never time to save; Stars of Orion
Sept 16, 2012 20:06:25 GMT -5
Post by chelsey on Sept 16, 2012 20:06:25 GMT -5
You never get to choose.
You live on what they sent you.
And you know they're gonna use
the things you love against you.
You live on what they sent you.
And you know they're gonna use
the things you love against you.
[/color]"She's not going to last a day in that Arena." "You think so?" "She hasn't got the gut to kill." "But, the sponsors could always -" "Diam, it's not going to happen. It's either kill or be killed. And we both know the minute her name was called she was as good as dead."
I hate it here.
The steel strings bandaged around the crevices of my wrists and the bones of my ankles permanently bind me to words and actions and thoughts that aren't mine. I'm a puppet, every limp limb of mine jolted by the force of the puppeteers. It's a show to everyone - the audience's cheers jeered on with every push and pull of the tsunami raging in my head while the cosmological gravity of the city's atmosphere hushes the sullen currents. Morning light is a fog, polluted with the coalesce ignorance of an entire population, and the night sky is just a darker degree of shadows. (And Death lingers in these shadows and camouflages itself with the dazzling brilliance of stars, so when hands reach out to make a wish, it can grab hold onto their yearning fingers and drag them away to it's collapsing darkness.) There are no feathered birds or pigmented light or enticed songs or clustered stars. There is only darkness. But, I'm not sure if I can plant the blame in the roots of these people's hearts. (These people who have never smelled soil after a night of rain or watched the sun rise over a brazen hill.) If someone lived in darkness for their entire life, how would they ever know that there would be light?
Even if it's illegal, I'm 99.999% sure Tasmain put money on my death. "Look, sweetheart, if you don't find someone else to kick ass for you, then your ass will be kicked."
I've never been particularly good at making friends. At home, girls were grounded to their cement surroundings and looked at me weird for gazing towards the "impossible skies."[/i][/color]
Except, this time, I'm not supposed to be "making friends." In the cold paneled floors of the Training Center, I hardly think it'll matter who Bobby McCarthy likes or whether or not I can fly. In this moment, there is nothing more to understand of one another. In this moment, the only plausible thing is to leech onto one each other in hopes of either prolonging death or inviting it. This time, the only thing expected of me is to make an ally. And the definitions of "friend" and "ally" are a great distance away from one another.
"Then who, exactly, did you have in mind?" I grunt back to him, irritation thickly weaved in my voice. If he notices, he doesn't acknowledge it. "There's the girl from Two, the lunatic from Four, and the volunteer from Twelve. Not much of a buffet, but choose wisely, anyway, dearie."[/i]
The next day, my feet find themselves stumbling towards the girl from Two, and my mouth runs without me even processing my actions. [/color] "We would last longer if we paired up." I fold my hands behind my back, staring at a point somewhere on the ground as if it could make this conversation any easier on the both of us. "And if we had the girls from Four and Twelve, too, we'd last even longer."
Tasmain was right. I was dead the moment they called my name.[/blockquote][/blockquote][/justify][/color]
One foot in the grave.
One foot in the shower.
There's never time to save.
You're paying by the hour.
[/color]One foot in the shower.
There's never time to save.
You're paying by the hour.
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