Shipping Playlists!

Yeah, I have a playlist on my iTunes of over 200 songs for these boys, but these are the ones that consistently either make me cry or give me insane muse.

For those of you who haven't read their threads, Kaelen Dempsey and Colt Hanlon are the most tragic, torrid love affair to ever hit Panem. Kaelen's a refugee from District One, running from his past and keeping the world out with a chip on his shoulder that's more of a full-blown blizzard, and Colt is an original citizen of Three, fresh from four years of wandering, finally contenting himself to settle down after looking for love in all the wrong places. Along the way, they laugh, sing, fight, break each other's hearts, and maybe sort of fall desperately in love with each other. All of these songs are, I feel, from Kaelen's point of view, ranging everywhere from his early I'm-an-asshat-toying-with-your-heart phase to the point where he's so hopelessly in love it physically aches. It's not in any chronological order, but yeah, I feel like this is a really good insight to their relationship.

• Better Than I Know Myself - Adam Lambert

  Cold as ice and more bitter than a December winter night
  That's how I treated you
  And I know that I sometimes tend to lose my temper
  And I cross the line, yeah, that's the truth
  
  I know it gets hard sometimes
  But I could never leave your side, no matter what I say
  Cause if I wanted to go I would have gone by now
  But I really need you near me to keep my mind off the edge
  If I wanted to leave I would have left by now
  But you're the only one that knows me better than I know myself

• Cold - Crossfade

  I never really wanted you to see
  The screwed up side of me that I keep
  Locked inside of me so deep
  It always seems to get to me
  I never really wanted you to go
  So many things that you shouldn't have known
  I guess for me there's just no hope
  I never meant to be so cold
  
  What I really meant to say
  Is I'm sorry for the way I am
  I never meant to be so cold

• Breath Of Life - Florence + the Machine

  And although I was losing my mind
  It was a chorus so sublime
  But the room was too quiet
  Oh, oh, oh
  
  I was looking for a breath of life
  A little touch of heavenly light
  But all the choirs in my head sang
  No, oh, oh

• Beside You - Marianas Trench

  When you're overwhelmed and you've lost your breath
  And the space between the things you know is blurring nonetheless
  When you try to speak but you make no sound
  And the words you want are out of reach but they've never been so loud
  
  And if your heart wears thin I will hold you up
  And I will hide you when it gets too much
  I'll be right beside you, I'll be right beside you
  
  I will stay, nobody will break you
  Trust in me, trust in me, don't pull away
  Just trust in me, trust me 'cause I'm just trying to keep it together
  'Cause I could do worse and you could do better

• Love, Love, Love - Of Monsters and Men

  Maybe I'm a crook for stealing your heart away
  And maybe I'm a crook for not caring for it
  And maybe I'm a bad, bad, bad, bad person
  Well baby, I know
  
  And these fingertips, they'll never run through your skin
  Those bright eyes can only meet mine across a room
  Filled with people that are less important than you
  Because you love, love, love when you know I can't love
  You love, love, love when you know I can't love you

• Bright Lights and Cityscapes - Sara Bareilles

  Shield your eyes from the truth I am
  Tell me why it'll be good again
  All those demons are closing in and I don't want you to burn
  Never mind what I said before, I don't want any less anymore
  You are carbon and I'm the flame
  I will rise and you will remain
  
  For bright lights, and cityscapes, and landslides, and masquerades
  And she'll take all you ever have, but I'm gonna love you
  Say maybe it will last this time
  But I'm gonna love you, you'd never have to ask
  I'm gonna love you 'til you start looking back

• Soldier - Ingrid Michaelson

  I don't believe in anything but myself
  But then you opened up a door
  Now I start to believe in something else
  But how do I know if I'll make it through?
  How do I know? Where's the proof in you?
  
  And so it goes, this soldier knows
  The battle with the heart isn't easily won
  But it can be won

• Comatose - Skillet

  I hate living without you, dead wrong to ever doubt you
  But my demons lay in waiting tempting me away
  Oh, how I adore you, oh how I thirst for you, oh, how I need you
  
  Comatose, I'll never wake up without an overdose of you
  I don't wanna live, I don't wanna breathe unless I feel you next to me
  You take the pain I feel, waking up to you never felt so real
  I don't wanna sleep, I don't wanna dream,
  'Cause my dreams don't comfort me
  The way you make me feel, waking up to you never felt so real

• The Hardest of Hearts - Florence + the Machine

  There is love in our bodies and it holds us together
  And it pulls us apart when we're holding each other
  We all need something to hold in the night
  We don't care if it hurts when we're holding too tight
  
  There is love in your body but you can't get it out
  It gets stuck in your head, won't come out of your mouth
  Sticks to your tongue and it shows on your face that
  The sweetest of words have the bitterest taste
  
