Be {Somebody/Anybody} [Tamina]
Dec 28, 2011 15:41:12 GMT -5
Post by Morgana on Dec 28, 2011 15:41:12 GMT -5
Deception HammondI am moving through the crowd.Sometimes, I wish I could wake up in a different room, in a different house, in a different life. I can imagine it, almost. A life where my parents are still alive and the house doesn't smell like dog shit and there's always dog hair everywhere, on everything. I can't remember my parents, but sometimes I wish I did. My dad would have brown hair, just like Harvard's, since they were brothers. And my mom would have long blonde hair. She'd look like an angel, and cook food that was actually edible. She'd pat me on the head and touch me on the arm just to remind me that she's there, that I'm safe. And my father would come home after a long day of work, and he'd be exhausted but he'd pull out his guitar anyway, and we'd play together until Mom called us to dinner. But all that's just a dream. It can't happen. My parents will never come back, and Harvard will never treat me like a son. So that's that. I'm stuck here.
While I'm getting dressed, I remember that Harvard said something last night about someone coming today to get a dog. It's kind of strange, since people in District Ten don't usually have the time or money for pets. Most are too busy taking care of other animals so they can make a living. Harvard sends dogs to the Capitol, but occasionally some will get sent out to District One and Two, because they can actually afford that kind of luxury. I'm curious to see who it is that's getting a dog today. Probably one of the few wealthy residents of Ten. For a moment, I let myself believe it's Namia that's coming. I know it won't be, though. I only talked to her once, and though I'd hoped for something more than a drink at the coffee shop, I didn't get anything. She was in my life one day and gone the next.
When I get downstairs, the first thing I see is Harvard, passed out on the couch. He's sleeping off last night's beers, and if I know one thing, it's that he won't be up until noon. Which means I'll end up handling our customer today by myself. The four dogs that Harvard keeps inside are whining at me, their large eyes asking for food and to be let out. I walk to the front door and push it open, letting them run outside to do their business. While they're taking care of that, I fill up their food bowls, then head outside to do the same for the dogs in the kennels. After they get their food I refill water bowls and let dogs out to run around the space of land I call home. Once all that is done and I'm starving, I head back inside and fix myself a bowl of oatmeal.
I hate oatmeal. I really, really hate it. But what with all the beer Harvard buys and the cost of dog food and all that other shit, bland things like oatmeal is about all we afford. Harvard and I are not rich in any way, except maybe in dogs. And honestly, who wants to say they have more dogs than they do money? Maybe some people wouldn't mind this, living with dogs around you all the time. But me? I hate dogs even more than oatmeal. When they're not peeing on your things, they're begging for attention and shedding on you. They're just a nuisance.
While I'm waiting for whoever it is to show up, I decide to take out my guitar. It's cold outside, and there's a shit ton of snow on the ground, but I sit out on the front steps anyway. The concrete is cracked and my coat is threadbare. In ten minutes, my fingers will probably be too frozen to play anything right. But for now, I'll play as loud as I can. And if Harvard wakes up and yells at me, who cares? I'll just pretend I'm someone else in a different place.