What I just realized... {Hayley
Mar 2, 2011 20:40:45 GMT -5
Post by peanutpie on Mar 2, 2011 20:40:45 GMT -5
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Dolly Anne Redici tended to perfer to lay on her bed, face up and look at the ceiling in the morning. Honestly, she found it to be one of the more pleasant experiences of life. Watching the small crevices in the ceiling twirl around eachother. She rolled her hair between her forefinger and thumb, trying to make sense of why she was thinking. Honestly, it was two in the morning and she was quite tired, though her mind had been focused on something for a long time now. God, she had been out of the detention center for a good few weeks now and had her gaze fixated on the ceiling for a good three fourths of this time. Sure, she had gotten up and slept, but if she was laying down, due to a relative laziness, she had just sat there, gazing at the ceiling with a dramatic gaze in her green eyes and a fixation on making sure that her dark brown hair was constantly pressed to one finger, inbetween the nails.
She considered this for a moment, looking at the coarse hairs that her in her hand. God, she was being unproductive. Doing nothing but sitting there around, thinking about how life had been so twisted. Sure, it was bound to happen at some point. Yes, but not with her own brother God, that was just sick and twisted. And they were the people that were considered to be relativley hateful of eachother. Wanting to despise eachother in a tatic of insanity. She looked at her fingernails, something she had at one point taken much care of. She looked at the chipped paint and slight decrease in length in disgust, focusing the small amount of anger she had left, or emotion in general; towards the hair that sat in her palm. Yanking a few strands from her head, she wondered.
She wondered what would happen if she was an only child. She'd probably not be as screwed up as she was currently, with her head against the wall and an intent on lonliness. Sure, she was accompanied by a quite alive being that wasn't visible at the moment, something she'd rather not think about. Her green eyes traced the ceiling with an intresting pattern to them. She pondered this for a second, finally just feeling angered. Why was she just sitting her, emotionless with nothing in her right mind? She dropped the hair in her palm and looked at the ceiling one last time. She'd stop this habit that had been circling her mind since the beggining of the exit. She just was done. Sure, her arson in the detention center's sentence had been something that she felt still, but being smothered by her friendly childhood walls opposed to the unfamiliar steel ones was just horrible. She looked up at the door and sat up, rubbing her head. God, it was quite stupid how she was just being who she was, doing nothing but leaning against the wooden bed, but she got up and stood up.
She rose to her feet and stood on her toes, trying to find something to think about. Thinking, or cruel and quick thinking had once been her specialty... She finally just crossed her hands over the other and dramatically sashayed through the house. Her bare feet padded on the flooring and she blinked her cruel gaze at the family's cat. Stupid cat, laying on the floor. What a stupid, fat cat with nothing to do in life but lick himself by the fireplace and sit there like an imbecle. She wished she could just kill the damn animal, trying to find herself with the kitchen knife. She pondered this and finally just slipped into the kitchen and reached for a shining silver knife from the wooden knife block. She recalled that her family had been quite intrested in keeping kitchen utencils in the right place, so when she plucked a black handled knife from it, she knew it was the perfect one. Her hand grasped the knife in her palm and strolled back into the living room.
With that, she looked at the cat, her green eyes against it's blue tabby surface. A gift from her parents when she turned ten, she had loved that cat so much. She had named it something like smoke or a word that she found to be appropriate for the coloring. But now, the cat was just unintresting. Not worth keeping. Her eyes linked with the cats copper ones. He or she flicked it's tail into the air and Dolly raised her eyebrows at the animal. And with that, she went to the cat and dug the blade into the flesh of the animal. It was a pleasant experience to feel the blade running through its skin, and the desperate yowls that the cat had were just inspiration to dip the blade deeper. After a few minutes of this cruel and heartless act, Dolly eyed the animal that was sitting there in such a manner that seemed to be intresting. She looked at the torn fur and laughed to herself. Heh. She crossed the living room, knife in hand and watched the animal not move.