  Darling heart, I loved you from the start
  But you'll never know what a fool I've been
  Darling heart, I loved you from the start
  But that's no excuse for the state I'm in
  

• So Long - Ingrid Michaelson

  You've made me into someone who should not hold a loaded gun
  And now you sit upon my chest
  Knock out my wind, knock out my best
  
  And so long to no disasters, and mornings too
  And so long to ever afters, so long to you
  
  I am soft for only you
  Impale me with your tongue it's true
  And slices of me piled sky high
  The same old me to the naked eye
  But I can't find myself tonight

• Good Enough - Evanescence

  Under your spell again, I can't say no to you
  Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand, I can't say no to you
  Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly
  Now I can't let go of this dream
  I can't breathe but I feel good enough
  I feel good enough for you
  
  Drink up sweet decadence, I can't say no to you
  And I've completely lost myself and I don't mind, I can't say no to you
  Shouldn't let you conquer me completely
  Now I can't let go of this dream
  Can't believe that I feel good enough
  I feel good enough
  It's been such a long time coming but I feel good

• Die Alone - Ingrid Michaelson

  I never thought I could love anyone but myself
  Now I know I can't love anyone but you
  You make me think that maybe I won't die alone
  Maybe I won't die alone
  
  What have I become?
  Something soft and really quite dumb
  Because I've fallen, oh, 'cause I've fallen, oh 'cause I've fallen
  So far away from the place where I started from

• So I Thought - Flyleaf

  Ignorance is bliss, cherish it
  Pretty neighborhoods, you learn to much to hold
  Believe it not and fight the tears
  With pretty smiles and lies about the times
  A year goes by and I can't talk about it
  The times weren't right and I couldn't talk about it
  
  Chorus romance says good night
  Close your eyes and I'll close mine
  Remember you, remember me
  Hurt the first, the last between
  
  And I'm praying that we will see
  Something there in between
  Then and there that exceeds all we can dream
  So we can talk about it

• I Will Wait - Mumford & Sons

  Now I'll be bold as well as strong
  And use my head alongside my heart
  So tame my flesh and fix my eyes
  A tethered mind freed from the lies
  
  And I'll kneel down, wait for now
  And I'll kneel down, know my ground
  Raise my hands, paint my spirit gold
  Bow my head, keep my heart slow
  'Cause I will wait, I will wait for you

• Believe - Skillet

  I'm still trying to figure out how to tell you I was wrong
  I can't fill the emptiness inside since you've been gone
  So is it you or is it me?
  I know I said things that I didn't mean
  But you should've known me by now
  You should've known me
  
  If you believed when I said I'd be better off without you
  Then you never really knew me at all
  If you believed when I said that I wouldn't be thinking about you
  You thought you knew the truth, but you're wrong
  You're all that I need, just tell me that you still believe

• Sort Of - Ingrid Michaelson

  Baby, you've got the sort of hands to rip me apart
  And baby, you've got the sort of face to start this old heart
  But your eyes are warning me this early morning
  That my love's too big for you my love
  Baby, you've got the sort of laugh that waters me
  And makes me grow tall and strong and proud and flattens me
  I find you stunning, but you are running me down
  My love's too big for you my love
  
  And if I was stronger then I would tell you no
  And if I was stronger then I will leave this show
  And if I was stronger then I would up and go
  But here I am and here we go again

Yet another of the ridiculously huge D1 families, I'm so incredibly proud of how the Dempseys have grown from my original concept. I had always imagined Kaelen having a large family, and so it only made sense to think that the rest of the Dempsey clan would be just as crazy as him. These girls, and their parents, have become so near and dear to my heart throughout their brief existence. They're all so intricate and beautifully disturbed, and I love them all, especially now that I get to experience their dynamic with Kiera in the Games. Here's a playlist for my deranged little babies, each song marked with the family member I feel it represents. This one is dedicated to Windy, Chaos, Clover, Jimmeh, and Charade. Thanks for making my dream of the Dempseys a reality, you guys. I can;t think of anyone I'd rather write with. <3

• America's Suitehearts - Fall Out Boy

  Lets hear it for America's Suitehearts
  But I must confess, I'm in love with my own sins
  Lets hear it for America's Suitehearts
  But I must confess, I'm in love with my own sins
  
  You can bow and pretend that
  You don't, don't know you're a legend
  Time, time, time hasn't told anyone else yet
  Let my love loose again

• Goonight Socialite - The Brobecks (Cora)

  She was an honest girl (never told a lie)
  Raised with the finest things (far too rich to die)
  A silver spoon, gold diamond rings
  And her sainted mother the benefactor
  Of the inheritance that I was after
  She's got a feeling that I'll get even
  And if I can't have you, then no one can
  
