voice couldn't plague him for the entirety of his life--

Oh, but I can.

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The sound of the voice made him quickly wrap his arms around her tightly, holding her against him. Jana was his rock, his safe haven for when things were turning south. He pushed the voice's comment out of his mind, focusing on her

"Believe it or not, you've been helping me more than anyone else. Even my parents."

Even though he was hesitant with the last part of his statement, he knew it was true. The peace his parents had given him was horribly short lived, leaving him out in the open as soon as his mother had died. His father, despite desperate attempts, had ultimately failed trying to keep his son grounded.

"You don't know how much that means to me."

Dominic held her tightly against him, almost as though he thought if he were to let go he would lose her. He tried to ignore the voice, his bleeding knuckles, the glass in his back, his smarting eye and chest -- all of it gone in an attempt to only focus on Jana. She was the only thing he was concerned with at the moment, and not even Landon or Mr. Hale could change that.

"Maybe.... maybe we should leave. Or maybe I should. If you feel you should stay, though, by all means stay; don't feel that you need to make decisions based on worry. Just... do what you think is best."

The boy was afraid that maybe he had said the wrong thing, though he hardly knew what he had meant to say in the first place other than to not worry about him.

((I'm so sorry it took me forever to post. DDDDD8 My Internet was down for a good week and a half. Dx And the ending is just.... blehk. D: I didn't know how else to end it.))
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Stille Nacht {GXK} Nov 24, 2010 16:43:30 GMT -5

Post by gxk on Nov 24, 2010 16:43:30 GMT -5

~Jana~

Jana felt the cold of the night start to yield to the warmth washing over her as she tightened her grip on Dominic. He was ok, she had to repeat that to herself over and over. He was ok, he was alive, and he was well other than minor wounds. Landon had taken the brunt of beating that occurred in their scuffle. That gave Jana a small sense of satisfaction. Landon had been beaten by the boy he deemed to be crazy. Too crazy to be be trusted with her. And the more she thought about it, the more it made her angry. Jana felt she could trust Dominic, and wasn't going to let her father, friend, or anyone else sway her from that. And second of all, didn't they trust her? Did they not trust her to make her own decisions about who she could love? And for god's sake she'd been a lumberjack basically her whole life. Even at 5'2" she was strong, and was confident in her ability to protect herself if anything did happened. Apparently though they saw her as weak in mind and body. And the fact that Jana was so much like her dead mother only increased her father's over protectiveness of his little girl.

That wretched voice must have been tormenting him because she felt Dominic's grip suddenly tightened on her small frame. After such a long and 'eventful' day Jana was starting to feel the lack of sleep and emotional stress catching up with her. With a tired sigh Jana leaned against Dominic, depending on him to support part of her light weight. She had never known how draining it could be to watch your loved ones fight each other, almost kill each other even. There is no doubt in her mind if things had not come to a screeching halt when they had, Dominic, Landon, or both would be dead right now. She could have gotten seriously injured trying to break them up, even if that had been the least of her concerns. She had promised Dominic she would hurt him before she would let him hurt her or someone else. But when it down to it, she couldn't do it. She could not hurt him for something he couldn't control. She'd broken her promise, even if out of caring too much. Yet he had said she had already helped him more than his parents...

"You don't know how much that means to me."

"Good. Everyone has at least one person that truly cares about them no matter what. I remember my mother telling me that once before she died. I was only five, but I can still remember certain things..."

A lump began to form in Jana's throat, talking about her mother still got her a bit choked up, even now. They had been so alike, it had taken a huge toll on her father. And Jana sometimes felt that she caused him pain by being a constant reminder of his lost wife. Same red hair, same eyes, same small but well muscled figured. And most importantly same caring yet independent attitude. Once upon a time she had asked her father about this, and he had told her that she reminded him of all the good times with her mom, and not ever think she caused him pain. But she today she had. She had sided with a boy he didn't trust instead of him and Landon, who had been a family friend since he and Jana were toddlers. Despite her close bond with her dad Jana felt she had made the right choice to go with Dominic. They were the unfair ones after all.

"Maybe.... maybe we should leave. Or maybe I should. If you feel you should stay, though, by all means stay; don't feel that you need to make decisions based on worry. Just... do what you think is best."

Jana froze for a moment. What to do was such a big decision, but it had to be made. Only she didn't exactly trust herself to make the right choice. Last time she made a decision it almost got someone killed... But this one seemed to come to her fairly quickly, and confidently. Even so, her voice came in the whisper of a child.

"I- I think we should go... Even if it's just long enough for everyone to cool off a bit... Seven is almost all woods, there has to be somewhere we could stay. That way we could get away but not have to worry about peacekeepers who would lock us up for leaving Seven all together... I'm not sure what exactly to do, but I know I don't want you to go without me."