Cracks appearing. [Pika]
Jun 27, 2012 21:11:04 GMT -5
Post by Nighty the foamy squirrel on Jun 27, 2012 21:11:04 GMT -5
My thoughts try to stay fixed on what I set out to do but no matter how much I tried they always seemed to drift. They moved to darker things. Scary, evil thoughts that I have never experienced before, even my usual smile was strained. Occasionally flickering as I tried to push my thoughts back into their happy place. I begin to try and skip to lift my spirits... Or move them? Huh? Urr. Anyway's, I needed to get my mind of these thoughts, what had provoked them to come in my head? Was it Emerald, Jenna, and... The two others? Or was it unrelated? Meh, I just needed to change my thoughts. Maybe if I focused on the place I was going to I could change them. And as I think of this I envision the hanging trees, the blue sky's of summer, the small grassy area, the lovely trees and the comfortable log, before they drift suddenly, to me opening a letter. And as my thoughts read the words I slowly look up from the message. Just collapse on the spot. Why would I think that?
I'm an idiot, a big idiot. A stupid girl with nothing to live for. Everything was somehow related to me, everyone would be better without me, even daddy. I then suddenly snap out of my crying fit on the hard mud, getting up quietly and looking around as I wiped my eyes... Wait. Where am I? I spin my body round several times, I'd never been to this part of the district before. I slowly begin to think about walking back the way I came, maybe I would get back if I did. Wait, why would anyone want me back? I then stop myself even thinking of going back, they would be all the better without me.
I straighten out my worn out clothes and take mummy's necklace in my hand, gently taking it off and looking at it. Why did I have to be such a failure? I was a let down. And in my eyes, always will be. No matter how much I giggle and smile my way through life, it will always come down to that. I wipe my tear stained cheeks and I let out a small sigh of sadness, sitting down where I was and looking to the floor, letting my blonde hair fall around my face.
I'm an idiot, a big idiot. A stupid girl with nothing to live for. Everything was somehow related to me, everyone would be better without me, even daddy. I then suddenly snap out of my crying fit on the hard mud, getting up quietly and looking around as I wiped my eyes... Wait. Where am I? I spin my body round several times, I'd never been to this part of the district before. I slowly begin to think about walking back the way I came, maybe I would get back if I did. Wait, why would anyone want me back? I then stop myself even thinking of going back, they would be all the better without me.
I straighten out my worn out clothes and take mummy's necklace in my hand, gently taking it off and looking at it. Why did I have to be such a failure? I was a let down. And in my eyes, always will be. No matter how much I giggle and smile my way through life, it will always come down to that. I wipe my tear stained cheeks and I let out a small sigh of sadness, sitting down where I was and looking to the floor, letting my blonde hair fall around my face.