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I love this place.
I haven't been here in ages, but the intoxicating fumes of the liquor brings me back years. I walk toward the counter, distractedly watching the colorful, flashing florescent lights. The bartender smiles broadly as I get closer. "Starling!" he grins. "Haven't seen you in so long, girl! Where ya been?" I laugh. "Trying to fix my life and throwing it all away right now?
Also, I'll take one of those shots. The flashing ones." He nods. I picture Chryssie. She'd be disappointed.
Well, either that or she'd ask me to get her one.
I bite my lip as I accept the drink. Before I can hesitate, I drain the glass. "Hit me again!"
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"I love you all!" I bellow as I wobble uncertainly on the tabletop. The crowd cheers as I leap down, lading in a heap. I giggle furiously as I attempt to stand up. I flop my way to the counter, knocking back yet another shot. Is it my sixth? Ninth? More? I have no idea, and I don't really care. Why should I?
My hairclip from the last job is gone. I don't know if I took it off or if someone took it or I gave it away. I feel a pang of regret. I remember laughing about the ornate butterflies so encrusted with jewels that, if it was alive, would've been so heavy it couldn't even fly. I toss my short, weightless hair. You know what? I don't care.
A new fast-paced dance song comes on the stereo. "I love this song!" I squeal. I look down and notice my halter crop top has gotten twisted. I laugh uncontrollably though I can't figure out why. I shimmy my way over to the dance floor, spinning and twisting my body in ways I didn't know I could. This is the most fun I've had in ages. Who cares we don't have enough food? Who cares we have to snuggle close because of the frozen temperatures and the lack of blankets? Who cares my birthday is coming up and nobody cares? Not me! I bounce back and forth, faster and faster, letting the music take over my body.
"Wanna get out of here?" a voice breathes into my ear. I don't know who it is- hell, I'm so drunk I can't even tell if they're male or female. I glance over. My vision is blurry, and all I can see is they're pretty hot and that's all that matters to me right now. I wrap my arms around them, kissing fiercely.