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Apr 19, 2011 7:21:24 GMT -5
Post by Nervoux on Apr 19, 2011 7:21:24 GMT -5
Jayden Azrielle
"Wow, I'm sorry to hear that. I'm not usually the friendly type, but if you want, you could always talk to me. We both have.. problems in our life, and I don't exactly think that hiding them from each other would make it worse. We sort of understand each other in a way."
Jayden stared at Darox with skeptical eyes, trying to make out what he was trying to say. Was he actually offering the district rebel help? It was weird for him to experience, for usually no one offered him help. Sure, the people in charge at the Community Home offered help, or atleast as much help as they could, but he never took it. He never even went there anymore.
"Anyways, why don't we talk about something.. happier? As much as I loved letting everything out, I'd rather not have to think about it all. Sometime I think I'm going a bit crazy. I mean... I slit my wrists, spend endless weeks in my room."
Jayden nodded, his cautious look evaporating and being replaced by a look of sympathy. As much as he hated the emotion to be directed towards him, he couldn't help but direct it towards Darox. The boy just seemed so sad, so lost, and hopeless. The thought of losing a sibling even made him cringe slightly, for he had something similiar. In a way, it was like someone in his family died, except it was just that they were just gone. Gone to who knows where, they could be right around the corner and he would never know it.
"I mean, is it all worth it? Is it worth slitting all my wrists because my sister died? Sure, I loved her, but I mean, I can kill myself in the process. And as much as I would love to see her again, I'd like to wait a bit."
Jayden, without thinking, reached his hand out and placed it on Darox's shoulder. He didn't like the way Darox was spilling out everything to him, confiding into him like he was a friend. The thing was, Jayden knew how to help, he just hated showing it. He didn't like others to see his soft side... but there was no one around, so it couldn't hurt, right?
"Is it worth it? To tell you the truth, I don't think slit-... hurting yourself will help anything. I didn't know your sister, but I'm sure she wouldn't want you to do this to yourself. And besides, it wasn't your fault she died, so you shouldn't have to cause yourself pain.." Jayden said, biting his lip after he was finished.
Jayden took his hand off of Darox's shoulder once he realized he was done. An idea popped into his head, to also confine in this person, but something else was screaming at him not too. He couldn't tell this boy, someone he had just met, everything that was wrong with. But, Darox jus ttold him everything, so it would be wrong not too. He sighed, deciding against telling him anything, it just didn't feel right.
"But, I guess I shouldn't be saying anything. I mean, I steal and cause trouble just so that I'm noticed. The thought of my parents...leaving me causes me to feel alone about everything I do. I have to have people watching me because-" he cut himself off, realizing that he had spoken against what he decided. He sighed and just looked down in frustration. "I agree, something happier would be nice" he murmered.