Haunting [Cass]
Feb 18, 2012 23:04:27 GMT -5
Post by Steffenee on Feb 18, 2012 23:04:27 GMT -5
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Bird was walking alone again. She didn’t like walking alone, but it seemed like Kit was being rather busy lately. She didn’t mind that her family had different lives to lead and couldn’t spend every waking second with her. It gave her more freedom to be alone and to think. Like what she was doing right now. She was thinking. She was thinking about everything that had happened to her four years ago. It wasn’t a subject that she liked to revisit, but she had been doing it more and more lately. It was hard for her to get it out of her mind. It wouldn’t leave her alone, the things that he did to her the things that no one would ever do to her again or so she hoped. The Peacekeepers kind of knew to the extent what had happened to her from her injuries and what she had told them. She wished that she could just tell her family everything like she had told Nom all those years ago, like the Peacekeepers told her she should. She didn’t though and she was paying for it now, she knew that her family would have helped her if she had only told them.
She didn’t seem Nom often anymore. The first year he was constantly checking up on her whenever he saw her and when she saw him she would sometimes need to ditch a family member before he came over to talk about how she was so that her family wouldn’t know that she was kind of sort of friends with a Peacekeeper. They were evil and she still didn’t want them to find out. She sometimes wished she saw him more now so that she could talk to him about what she didn’t do and now what she should do about it because she was having a hard time dealing with it now. It was going to cause her to explode. Sometimes when thinking about it she would just start crying and wouldn’t be able to stop. Her family would become worried and tried to ask her what was wrong and she wouldn’t be able to tell them without feeling awkward.
She wondered about Nom. Wondered if he had been stationed at some other district not too long ago and that was why she wasn’t seeing him. It made her sad to think that he wouldn’t be here anymore, even if he was supposed to be the enemy, even if he could tear their family to pieces in a matter of a few words. He could take Bird and Kit and Sparky away, the rest were old enough to take care of themselves in the world, but they would take the three youngest and then their family would be broken and it would be all her fault. She would feel awful.
She pulled on her braid some as she thought about not telling her family what had happened and the effect it was having on her now. She was more paranoid then ever looking around every corner and not liking being alone even though she is alone more then normal now. She just wished she had someone to talk to about it that wouldn’t judge her for it. She didn’t want to talk to her family and she wasn’t good at meeting new people so she just wants to close her eyes and go back in time and stop it. While not paying attention her eyes closed while she thought she ran into someone. She stumbled back only slightly from the impact but she was so afraid she stumbled back even farther and almost fell. What if he was another one of those same type of men. She looked up and breathed out a sigh when she saw it was Nom. He wasn’t gone, and wasn’t going to be gone.