Bury Me With It // [Ripley Boys]
Feb 15, 2012 14:25:40 GMT -5
Post by L△LIA on Feb 15, 2012 14:25:40 GMT -5
Well the suit got tight and it split at the seams
But I kept it out of habit and I kept it real clean
But if it's getting faded, if it's running out of thread
Would you just do this for me my friend
And please, just please, bury me with it
From a grave robber's perspective, a fresh grave is the best grave. When the earth is newly dug, soil upturned and soft, it's almost effortless to scoop it back up, as though one is simply shoveling air with a bit more weight that usual. And the air really does feel heavier when the keening echoes of a mother's wail still seem to hang on the breeze following a funeral that ended only a few hours earlier.
I saw her, veiled in black, with circles beneath her saltwater hewn eyes that were darker than any dress could ever be. Maybe it's cruel of me — although it could hardly be the worst thing I've done in life, considering how the thread-worn suit I was wearing had certainly not been new when I tugged its jacket over my shoulders for the first time — but I tried not to look at her too closely. Surely I was a blur to her too, some kind of faraway spirit, unreachable, divided by the watery boundary of her tears. Neither of us wanted to know the other in that moment.
Her son was older than my brothers and I, but there's no denying that he was still too young for death. Observing him laid out in his coffin, unlike with his mourning mother, I didn't have to tell myself not to focus on his eyes, his mouth, or any of the features that once made him recognizable as a human. No, I was too busy making a mental checklist: pocket watch, cuff links... shining new shoes that might just be something close to Jude's size. When you're able, it's best to do your research and be certain that your midnight digging really is for buried treasure and not simply a poorly crafted wooden box of fool's gold.We were aiming for the moon, we were shooting at the stars
But the kids were just shooting at the buses and cars
Don't drink that water and don't you breathe the air
And if it's gotten to that point then I have declare
That you, please, bury me with it
Still, despite the cries of sympathy and sorrow, there's a backwards kind of comfort in it all. When a grave is new, suspicions are never raised the following day at the sight of loose dirt that has been gathered up in a mound as if to say, "someone has been digging here." Of course someone has been digging there, people think to themselves as they lay a bundle of tear-damp lilies at the base of the headstone, such things are necessary in order to lay someone to rest deep within the untouchable soul of the earth. They forget that what can be laid down can also be picked up; that's why you should hold tight to what you truly want to keep, even in death. So hesitance seems to take a step back and away each time I swing my shovel down towards my feet, scooping up a pile of dirt and sending it soaring up into the air approximately six feet above and beyond.
It's not until I hear the clunk of a shovel colliding with the concealed surface of the coffin that I stop and peer into the darkness beside me, looking for confirmation and the night-shadowed face of one of my brothers. One corpse isn't really all that different from another. Something like a sigh curls out from my mouth, a hazily indecisive breath of air that turns an impolite sentiment of tired monotony into an appropriately ghost-white wraith of dispelled breath that flits off on a chilly gust of wind to dance away the witching hour with a graveyard companion or two.
With time I've grown almost bored with an acceptance of the vacant faces of the dead laying mere inches beneath the soles of my shoes. This is what we do. This is what the Ripley family has always done. So perhaps my voice is a little too dull or heartless when I break the silence with the only thought that really feels important in this moment — "Who wants the honors tonight?" — but if I wasted my sadness on just any dead stranger I see, I'd be even more soulless by now than my occupation demands me to be, stripped bare from emotions given away too easily. Our parents taught us not to waste anything, after all. "Let's get this dust-box pried open at double speed and hot foot it out of here. It's colder than death tonight."We've lost the plot and just can't choose
We are humming birds who are just not willing to move
And there's good news for people who love bad news
We are humming birds who've lost the plot and we will not move
We have good news for anyone who loves bad news