  I've got your knife inside my back
  I've got your rope around my neck
  I feel the poison in my veins
  Corrode and eat away my brain
  I've told you fifteen dozen times
  And that's one hundred-eighty times
  If I can't have you then no one can

• Let's Kill Tonight - Panic! At the Disco

  If I retreat, words, wars, and symphonies
  Make room, we're taking over here
  And you're the galantine, cold and alone, it suits you well
  Won't find me perching here again
  
  May your feet serve you well
  And the rest be sent to hell, where they always have belonged
  Cold hearts brew colder songs
  Fate will play us out, with a song of pure romance
  So stomp your feet and clap your hands
  
  Let's kill tonight, kill tonight
  Show them all you're not the ordinary type
  Let's kill tonight, kill tonight
  Show them all you're not the ordinary type
  Let's kill tonight

• All Alright - Fun. (Kaelen)

  And now all my loves that come back to haunt me
  My regrets and texts sent to taunt me
  I never claimed to be more than a one-night stand
  I've given everyone I know a good reason to go
  But I came back with the belief
  That everyone I love is gonna leave me
  
  And it's all alright, I guess it's all alright
  I got nothing left inside of my chest, but it's all alright
  Yeah it's all alright, I guess it's all alright
  I got nothing left inside of my chest, but it's all alright
  
  And I know you've fallen from the sun
  Crashing through the clouds, I see you burning out
  And I know that I put up a front
  But maybe, just this once, let me keep this one

  What The Water Gave Me - Florence + the Machine (Kiera)

  Time it took us to where the water was
  That's what the water gave me
  And time goes quicker between the two of us
  Oh, my love, don't forsake me
  Take what the water gave me
  
  Lay me down
  Let the only sound be the overflow
  Pockets full of stones
  Lay me down
  Let the only sound be the overflow

• Because of You - Kelly Clarkson (Moira)

  I will not make the same mistakes that you did
  I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
  I will not break the way you did, you fell so hard
  I've learned the hard way to never let it get that far
  
  Because of you, I never stray too far from the sidewalk
  Because of you, I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
  Because of you, I find it hard to trust
  Not only me, but everyone around me
  Because of you, I am afraid

• Holy Diver - Dio (Kiera)

  Holy Diver, you've been down too long in the midnight sea
  Oh, what's becoming of me?
  Ride the tiger, you can see his stripes but you know he's clean
  Oh, don't you see what I mean?
  Gotta get away, holy diver
  
  Shiny diamonds like the eyes of a cat in the black and blue
  Something is coming for you
  Race for the morning, you can hide in the sun 'till you see the light
  Oh, we will pray it's alright, gotta get away, get away
  Between the velvet lies there's a truth that's hard as steel
  The vision never dies, life's a never-ending wheel

• There's A Reason These Tables Are Numbered, Honey... - Panic! At the Disco (Moira)

  Talk to the mirror, oh, choke back tears
  And keep telling yourself that,"I'm a diva"
  Oh and the smokes in that cigarette box
  On the table, they just so happen to be laced with nitroglycerin
  
  I'm the new cancer, never looked better, you can't stand it
  Because you say so under your breath
  You're reading lips, "When did she get all confident?"
  Haven't you heard that I'm the new cancer?
  Never looked better and you can't stand it
  
  And I know and I know, it just doesn't feel like
  A night out with no one sizing you up
  I've never been so surreptitious
  So, of course, I'll be distracted when I spike the punch

• Past Praying For - Versaemerge (Kiera/Kaelen)

  Always kept quiet, clenching my teeth
  Find me fighting the floor
  Raise me from my bones once more
  You're way past praying for
  
  Heaven forbid, well aware of your sins
  In the wake I'll be just like the rest
  Tell the sun don't fall so we'll never forget
  Heaven forbid, well aware of your sins
  In the wake I'll be just like the rest, past praying for

• Breaking & Entering - Tonight Alive (Blair)

  And I never said I was right
  Well I’m probably the one in the wrong
  The voices are telling me I just can’t always be this strong
  And nothing feels right, not right now
  Like I’ve lost my mind somehow
  I’m scaring myself, I don’t know the girl in the mirror now
  
  So I look to the world outside, oh
  All of a sudden, I’m eating my insides
  The tiny words that break your heart
  They’re breaking and entering
  So I look but you’re not by my side
  Whatever happened to ‘I would rather die’?
  The things that make you fall apart
  They’re breaking and entering

• I Wanna Be Free - Panic! At the Disco (Moira)

  Played our parts and covered ground
  Drowned our sorrows, laid them down
  My memory is keeping the effigy
  
