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“I've lived too long with pain. I won't know who I am without it”

when. memories. aren.t. |{fine}| - Aqua - Jul 3, 2012 16:20:29 GMT -5

Post by kendall on Jul 3, 2012 16:20:29 GMT -5

Lady Ira La-a Winslet.
Common sense is the most evenly distributed quantity in the world. Everyone thinks he has enough,

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The gliz and glamour is what I live for. The parties and the lights are what I strive for. But it's never enough. I watch as as everyone is moving quickly around, talking and making noise, useless chatter I believe. While I just stand by the door way with my drink just observing. Just waiting for something worth my while to happen. Wasn't this what I lived for?

But out of all the hustle and bustle of the party life I saw something, well someone I haven't seen in a long time. A very long time indeed. Sipping my drink, I hope I was just hallucinating because he wasn't someone I was hoping to see in a very long time. This time I wasn't going to be seduced. "My, haven't you grown." I say to him, sipping from my glass but not taking my eyes of of him.

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when. memories. aren.t. |{fine}| - Aqua - Jul 4, 2012 15:44:50 GMT -5

Post by aquatic mammalian wh0re on Jul 4, 2012 15:44:50 GMT -5

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"Another martini, please." Why is it always the same thing? Party here, celebration there, three more girls everywhere. I just want to drown it all out, with the drink in my hand and twenty more. But I won't lower myself to drinking my way out of my problems. I'm low, but not that low. I know where my limits are. Well, some of them anyways.

I'm mostly aware of a lot of people. Some of them bump into me, some of them shout drunken greetings in my face. But I ignore all of them. Normally I'd be partying with them - drinking, dancing, stripping, laughing - the usual stupidity. Pretending I enjoy my life. They're all fools. Most people who live here don't understand that they're wasting their lives. I see the table of small wine glasses carrying the substance that makes you vomit so you can eat more. Sick. They're all sick, I tell myself. I know it. Always have. But of course, I join them every day. Some days I sit, curled up in my bed alone, thinking about everything bad the Capitol has to offer. The list is endless.

Well, maybe everything isn't all bad. I've had a few true laughs, some good emotions. I have one real friend that cares for me, and I care for her. Except lately we've been growing apart some. I wonder if she even cares anymore. But, there are some good things. In fact, I find myself looking at one right now. It's one of those things that stands out in your mind, occasionally haunting you. She's standing there. In fact, maybe she's coming towards me. She's clueless, that's for sure. She thinks she's just a random member of my endless string of lovers. But if she is, why does she stand out the way she does? Something about those nights, there was a click. A vague one, but it was there. But I let her slip out of my fingers, in fear of trying and failing. I couldn't let it happen. Real love is not my game. It never has been.

"My, haven't you grown," she says. Ira. I remember her all too well. Those lips, especially. Man, the things those lips can do. Get a hold of yourself, Lorenzo, I think. I can't keep my eyes away from those lips for more than five seconds at a time. She's looking at me, observing me. It's more than I can handle. I feel my knees weaken. My legs are jelly, my heart thumping like crazy. Why can she do this to me, and no one else?

"Ira. Pleasure to see you again. How've you been?"

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“I've lived too long with pain. I won't know who I am without it”

when. memories. aren.t. |{fine}| - Aqua - Jul 4, 2012 19:16:40 GMT -5

Post by kendall on Jul 4, 2012 19:16:40 GMT -5

Lady Ira La-a Winslet.
Common sense is the most evenly distributed quantity in the world. Everyone thinks he has enough,

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Now, I felt kind of bad after I figured out his little game and slipped throw his fingers and ran. Just leaving him in the dust like so. But just I was about to come back I found out he moved on to some other girl five days after I managed to slip away. He was just a playboy and I know it. But what disgusts me more was that I fell for the playboy."Ira. Pleasure to see you again. How've you been?"He says, keeping it to small talk, searching for words I am sure.

I sip my last few drops of my drink and set it on the table beside me. A pleasure? My I never thought I would hear the day."Quite busy, really. Big per-motion. I am sure you have heard Lorenzo."I say, in a sly sort of cunning movement to my body. Like I wasn't going to be that easy to get this time. "But I still have time for these parties. They start to bore you after awhile, no? Same people same conversations. " I sigh heavily. "Now what about you? I am sure you have had your hands full, no?" I ask.

