Orbit All The Way Around You // [Embryze]
Jan 8, 2013 1:13:24 GMT -5
Post by Baby Wessex d9b [earthling] on Jan 8, 2013 1:13:24 GMT -5
for what it's worth, I have a slow disease that sucked me dry... I always aim to please
but I nearly died
Another Games over, another year without a victor to accompany him home. But Mace had known that for days, as had Julian. It was unusual for them to both be tributeless, but they made good use of the time. Mace visited Ara and Kieran regularly, ate with the other recent victors. One day he even sat next to Arbor, and he literally felt the tension dissipate. He'd snorted, and that's all they had needed to move forward. It was actually good to have something to focus on, other than the rich Capitol food. He'd taken the hint, at last.
As it turns out, losing weight was about 90% of what you ate, and only 10% working out. He was discovering this the hard way. No matter how often he creeped down to the training center, or went for the run with a mask over his face, it wasn't good enough. Not with all the butter, breaded concoctions the Capitol provided at every opportunity. Alcohol was also a calorie bloater he'd been told, and it had been surprisingly easy to pass on it, provided that Lethe wasn't in the mood to party.
So he ate vegetables and seasoned meat, forced himself to look at his companions rather than at the tempting desserts.
And it all fucking sucked.
Dieting wasn't for weenies, as he'd always assumed. He barely made it through their last lunch together, while Peridot was being flown in from the arena. Mace spent more than an appropriate amount of time during the meal staring at Topaz. Mrs. Topaz Ross. Wondering what it was like to be married, wondering what it was like to be able to let someone in that deeply, wondering what it would be like to have company on train ride to the arena, after Julian had already gone to Two to be with his tributes. His dead grey eyes lingered, full of her brilliant red hair as she walked away.
He wrapped his hand around Julian's, coarse calluses against baby soft, despite the fact that Julian had always trained harder than Mace. "We've got the afternoon before we have to pack up, right?" He swung his gaze to his boyfriend's, met it for a moment before looking towards the exit again. "I want to try sparring with you. You know, for fun."
His lip twitched, the best attempt he'd made at a smile since Damion had died.
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