Pt. I -Around the Bend (gloryisben)
Oct 21, 2012 22:40:12 GMT -5
Post by ealin on Oct 21, 2012 22:40:12 GMT -5
...to hear the way they talked about it, noone could be saved...
Narration
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Speaking
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Speaking
Thoughts
My stomach growls in protest and I sigh, looking up at the clock. I’ve done it again, gotten absorbed in my work and forgotten to eat. I haven’t left my desk to eat a meal since my first few days here, before I realized I liked it better being in my own little world, doing what gives me any measure of happiness… draw. The dress design taking form on the crisp white paper under my hands is rather bold, but then I think it’s my boldness that moved me to this design department, creating looks for the Capitol I couldn’t even dream of wearing myself for they draw far too much attention to the wearer. Just what they like. I roll my eyes, drop the pencil in my hand and reach for the biscuit sitting on a crumpled napkin on the corner of my desk. It’s dried out now, but I still break off a piece and pop it into my mouth. Despite it’s grumbling, my stomach protests my choice of food but it’s all I have.
I’m washing it down with some water when Mrs. Petty suddenly starts packing up her satchel. “You best not stay too late, Brynn, you know what’s on tonight.” Like I can ever NOT know. I have two more Reapings to get through before I can even hope to feel like my life isn’t on a precipice. I drop my gaze as I set my water aside and pick up the pencil, its point making a soft scratching sound as I get back to work. “I won’t. I just want to finish this one and I’ll take the rest home.” I’m getting ahead of myself again, sketching ideas for the upcoming season change that I need to get down before I forget a single detail. I can hear Mrs. Petty sigh and her chair creak as she gets up. “Alright, but try to get some rest too.”
I wave her off gently; this is a routine between us. Me getting lost in my work where I don’t have to focus on this crap existence, her playing the maternal figure checking that I don’t forget to live in the real world. If only that were possible. Above my head the lamp buzzes softly and I smile as I finish, set the drawing aside and start stuffing the stack of rough sketches I started into my own worn satchel. Pieced together from various heavier materials I collected, it’s seen me through the last fifteen months I’ve worked here. I notice a tear forming in the seam for the strap and figure I can take care of it when I get home.
Outside, night is falling fast and I pull my jacket close around me and tie the belt to hold it closed against the breeze that’s whipping my hair in my face. I adjust the satchel hanging from my shoulder as I step out onto the sidewalk, tilting my head down some as I’m now turned into the wind. I love the cool feel of it, but not how it dries my eyes. Something feels weird on my shoulder and as I go to grab the strap to shift it again the weight of it gives way and the whole thing tumbles to the ground. Damn seam, I knew I should have fixed it real quick. With it lying at my feet, open with some sketches slipping out, I kneel down to grab it when a gust of wind beats me to it, blowing a trail of paper down the sidewalk and away from me. “No!” The paper alone is more than I can afford and explaining their loss to the overseer… I feel the blood drain from my face and hands as I go scrambling after it, my heart racing and hands shaking as the wind keeps grabbing what’s just out of my reach and blowing it further away. Oh please, not now! I need the wind to stop! I’m crumpling papers in my hands as I hurriedly snatch them up, one after the other, all the while images of what will happen to me come tomorrow if I don’t get all of them back causing my eyes to start welling up as some blow around a corner and I run after them, bending and stuffing my arm full along the way.