Apology & Break
Nov 27, 2011 3:53:00 GMT -5
Post by kaykay on Nov 27, 2011 3:53:00 GMT -5
To anyone that cares, I'm going to be taking a break from HG:RPG.
I'm tired, stressed out, and plain aggravated. This lead to things going down on the cbox, because... let's face it, I have anger management issues, and when I get angry I think little of what I say. This time I have offended several of the staff, which was not my intention. I would like to apologize for what I said and hope they accept this apology. I have my own reasons for behaving the way I do... but I don't want to make excuses for my actions, so yeah... let's just leave that out.
It's my own fault, but despite the fact such incidences have happened a few times now, I still have trouble controlling my mouth. Even though I know this incidence was my fault, and I went too far, I still feel uncomfortable at HG:RPG at present. Not that I felt all that welcome before today, but... yeah. If anyone reads this that happened to be there at the time, you'll know why. Even if I don't think the situation was dealt with in a good way, I understand and accept the staff and other players' responses. My anger quite often gets the best of me, especially when defending something/someone I care about. So please don't take this as an accusation.
What I mean to say is that I'm sorry for anyone that was hurt by what I said. The filter between my brain and my mouth broke somewhere along the way. I hope the people in question accept my apology. I don't wish to make things worse by adding to the negative atmosphere with my presence when people have already told me they want me gone. So I'll drop out until my exams (or at least the biochem one) are finished and hopefully things will have calmed down by then.
If things continue in this manner after I've returned... I guess I'll have to leave the site. Even though many people may perceive me as a troll, I don't enjoy conflict. I have enough to deal with in my life, so honestly don't want to spend my free time when I just want to write and relax to be spent stressed out about having angered half the site. If you don't want to accept or believe my apology, you are free to do so.
I'm sorry to those who are affected by me dropping out so suddenly... if there are any. Hell... if there are any that have bothered to read this far to begin with.
KayKay
I'm tired, stressed out, and plain aggravated. This lead to things going down on the cbox, because... let's face it, I have anger management issues, and when I get angry I think little of what I say. This time I have offended several of the staff, which was not my intention. I would like to apologize for what I said and hope they accept this apology. I have my own reasons for behaving the way I do... but I don't want to make excuses for my actions, so yeah... let's just leave that out.
It's my own fault, but despite the fact such incidences have happened a few times now, I still have trouble controlling my mouth. Even though I know this incidence was my fault, and I went too far, I still feel uncomfortable at HG:RPG at present. Not that I felt all that welcome before today, but... yeah. If anyone reads this that happened to be there at the time, you'll know why. Even if I don't think the situation was dealt with in a good way, I understand and accept the staff and other players' responses. My anger quite often gets the best of me, especially when defending something/someone I care about. So please don't take this as an accusation.
What I mean to say is that I'm sorry for anyone that was hurt by what I said. The filter between my brain and my mouth broke somewhere along the way. I hope the people in question accept my apology. I don't wish to make things worse by adding to the negative atmosphere with my presence when people have already told me they want me gone. So I'll drop out until my exams (or at least the biochem one) are finished and hopefully things will have calmed down by then.
If things continue in this manner after I've returned... I guess I'll have to leave the site. Even though many people may perceive me as a troll, I don't enjoy conflict. I have enough to deal with in my life, so honestly don't want to spend my free time when I just want to write and relax to be spent stressed out about having angered half the site. If you don't want to accept or believe my apology, you are free to do so.
I'm sorry to those who are affected by me dropping out so suddenly... if there are any. Hell... if there are any that have bothered to read this far to begin with.
KayKay