  I wanna be free, I wanna be loved
  I wanna be more than you're thinking of
  Everything seems to be estranged when you're alone
  One day I'll stop keeping track
  And give myself time to relax
  One day, one day

• The Horror Of Our Love - Ludo (Cora)

  I'm a killer, cold and wrathful
  Silent sleeper, I've been inside your bedroom
  I've murdered half the town, left you love notes on their headstones
  I'll fill the graveyards until I have you
  Moonlight walking, I smell your softness
  Carnivorous and lusting to track you down among the pines
  I want you stuffed into my mouth
  Hold you down and tear you open, live inside you - Love, I'd never hurt you.
  But I'll grind against your bones until our marrows mix, I will eat you slowly
  
  Oh, the horror of our love
  Never so much blood pulled through my veins
  Oh, the horror of our love, never so much blood

• O Death - Jen Titus (Kiera)

  Oh Death, оh Death, oh Death
  Won't you spare me over til another year
  But what is this, that I can't see
  with ice cold hands taking hold of me
  When God is gone and the Devil takes hold
  Who will have mercy on your soul
  
  Oh, Death, оh Death, oh Death
  No wealth, no ruin, no silver, no gold
  Nothing satisfies me but your soul
  Oh, Death, well I am Death, none can excel
  I'll open the door to heaven or hell
  Oh, Death, оh Death, my name is Death and the end is here

• Thistle And Weeds - Mumford & Sons (Blair)

  Spare me your judgements and spare me your dreams
  'Cause recently mine have been tearing my seams
  I sit alone in this winter clarity which clouds my mind
  Alone in the wind and the rain you left me
  It's getting dark darling, too dark to see
  And I'm on my knees, and your faith in shreds, it seems
  
  Corrupted by the simple sniff of riches blown
  I know you have felt much more love than you've shown
  And I'm on my knees and the water creeps to my chest
  But plant your hope with good seeds
  Don't cover yourself with thistle and weeds
  Rain down, rain down on me
  Look over your hills and be still, the sky above us shoots to kill
  Rain down, rain down on me
  
  I begged you to hear me, there's more than flesh and bones
  Let the dead bury the dead, they will come out in droves
  But take the spade from my hands and fill in the holes you've made

• To Die For - Tonight Alive (Aurora)

  She's to die for, a little murder on the dance floor calls her name
  A little further to his heart, she holds the flame
  She is still so unsure, she always leaves him wanting more
  You let me down but I can't let this go now
  
  She is dressed to kill and he is to die for
  She knows he would kill just to hold her on the dance floor
  So do we dare to take this dance
  'Cause I'm willing to take the chance
  And tonight could be the night baby
  Just take my hand I swear we'll make it right

• Sick Little Games - All Time Low (Moira)

  We're all part of the same sick little games
  And I need to get away, get away
  I'm wasting my days, I throw them away
  Losing it all on these sick little games
  
  If I play my cards right
  I could make the big time
  I could be a reason to stare
  
  Caught up in the spotlight
  Shaking from the stage fright
  How did I end up here?

• Playing God - Paramore (Ambrose)

  If God's the game that you're playing, well, we must get more acquainted
  Because it has to be so lonely to be the only one who's holy
  It's just my humble opinion, but it's one that I believe in
  You don't deserve a point of view if the only thing you see is you
  
  You don't have to believe me, but the way I see it
  Next time you point a finger
  I might have to bend it back or break it off
  Next time you point a finger, I'll point it to the mirror

• Howl - Florence + the Machine (Cora)

  If you could only see the beast you've made of me
  I held it in but now it seems you've set it running free
  Screaming in the dark, I howl when we're apart
  Drag my teeth across your chest to taste your beating heart
  
  My fingers claw your skin, try to tear my way in
  You are the moon that breaks the night for which I have to howl
  My fingers claw your skin, try to tear my way in
  You are the moon that breaks the night for which I have to howl

• Only If For A Night - Florence + the Machine (Aurora)

  And I had a dream about my old school
  And she was there all pink and gold and glittering
  I threw my arms around her legs, came to weeping
  
  Then I heard your voice as clear as day
  And you told me I should concentrate
  It was all so strange, and so surreal
  That a ghost should be so practical, only if for a night
  
  And the only solution was to stand and fight
  And my body was bruised and I was set alight
  But you came over me like some holy rite
  And although I was burning, you're the only light
  Only if for a night

• Some Nights - Fun. (Ambrose)

  Some nights, I stay up cashing in my bad luck
  Some nights, I call it a draw
  Some nights, I wish that my lips could build a castle
  Some nights, I wish they'd just fall off
  
  But I still wake up, I still see your ghost
  Oh Lord, I'm still not sure what I stand for
  What do I stand for? What do I stand for?
  Most nights, I don't know anymore

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