I'm still a kid, even though I'm colder...

So. This is how it’s going to be. I thought I was going to stick it out, be a good member and try to stay. Or at least until I had no responsibilities left or had no responsibilities at all. This involved trying to stay, or officially be here until after the reapings were done and I had no tributes. I figured it would be a good plan, so here I am. Don’t try to think of me as that whiny girl who says she’s going to leave because of that. Because honestly, I didn’t want one. Because I am done.



Let’s reverse to late April. That’s when I was a little “…OK.” About this site. Mostly because Hayley had introduced me to a wonderful new site that I absolutely adored. A music website. I found refuge in not having to try over the top gimmicks of characters, where I could make new ones and not be called a charwhore, where I could use my artistic creativity to put things into perspective, not revolving around a fictional universe that is overly gory and violent. I mean, I did enjoy the aspect of the future, but when you’re told that you cannot have a character with normal means of clothing, it was a bit odd for me to think about. So, my post quality went down, and one of my characters post count spiked. I slowly fell into something of a muse loss, not being able to do much. I’d occasionally pop into the cbox when bored, but honestly, it decreased a ton.



And then I’d have those days where I’d lounge around the cbox like I did on Saturdays in past months. I did honestly feel like I belonged on those days, it was just… Most days I didn’t. I felt uncomfortable with the type of people that’d come into the cbox, and I was craving for the days that I remember, laughing about stupid stuff and YouTube videos. Where tiny chats were frequent and all that fun stuff. I wanted to talk to the members of my Hunger Games generation, and with Hayley being an admin on the site she introduced me to by then, she wasn’t around much, so I felt lost at points, since it seems every single member has one person that they can confide in, a mind twin, if you speak. Aya and Lulu, Eastern and South, Kara and Cinder. Everybody seems to have one person they can constantly rely on. And when my person dwindled in activity, I began to be more active on the site that she was an admin on. And it was nice to be part of a smaller community. You knew everyone, so there wasn’t room for staff cliques and their pets. I liked how it was.



And then, the whole turning point with me was an argument over the cbox. It wasn’t huge; it just made me wonder if all creativity was lost. It seemed like ideas were being stolen left and right. I mean, I know, it’s a huge site, and I admit it, I’ve had some failures in creativeness. I totally admit to it. And I went on a rant. Just a huge rant. Mentally, I know. I pounded a few ranting words into a keyboard, regretted them, and ignored them, all that fun stuff. All of the flaws that I had contained from here just were let out. How some members behaved, how some people acted how things were run. I was irritated. I felt uncomfortable as it got. I did not feel like this was the place for me anymore after that.



So, about a week later with lack of activity level due to my internal rants, I then told Nofo that I would take a week off of this site and see if my overall pessimistic attitude blew over. I enjoyed my time off the site. I discovered other websites, made 1,000+ word posts on other sites, developed ways to write, went swimming, talked to my family more, found new music, the whole nine yards. Well, after a week, I guess I was welcomed back with a lukewarm reception. I guess. So, then, I told myself something. If I didn’t get a reaped character, and had no further responsibilities due to this, I’d write up a leaving post and I’d leave. I even discussed this with Hayley, and she said she’d do the same thing.



So, I’ve decided I’m going to put some of my characters up for adoption. These are the ones that I have heavily invested in plots, and my favorites. So, up for adoption will go Nikko and Vella. If you’d like another one of mine, email me, por favor? When I’m gone, somebody please make a Ryland Blackinton district six. It’s my last hunger games rpg request.



So, I am leaving. Long story short, I thank every one of the people that have come in contact with me because you’ve all influenced me in some way. Every single one of you. So, in case you’d like to contact me outside of the site….



Email me: glitterhannah1@yahoo.com

Twitter: Glitterhannahei



So… yeah. I’m going to leave you with one last Cobra link, because they rule. And…. Bye.



-Glitter