Bleeds You Rough {Tori}
Jan 14, 2012 21:16:44 GMT -5
Post by Morgana on Jan 14, 2012 21:16:44 GMT -5
Pettissa ArnoldThe weight of the world
Has pushed me to the wall.
In all honesty, I'm getting a little tired of this. I'm sick of watching little brats try their best to please me, when such a thing isn't possible. They try so hard, but it isn't enough. The one thing I want is to be there, training with them again. Usually, kids don't bother me so much. I actually really like them. But lately, I've felt rather vicious. I don't know who to blame for all of this. Myself, I guess, for not volunteering when I had the chance. This was my choice, to stay here and be part of this world. I didn't give up being a Career completely. I'll always be one, somewhere in my soul. I just started training Careers instead. It isn't all bad. Sometimes I get to train someone who really wants to be in the Games. Someone who tries their hardest, and doesn't give up at the first sign of hard work. But I also get stuck with the new recruits. Like I said, kids don't bother me that much. What does bother me is spending more time keeping those kids away from the swords and preventing them from cutting each others limbs off than actually training them. At one point, I ripped off my gloves and showed them my pinkie finger - or lack of pinkie finger, I should say - just to remind them how dangerous being a Career can be. It's not all fun and games.
Downstairs, I can hear my mother at the stove, something sizzling in a skillet. The smell of bacon wafts up to me, mingling with the scent of scrambled eggs. It's times like this that I'm glad I haven't moved out yet. I get fed much better here than I would if I lived alone. I roll out of bed and brush my hair flat, whipping it back into a pony when I'm done. Stripping off my pajamas, I dress in a pair of well-worn jeans that still allow for a full range of movement, and a t-shirt Dad got me four years ago. It's white with black letters that says, "I could kick your ass, I just don't want to." The letters are faded and the fabric is thin, but it's always been one of my favorites. My dad thought I would like it because of what it says, but I like it more because of the looks people give me. Lastly, I slip on a pair of thin leather gloves to hide my missing finger, then open the door and head to the kitchen.
My mom smiles at me when I enter the room, taking in my outfit and nodding in approval. Without even asking, she sets a plate down on the table, laden with bacon and eggs. I thank her, then take a seat and begin gobbling it down. Today is my day off, but I'm planning on going to the training center anyway. It's been too long since I've sparred for my own enjoyment, or taken a swing at a punching bag for any reason besides a demonstration. I'm looking forward to spending a whole day exercising. After I finish my meal, I tell Mom I'm going out. Once I'm outside, I start off with a light jog. Even though it's the middle of winter and snow coats the ground, I don't wear a coat. I figure my jog will warm me up. It's not that far to the center anyway.
When I arrive, I'm breathing hard, but am happy to report that I'm not sweating. That'll come later, when I really get into it. It would have been disappointing to learn that I'm so out of shape that a simple jog made me break out in a sweat. I wave to a few people I know, some of them acquaintances, some of them my students, as I head for the mats near the back of the building. They're set up for sparring, either hand-to-hand or armed. A few couples are already out on the floor, going at it as their trainers look on. I join the crowd of spectators, trying to judge if anyone fighting is worth taking on. In the end, I decide just to head over to the are where they have dummies set up so you can practice individually. I select a nice lightweight spear and find a dummy that isn't taken, then begin practicing. I fall into the rhythm of it right away. It feels so good to be practicing again, I'm not sure I'll want to stop when the time comes.