An unexpected friendship
Oct 25, 2012 0:16:14 GMT -5
Post by thelastonealive on Oct 25, 2012 0:16:14 GMT -5
I stand on the shore of the lake, remembering. Remembering the day my brother died. I was in one of my moods today. I wasn't feeling like talking, or smiling, or living for that matter. It still hurt whenever I think about it. I pick up a pebble and roll it around in my hand. I look at it. It's spherical, smooth, and cool. Tears well up in my eyes. I remember that my brother loved to skip pebbles on the water. I take the rock and throw it as far as I can. I hear the plop as it falls.
I sit and just let go. My tears rush out and begin to sob. The memories of him hit me hard. Before I know it I'm asleep. I don't know how long I sleep. I just know that when I wake up its mid-afternoon. I consider leaving, but decide to stay. The peace and quiet helps calm me down.
The last thing I want to do is leave. I can't bring myself to. I don't know why I linger here when the memory hits me so strongly. I feel another sob, but I choke it down. I don't know why his death still pains me. Then I realize, in the midst of my tears I must have forgotten, that today marks 2 years since his death. On this very day two years ago my brother died. When this realization hits me I break down again. I feel that I can't stop this time. But I do. I pick up my head and stare into the distance. I remember what he always told me whenever I cried. "Whenever you think of something sad, or someone hurts you, or your day has gone terribly remember this: you will always remember that you are a strong person." I wish that something will happen to get my mind off this day for a moment.
I sit and just let go. My tears rush out and begin to sob. The memories of him hit me hard. Before I know it I'm asleep. I don't know how long I sleep. I just know that when I wake up its mid-afternoon. I consider leaving, but decide to stay. The peace and quiet helps calm me down.
The last thing I want to do is leave. I can't bring myself to. I don't know why I linger here when the memory hits me so strongly. I feel another sob, but I choke it down. I don't know why his death still pains me. Then I realize, in the midst of my tears I must have forgotten, that today marks 2 years since his death. On this very day two years ago my brother died. When this realization hits me I break down again. I feel that I can't stop this time. But I do. I pick up my head and stare into the distance. I remember what he always told me whenever I cried. "Whenever you think of something sad, or someone hurts you, or your day has gone terribly remember this: you will always remember that you are a strong person." I wish that something will happen to get my mind off this day for a moment.