Last Edit: Jul 5, 2012 6:45:46 GMT -5 by kendall

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when. memories. aren.t. |{fine}| - Aqua - Jul 5, 2012 12:22:17 GMT -5

Post by aquatic mammalian wh0re on Jul 5, 2012 12:22:17 GMT -5

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"Quite busy, actually. Big promotion. I am sure you have heard, Lorenzo," she says nonchalantly. Her body also moves oddly, I guess to try and warn me. But really I just find it sexy. "But I still have time for these parties. They start to bore you after awhile, no? Same people same conversations," she says with a sigh. I know what she means, though. Isn't that exactly what I was just thinking? I eye her carefully. I remember her loving to party. If she's changed that much personality-wise, what else has changed? I stifle a laugh, because the thought is almost dirty. "Now what about you? I am sure you have had your hands full, no?"

No. "Oh yeah, absolutely. Things have been pretty hectic with the Games and I've been helping out my parents a lot lately. Growing old, y'know?" I'm a skilled liar, I have to admit. No, I am not saying I'm proud of it, but it helps. Really, I haven't been all that busy. How many girls have I had in my house this past month? How many parties have I been to? The bit about helping my parents was true, though. They're getting old fast. Of course, when they pass I'll just inherit all their money. But I'm probably closest to them, of all people. Wow, that sounds ridiculous. A wave of sorrow comes over me. I make no attempt to hide it as I say, "So how long has it been since I last saw you? I have to say, I haven't forgotten you one bit..."

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“I've lived too long with pain. I won't know who I am without it”

when. memories. aren.t. |{fine}| - Aqua - Jul 6, 2012 10:37:23 GMT -5

Post by kendall on Jul 6, 2012 10:37:23 GMT -5

Lady Ira La-a Winslet.
Common sense is the most evenly distributed quantity in the world. Everyone thinks he has enough,

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The music that is blaring from the speakers just drowns out everything I don't want to hear. I used to want to hear everything, be the center of attention. But somehow that faded into a blur of who i used to be. Rarely do i fond a real reason to party, because frankly i don't enjoy life as much as I used to. I act like I enjoy it, I fool people. I lie to people and it works.

I don't drink so much to fill what I am missing. I don't party like a used to. Ever since Him I felt like I shouldn't party as hard as I did because all that leads to is attachment and regrets. Maybe this is what happens when you get older. "O yeah, absolutely. Things have been pretty hectic with the Games and I've been helping out my parents a lot lately. Growing old, y'know?" He says.

"Helping with the games? What do you do? " I ask. I help with the games, well I sponsor like mad and set up parties and all that fantastic stuff. It was something I was good at, being in charge of things. Because everything turned out right. For the most part. I nod at his comment about his folks getting old. "Aren't they all?" I sigh.

Lorenzo and I both pause. I look for another drink to drink but that wasn't the smartest idea. Drowning myself in something to better. Ever since he walked in something clicked in my stomach to make it feel kind if queasy. Sort of like the guilt of what we did and if I mess up what could happen again. Mess up what? "So how long has it been since I last saw you? I have to say, I haven't forgotten you one bit..." He ends the silence between us by starting up the small talk. I cough. "I recall just a little over a year..." I say, gracefully swooping two glasses of cyanosis from a waiters tray. I hand it to him with a cool smile on my face. My lips pale pink lift at the ends. "Oh really now? Not one bit? I must say. That is quite ... surprising." I say.

Last Edit: Jul 6, 2012 10:44:26 GMT -5 by kendall

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when. memories. aren.t. |{fine}| - Aqua - Jul 7, 2012 0:19:20 GMT -5

Post by aquatic mammalian wh0re on Jul 7, 2012 0:19:20 GMT -5

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My head is starting to hurt a little. I'm thinking too much, for one. About Ira, our past, my feelings for her. It's strange though, all three of those things confuse me. I don't know her all that well, I don't know what went on when we hooked up, and I have no idea what I feel for her. Love? Attraction? Lust? Fear? I don't know. But I have a feeling that she only finds disgust in me.

"Helping with the Games? What do you do?" she asks innocently. Well actually, it's my parents who help with the Games, I just tag along and do what I can. I'm the young face for them, the one who does all the announcing and publicity and showing off. But when it comes down to it, my parents run things in their department. "Well, a variety of things, really. We manage a lot of the sponsorships and do advertising for the top tributes," I say truthfully. There are much higher-ranking jobs, but anyone working with the annual Games makes pretty good money. I know from personal experience.

She hands me a drink, and I take it without hesitating. I've never been one to turn down a drink, especially with my emotions running so high. I knock back half of it and swallow hard. Let yourself get drunk and worry about it later. Heck, maybe she's looking for a good time, I tell myself. I nearly choke when I see her lips. Just barely turned up into a smile. More beautiful than any smile I've ever seen. "So um, I was going to go to Clarity Park and see the firework show. They have them every Friday night. Do you maybe... wanna come with?" I say nervously. I half expect her to turn me down and walk away laughing. I've never actually asked a girl out... Just seduced them and things worked on their own from there.