all that is {gold} is rusting :: Nightbird/Rook ::
Aug 19, 2012 17:07:13 GMT -5
Post by rook on Aug 19, 2012 17:07:13 GMT -5
Lilith Kerbroski
[/size][/blockquote]last night i fell in love without you
i waved goodbye to that heart of mine beating solo on your lawn
and every aching wound will cauterize and bruise
in memory of what we used to call in love
The world is it's usual smudge. Drips of grey are spoiled by flecks of abstract life found within reds, blues and yellows. So primary and basic, yet annoyingly complex. My one good eye is overloaded from these stabbing colors, it blinks rapidly to try and focus on what's important. The dark glasses that hide the scars of my left eye assist in playing down the over-excited colors of the world. They make things a little more tolerable for me.
It takes me a few minutes of staring at this trio of blue, yellow and red before it registers into my brain. It's so stand-out from the monotonous bad dream that I swim in every day. Grey pulp, hard to navigate and so, so similar. These sharp, new colors are poisoning my mind with their stand-out happy-go-lucky flashes. I'm not sure whether I'm happy that it's different from the ocean of grey or if I'm annoyed that they're so shiny and new. Is change good, or is change bad?
Regardless, it's only some LED lights that stand blinking on a dead carnival ride. It's forgotten and out of the way, pushed down an alleyway. That's what interests me though, I venture off the beaten track of the marketplace of our crummy District and I find some aspects of culture remaining. This ride, what was it for? Entertainment? I run my thin fingers along the metal - Rusty to the touch, very rusty. Old and decaying, just like this world we live in. I stand at the main counter of the weird fairground attraction, noting that weeds have entwined their way around the dead metal spider that I see was once a bright, colorful ride that children would pay to be whizzed around at high velocities. I smile at the thought of something so wonderful.
It's dead now...
Just like everything that was once fun. I don't need two eyes and good vision to see that time has destroyed what was once good in our world. This ride is a relic, forgotten and buried down the labyrinth of alleyways in District Eleven. Which really does beg the question: Why are the lights flashing?
I gasp as the question bleeds into my mind. It's on. It's working? No... The machine is rusted and broken, parts have come off and been claimed by the roots of the earth. Blanketed in green moss, as if the planet is claiming back what was forged by inhabitants. The lights must be on a separate circuit. Plugged in somewhere? Maybe a loose fuse? I don't know anything about electronics, but judging by the damage done to what was once a carnival ride, the lights can be the only thing working. So, who is running the electrics?
My curiosity has always been my downfall. It's how I blinded myself in my left eye. I was too curious for my own good. I ended up ripping the eye out from it's socket in a frantic attempt to escape what probably would have just been a few broken bones. My curiosity led me to be trapped in the pen of heavily pregnant Alpaca. Nothing spells trouble like a pissed off pregnant mammal. Our farm, our barbed wire fences... My curiosity... My recklessness.
Walk away, Lilith
But where's the fun in that? Just because every fiber in my body tells me to just walk back into the flow of morning workers, doesn't mean I should. Life if for living, and I'm sick of the one-tone life that I lead. This is something new and slightly interesting. I want to find out what's powering this dead framework, and why.
And so, I begin to search the vendor's box for any plugs or switches. I open the faded red of a metal door and go down onto my knees, starting to root around for any wires. I grunt as I find a snake's wedding of tangled spaghetti wire. What's even more fun is that I'm pretty useless with colors, most of which seem all grey unless they're relatively bright or stand-out. Unfortunately these wires are faded and I can't tell the difference between them. Plus, I'm no technician. I have no idea what I'm doing.
But at least I have nothing better to do with my life.last night i fell in love without you
the coup-de-grace that set me off would've made for decent fiction
and every aching wound will cauterize and bruise
in memory of what we used to call in love
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theme~ "Fell in love without you" by Motion City Soundtrack.
notes~ Sorry if Lilith's a little rusty, no pun intended.