once or twice. [wonder!]
Feb 4, 2012 5:09:12 GMT -5
Post by ∂αмєη on Feb 4, 2012 5:09:12 GMT -5
[8FA3CC] [5C7099] [CED4E0]Snow kind of has a love hate relationship with the world. I mean, it's beautiful and soft and of course there's the fact that each snowflake is unique and special but in the end, it's still cold. We obviously don't love the cold but everything else is so awesome. How could something be so awesome and yet be so horrible at the same time? I don't know, you tell me. All I know is that snow is pretty awesome until it chills you to the bone. Luckily for me, I had only just stepped outside and into the winter wonderland. Today was the day I normally set aside for heading to the line of shops nearby and checking out what was new. My house was slowly getting filled with all the necessities of life and with some things I'd enjoy but there was still plenty more room.
Moving had been a tough decision but in the end, it was a smart move. My mother was a nice woman and all but she only reminded me of the one thing that I was trying to run away from; my past. Moving to another house kind of represented moving on and accepting that I could be a new person if I really wanted to. Yeah, I had the scars from the past to prove that I lived through it and I'd always walk with a limp even though my artificial leg served as a replacement. It didn't matter if I had small reminders that I lived through it. I just didn't want anchors to hold me down. My mother was only going to be an anchor and with her protective personality mixed with the motherly instinct crap, she'd only be a nightmare as the years go by. She's already trying to keep me from interacting with girls because she 'doesn't want to see her little man go'. News flash mum? I'm kind of well over six foot and little man no longer applies.
The Square was filled with people who's eyes were fixated on the giant screen. Avon and Reyes had made it out of the Bloodbath alive and were as of now, still alive. Reyes was somebody that I never had the chance to meet, whether that was a good thing or not. Having a victor from our District once again would obviously be a good thing but he's not the one that I'm cheering for. Avon is the only tribute I've ever had ties to, other than York. Even then, I really didn't know him well enough to care. Avon, although I only met her once at the Christmas celebration, was somebody who's death could affect me. Not only would it affect me because she's District One and cause I'm all about District spirit but she's also related to the one girl who I actually care about. And no, that's not my mum.
Edana Lightwood still remained on my mind. Was there ever a time where she wasn't? Seriously, I needed help or something. Either I was falling completely head over heels in love with the girl or she managed to find a way to insert her image into my brain. Something like that. I don't know, is it possible to get access to somebody's brain and to alter it in whatever way you wish? If that was actually possible, Edana would be the first one to figure out how to do it. She was so smart and so beautiful and such a dork but in a cute way. Every bit of me wanted to avoid the feelings that were showing up. After Lyla and all of that, I really haven't been very interested in any romantic relationship at all. And yet, here I am falling for Edana. It wasn't just a simple 'oh wow she's beautiful and amazing'. No. Whenever I was around her, I felt like the world was in my hand and I could do whatever I damn well pleased.
That's what interested me the most about Edana. She made me feel new and she made me feel like I was the only person who she'd ever need. And that was the weirdest part. We were just friends and yet she made me feel so many things. For all I knew, she could have put me in the friend zone the very first moment we met. I did first meet her when she was pregnant with another person's child. Albeit, he was no longer with us but maybe she still had a love for York. That would really suck, obviously, considering how I feel about her. It would be so much easier if I could just find out how she felt and then we could actually act upon those feelings, if hers were the same at least. The softness of her lips attracted my eyes and it was hard enough to hold back from just leaning forward and kissing her. Still, she was the closest thing I had to a friend at this point. I didn't want to lose her that easily.
A large crowd was gathered around this row of shops and I quickly walked through it and towards one of the stores. Stepping inside, I pulled my hood down from my head and shook it a bit. Elegant flowers decorated the walls, each one seeming to be more colourful and beautiful than the one beside it. Edana loved flowers. When I brought her some the day she asked me to spend Christmas with her, she seemed so excited. Maybe that could win me some good points, you know? The bell on the door rang though, announcing that another customer had entered. Maybe he was thinking the same thing I was. Buying flowers for the girl you cared about was definitely a smart idea. Not many people came in to the shop as they found flowers too cheap. But apparently myself and the other guy didn't. So I turned to him and smiled. "Stupid question for you? If you were a teenage girl, would you prefer yellow, purple or red flowers?"