''over and over again'' [dee!]
Jan 5, 2012 1:31:33 GMT -5
Post by ∂αмєη on Jan 5, 2012 1:31:33 GMT -5
[DAD7D7] [FFC249] [75B8D5]Gently swinging the bag over my shoulder, I left the house to head to the normal spot once again. The leather pouch was filled with a small bouquet of flowers and a few apples that I had picked from a tree just outside the District border. Each one was washed in the river nearby and then in my sink in order to ensure that it wasn't going to have anything bad on it. I planned on giving everything to Europa and I didn't want to give her something bad. For the past while we had been meeting at the same spot we first met and spent quite a bit of time together. It was good to have somebody around your age who had gone through the same thing you went through. And Europa had to deal with it again. She was now going through it with her older sister. At least, that's what she told me. I decided to stay away from the Games. I didn't want to watch any more death.
And Europa surely didn't want to see another one of her siblings die. I wasn't even sure that she was over Storm. It seemed like she was doing better but I couldn't tell. Most people would assume that I was over my brother but boy, they were wrong. That's why I wanted to keep meeting with Europa. Not only because we had become really close but also because she needed somebody to be there for her. Somebody who understood the pain she was surely feeling. Well, hopefully she wanted somebody to be there. If not, I was probably really annoying to her. I enjoyed the time that we had though. Everything was so easy with Europa. Being myself wasn't as hard as it was with everybody else and I felt as if she could do the same with me.
My eyes immediately flicked to the spot we always met once I arrived. It wasn't common for her to be there before me so I was not surprised when I saw nobody standing nearby. Still, I made my way towards the middle of the square and looked around in case she was looking in some of the stores. The large screen was showing scenes from the Hunger Games in a montage sort of way, showing deaths of each person. I wanted to look away. It hurt to watch the Games again. Especially when they showed the male dying early on. He reminded me of Trace. Not appearance wise. Definitely not in that way. He reminded me of Trace because they both died early on and they were both from District Five. Yeah, it was sort of embarrassing that I'd be reminded of Trace so easily but I didn't care.
Surprisingly, I was doing well. My mind was still intact. There was no breakdown just yet. But then I saw the smooth face of a girl as they showed her body and the name that appeared on the bottom registered immediately. Oh my god, no. I was running away from the square faster than I ever had before. The route to the house was already filling my thoughts and I was immediately following it within seconds. Once or twice I had walked Europa home but it was enough for me to memorize all the things that lead me to the nice little home. All the Wie's lived there, last I checked. It was pretty empty now, surely. Storm had died back in the 57th Games and now, as the clip on the television screen had just confirmed, there would be one less Wie in the home. Sundra Wie was dead now. The Games claimed another Wie and another kid from District Five.
My hand was immediately tapping against the door as I struggled to catch my breath. I had to see her. I had to speak to her. Every bit of me wanted to just smash through the door to see her and to comfort her if she needed it. Europa was my best friend. She was the only friend I had any more. Everybody else had left me when I started to crawl into my own shell. But Europa was there for me, whether she knew it or not. I needed to be here for her. I really wanted to and I really needed to. And so I knocked again in hopes of bringing somebody to the door. I would find Europa no matter what. I didn't want her to hurt. Because she was my best friend. Because she was the only thing I had any more. And because we were both so alone. Come on Europa. Answer the door.