Take Care {of} You [Chelsey]
Jul 12, 2012 10:58:09 GMT -5
Post by brad bradford ★ d5b [arx] on Jul 12, 2012 10:58:09 GMT -5
I know you've been hurt by someone else
I can tell by the way you carry yourself.
If you let me, here's what I'll do:
I'll take care of you.
I've loved and I've lost.
I can tell by the way you carry yourself.
If you let me, here's what I'll do:
I'll take care of you.
I've loved and I've lost.
Just another crack of the whip and it will be over. Just one last burst of pain and I will need no more punishment. "Do you understand what you have done is wrong?" I nod in the hopes that if I acknowledge him this torture will stop. But blood stains the floor and too much has been spilled - I fear the end may never come. A whimper escapes my throat before I can stop it and a smirk grows across his face. "Would you like me to order your tongue be removed?" A shake of the head, sweat dripping from my bangs and onto the floor. Sweat and blood - it can create a sweet smell. He leans in close to my face, his gray eyes glowing, even in the dim light. "Then I suggest that you beg for me to continue with your current punishment." My back feels raw and probably looks like ground meat but I'd rather keep my tongue. I still have a few words to share. I still have a story to tell. A few words to whisper to the boy that got me here - before I kill him. "Please."
But now years have gone by and I still have just a few words to share. I haven't yet found my brother - he has gone and passed, spreading trouble to some other part of Panem no doubt. Maybe he got himself stuck in the Detention Center after all. The edges of my lips perk up at the thought of Damian locked away in a dark dingy place that smelled of mold and blood. He deserved hell for awhile - and then he also deserves to see me again, if only so I can put him out of his misery. And then when the deed is done, I will find a place to let the body rot away as scavengers pick off of it for food. Sure it may be a bit of a cruel idea, but it is only putting him in his rightful category. He is not a gangster or a drug dealer - he is crow food and always will be. Sure I'm not much better now a days, but I wasn't the one who made his little sister eat a bullet.
I give a sigh as I sit up in bed. I throw my hand through my hair wishing for it to cut itself shorter. My eyes glance over to the window. The moon does not light up the room, but the street lamp does and that's my cue. It was time for my act - costume, stage, and all. I set my bare feet to the floor, my blood running cold as I get into character. The menace is thinking up strategies for the night trying to determine the best possible scenarios in order to gain cash. It was a weekend. The rich kids would be going out to see movies. The hoodlums would be jumping from windows to do some dirty work. The amount of Peacekeepers in the streets would double. There were gangs east of the house and the richer kids were farther north. It took longer to get to the movie theaters and took an entire night to scrounge up a mere $150, but they were such easy targets. Stupid teenagers that thought the world was perfect and safe and no one would ever dare harm them. So when someone left the packs that always roamed about, it was easy to pick them off. Like lions hunt the old and frail gazelles just because it is easier. Sure they have the ability to chase and kill the strong and fast gazelles, but why waste the time and energy?
My black hoodie, my jeans, my sneakers, and the most important part, my knife. Sadly, no matter how many times I have worked with it, no matter how much money the sharp gleam of steel has gotten me, the handle still feels foreign in my hands. It is a lot like a child you are afraid of, want so badly to get rid of, but can't because you love it too dearly. I slip the knife into it's sheath and shove it into my jeans pocket, hoping it can work some more magic tonight - better than it had been for the past few weeks. It was growing nearer and nearer to payday, and I had just under $10,000. Another month that I will have to lose money - that can't happen again if I want to stay alive. But the last thing I would ever let happen is for Magnus to shoot me. No way in hell is that bastard going to get the honor of shooting me. And no way I would let everyone here know that I was too weak to kill for money. If it came down to taking a life to save my own, I would do it. For sure.
I twist the knob on my door open, making sure to lock it on my way out. I may be a teen, but I'm not as stupid and naive as the kind that I hunt. I know what is out in the world. Monsters - the kind I live with or the kind the residents here are forced to deal with - are out there. Most homes are quiet at night, but at the Nox residence everyone is awake getting ready for work. Except Miss Bitch Daughter who I'm assuming is locked away in her room, sleeping soundly, dreaming of unicorns and rainbows, safe from every possible threat in the world. Even me. I may have a knife and the ability to break into a room, but she was untouchable on every level. I swear if any of us even look at her we have to have a "little talk" with Magnus. It is the most disgusting thing I have ever had to deal with. Sure, she may be quite the girl with all the genuine jewels and designer clothing, but she lets people die in her house. Couldn't daddy's little girl beg him to stop the contract? I'm sure if she tried he would easily give in. That's how all dads worked for their daughters. Mine was no exception - when Rhine was born, she was no doubt his favorite and as a child got everything she asked for. But my dad was also not a manipulative asshole who thought it would be fun to make kids crazy by showing them dollar signs.
I walked through the halls, breathing deeply, trying to figure out the exact time I would arrive at the theater. Surely very late - might not get back here until well past dawn. Maybe I wouldn't work tonight. It was so late and my idea to get another $2,000 in one was an impossible one. I was set - I had enough money to pay up. I would just have to work harder next month. And I could suddenly feel myself lying back down in bed and sleeping all through the night dreaming of unicorns and rainbows and lollipops. I stopped, dead in my tracks and turned on my heels hoping to slip back into my room before anyone noticed - but I stopped again as I noticed Kris' door. Had she left for the night? Was she already out ... hunting her own prey? The thought made me feel sick, as it always did, and I knew then I had to see if she had gone yet. I tapped my knuckles against the door hoping I wouldn't have to go out with her if she was working tonight. But she was usually working ... Or is it called selling? I clamped my jaw, and swallowed hard. Thinking of her work was enough to make me want to kill every man out there. If you weren't good enough to get a girl the regular way, then you had to be too much of a scum bag to get any girl any way.
"If you're in there, I was thinking of staying in tonight ... Maybe."
You won't ever have to worry.
You won't ever have to hide.
You've seen all my mistakes,
so look me in my eyes.
[/size][/right]You won't ever have to hide.
You've seen all my mistakes,
so look me in my eyes.