d2 • lillyana carmichael

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PERSONALITY

Since a young age, Lilly has always remained very studious when it comes to school and generally everything around her. She has a fascination with knowledge and possessing it and so she will jump at the chance to learn something new. When it comes to school, she finds herself dedicating lots of time to ensure that she gets the best marks possible for her abilities on the different things they do for homework or testing. Having always been closer to the top of the class when it came to marks allowed for her to be confident in her intelligence. She tries to analyse all that is around her so she can store the information in her mind until she is able to write it down somewhere. All things around her fascinate her because she wants to know what, why, where and how. This fascination soon evolved into her books.

Since she began excelling in school, Lilly would purchase many packages of normal white paper along with fancier and thicker grey paper. With a stapler in her room on her writing desk, she would sit down and write all she could about a certain subject that she had learned from school or learned from another book. After writing the subject on the front cover and drawing a small picture below, she would fold the thicker paper in half and then place all the other papers inside like a book. With the stapler, she would attach it all together and then write the subject and date along the side. This has always been her obsession in a way and nobody, besides her parents, knows of the huge collection of homemade books she has lining her bookshelf. They allow her to expel all of the information so she can forget about it and move onto other things. After all, she has always believed that your brain can only hold so much. Even though most are about things around her and subjects at school, a few can be found documenting the biggest moments in her life. In the past few years, those have become more and more sad.

Lilly is very motherly when it comes to caring about somebody. She is protective and wants to know that they are alright and never hurting. This is because she is a really sweet and harmless person, having always been pretty innocent throughout her childhood years. She would stick to her school and books and would only make a few friends instead of letting many people in. Most people wouldn't know of this side that she has which has never seemed to bother her. When she does allow herself to care about people, it's a very careful and nervous event. She almost gingerly acts in every situation so as to avoid being hurt. Nothing in her past has gone wrong when she has cared but she doesn't trust others enough to allow them in.

She keeps to herself a lot nowadays. It isn't common to hear her speak unless asked to and even then she will say it quietly and it'll be right to the point. She had once loved speaking and telling everybody of all of her thoughts, even if she only had a few friends. They would see that full-of-life girl that couldn't get enough of the things around her. Now she is simply quiet and tense. She avoids eyes in the halls and the streets and anywhere they exist. It's not like she has a fear of social situations but rather a fear of being hurt. Of allowing herself to open up and finding herself being broken down into a mess of emotions. She thinks of herself as fragile and doesn't want to trust anybody or anything to handle her. It's a fear of being broken beyond repair, assuming that she can still be repaired as it is.

All of this stems from one incident that had occurred when she was fourteen. The moment, which will be described in detail at a later time, changed her life forever as it capped off the loving girl with the words she wanted so badly to be heard. Instead, it has left a girl that has been bullied and picked on for far too long, leading her to close off and to keep to herself. All she needs is somebody to peel off the shell that surrounds her to see that smiling girl once again.

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HISTORY

Born to Victor Carmichael and Harriett Shaw, Lillyana was the only child that they would ever have. From the moment she was born, she was spoiled by her parents due to their fair amount of money. However, unlike most of the kids who had anything above average amounts of money, Lilly refrained from becoming stuck up and possessive of materials. She instead found a fascination in natural things that surrounded her as well as knowledge itself. This, although better than being a stuck up bitch, set her apart from the popular kids as well as the poor kids that couldn't afford much. She was right in the middle of the two classes and could find nowhere to properly fit in, really. Which suited her just fine because she stuck to learning and found peace in doing that. Socializing wasn't a big thing to her.

Through grade school, Lilly maintained the love of knowledge. She began her books at a young age in order to keep all of the information she learned handy should she need it. It would never be remembered by her own brain unless she looked back into the notes she had written about all of the various topics. It became a sort of addiction that she had to meet daily and would soon find herself writing at least one a day so she wouldn't get too obsessive about it. She enjoyed spending the hour or two that it took to write everything down and to see it fill her bookshelf. The thin books soon filled one shelf and then another and another until a whole new and much larger bookshelf needed to be purchased for her room. Standing from the floor to the ceiling and covering one whole wall, it now held all of her knowledge books.

They even benefited her in high school and as she learned new subjects due to having more classes to deal with, she made more and more. All of her money that she would ever receive would go to purchasing pencils and paper in order to make her books. Black markers would write the book's title and then be placed back in the cup at the top of her writing desk. This also kept her from mingling with the kids at her school. It wasn't until she was fourteen that she finally had an invitation to go to a popular social event. She would be amongst all of the rich kids that thought they were flawless. And although it scared her, she accepted.

Just like any other teenage party, alcohol was present. She wasn't aware of the substance just yet as she had never written a book on it nor experienced it in her life. Even though there would be large family dinners held in her home, she had never realized that the drinks the adults held in their hands were filled with a liquid that would cause the effects that alcohol caused. And so once she tasted it, she kept drinking more and more and more. And soon enough, she found herself drunk for the first time. A young, drunk and innocent girl at a party was never a good mix. Especially when it came to the easily molded Lilly. He had been an attractive guy, at least when the alcohol was in her system. And the other girl was certainly beautiful. Lilly had been confused at the time as to why she was asked to join but she went anyways.

Even though she was unaware of her actions, she managed to make it known that she wouldn't have sex. But in her drunken state, she had been convinced by the male to 'experiment' with the stunning blonde also in the room. To save you from the details, she soon found herself naked and exposed on the bed when plenty of the guests at the party piled into the room to get a good look. Males, mostly, caught a glimpse of the innocent young girl with the eighteen year old beauty. And that began the bullying. They would pick on her for being so eager to have sex, even though she denied it. Her innocence was questioned and she soon heard plenty of the hurtful names making her feel dirty and unwanted. It was a well known legend throughout the school that she was 'Licking Lilly'.

Since then, she has had to undergo bullying each and every day of her life. Even though it had been three years, she was reminded of it daily by laughs in the halls, condescending looks and the actual verbal assaults. Her book production increased drastically with some of them being about personal experiences and feelings she was having. She has tried to escape the mistakes she made but they follow her everywhere she goes. None of her old friends talk to her any more because they believe all of the rumours that were told. All of the more popular kids preferred to pick on her about it. And only a few guys would ask for her to do things for them but it usually came with a laugh and an insulting name along with assumptions that were rude to make. She tries to be innocent and hopes to remain that way, thinking that no person would ever be interested in her. It is her goal to escape all of it and to finally overcome the fears that it caused her to have.



I'm Damen and this is one of my characters. Instead of going on and on about my life, which you probably don't care about, I'm going to get straight to the point by telling you that my character tracker can be found here. If you see a character that you'd like to RP with, just send me a PM and I'd be glad to answer.


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