CHAPTER 3 - Picking up the Pieces
Oct 22, 2012 14:18:17 GMT -5
Post by teezoen on Oct 22, 2012 14:18:17 GMT -5
ALDER HEATH
This is narration
This is spoken word
This is thought
This is everything else
This is spoken word
This is thought
This is everything else
“Is this the way it's meant to be?
Only dreaming that you're missing me
I'm waiting here at home
I'll be crazy now you're gone”
Only dreaming that you're missing me
I'm waiting here at home
I'll be crazy now you're gone”
A few days later, and I still haven't recovered.
I had waited for her outside the warehouses, hoping she would come by. She hadn't. Then I had gone by the spot we had talked for awhile, and waited for her there. Nothing. I had finally come home just before sundown and my parents had been worried sick after they heard rumors of what had happened to me at work. I had been so worried that I hadn't even thought about what they might be going through, and it only made me feel worse for being so completely thoughtless.
After I told them what had happened, my mother had a look at my bruises- they weren't terrible, but she still wrapped them a little with some cloth. Then they left me alone, realizing that I wanted some time alone. I hardly slept that night.
And now, after working and searching for days, I had been unable to locate her. For some reason, I can't bear to go by her house- face her parents. I don't want to talk to anybody but her.
I am worried and simmering and angry. The fear that I had felt in the packing plant had slowly steamed away, and the boiling hate I had for the Peacekeepers was brought to the forefront of my mind. But my worry had mixed with the anger, and so it made me feel like I was being strangled as I sat and marinated in my emotions.
The worst part, though, was that I was not sure if I was angry at them, or at myself. I remembered that she had struggled, had fought to try and help me. I had been too cowardly to even challenge the Peacekeepers. And so as I sit on my bed after work, there is nothing I can do but relive the few moments again and again, and hope that I can see Karen again.
I hoped she was okay.
I missed her. Terribly.
I had waited for her outside the warehouses, hoping she would come by. She hadn't. Then I had gone by the spot we had talked for awhile, and waited for her there. Nothing. I had finally come home just before sundown and my parents had been worried sick after they heard rumors of what had happened to me at work. I had been so worried that I hadn't even thought about what they might be going through, and it only made me feel worse for being so completely thoughtless.
After I told them what had happened, my mother had a look at my bruises- they weren't terrible, but she still wrapped them a little with some cloth. Then they left me alone, realizing that I wanted some time alone. I hardly slept that night.
And now, after working and searching for days, I had been unable to locate her. For some reason, I can't bear to go by her house- face her parents. I don't want to talk to anybody but her.
I am worried and simmering and angry. The fear that I had felt in the packing plant had slowly steamed away, and the boiling hate I had for the Peacekeepers was brought to the forefront of my mind. But my worry had mixed with the anger, and so it made me feel like I was being strangled as I sat and marinated in my emotions.
The worst part, though, was that I was not sure if I was angry at them, or at myself. I remembered that she had struggled, had fought to try and help me. I had been too cowardly to even challenge the Peacekeepers. And so as I sit on my bed after work, there is nothing I can do but relive the few moments again and again, and hope that I can see Karen again.
I hoped she was okay.
I missed her. Terribly.