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Finally over... Feb 16, 2012 17:07:08 GMT -5

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Post by gxk on Feb 16, 2012 17:07:08 GMT -5

So many of you know my dad was really really sick with drug and alcohol addiction. Well he's been in the ICU with a failed liver and kidneys. Today he finally passed away. I was told all his vital signs started going down last night and this morning at 8am his heart stopped. Doctors had orders not to resuscitate as there was no chance of him ever recovering.

I hated my dad for everything that he did and put us all through, but now that he's gone, I don't hate him anymore. He wanted to be a good person. When he was sober he was a good guy, he just made really really bad choices and couldn't turn it around. When I saw him on his deathbed he said "I want to get better so I can see you guys again." We gave him plenty of chances that he never came through on, but that one sentence keeps replaying in my head.

Basically I won't be around much until the dust settles. I have funeral stuff to deal with, and just trying to figure everything out.

RIP Anthony
8/29/66 - 2/16/12

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Finally over... Feb 17, 2012 15:33:32 GMT -5

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Post by gxk on Feb 17, 2012 15:33:32 GMT -5

Thanks guys!

To make things worse, I just found out this morning at 1am a friend of mine from my old school was killed in a car accident. I got home and my mom asked me if I knew her. We were in band and gym together, she was senior in high school. Just turned 18 Feb 8th.

Her boyfriend drove the car off the road, hit a stump, the car flipped and started on fire. He walked away with minor injuries, one girl went to the hospital and was released, the other male passenger is still in the hospital but stable, and she was pronounced dead at the hospital.

He fricken killed her. There was no reason for him to have gone off the road, he wasn't avoiding anything, the road wasn't slippery. So help me if he was drunk....

{danny} Merchant [M:-795] 220 POSTS last seen Sept 28, 2012 20:41:19 GMT -5 but there's an itch that we've got to scratch. so set the fuse and we'll strike the match.	Finally over... Feb 17, 2012 15:40:06 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by {danny} on Feb 17, 2012 15:40:06 GMT -5 gxk... i hope everything is okay. we love you here and we want you to feel better. take all the time you need. we love you with all our hearts. we hope it will be ok.
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Finally over... Feb 27, 2012 17:24:49 GMT -5

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Post by gxk on Feb 27, 2012 17:24:49 GMT -5

So I got an update on the crash that killed my friend.... Her boyfriend was indeed drunk and speeding. He has been charged with Vehicular Homicide, driving under the influence, and other charges.

Makes it even more upsetting to know if he hadn't been so stupid as to drive drunk, Emily would still be here. *sigh* Very very sad, I've been sitting around thinking about it all of winter break. Didn't get to go to her wake or funeral, so I decided not to go to my dad's either. Didn't want to deal with his stupid family anyway.

Anyway, I am slowly going to be returning to posting and tutoring here. ^^ I needed some time to just think about everything else going on in my life, and it's still hard, but it's better than it was. And I missed all you wonderful people. XD

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Finally over... Mar 2, 2012 14:36:46 GMT -5

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Post by Tea on Mar 2, 2012 14:36:46 GMT -5

Oh, gxk<3

I'm so sorry I didn't see this earlier. With my hiatus, I've only been checking in periodically, and somehow this slipped past me, and I'm sorry that it did.

I know this probably sounds so very cliche, but if you ever need anyone to talk to, hit me up with a message on Facebook, as that would probably be the best way to contact me.

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