Strained Relationships[Sarella]
Feb 15, 2013 17:16:11 GMT -5
Post by Anna Banana on Feb 15, 2013 17:16:11 GMT -5
[/justify]Every time I turned on the tv to watch the Games all I could think of was Lethe in the arena. The face of every female tribute that looked into the camera was hers. It was the same nightmare that I had when they ran the footage from her Games. I had been so afraid to lose her, she had been my best friend before she had been a participant in the Games. Now I didn't recognize who she was, not that I would ever tell her that, but our relationship hadn't been the same. There was still a fair share of secrets that passed between us, like how I was the first person to know of her pregnancy, but it was all fake. She wasn't the same Lethe, I hate to say it but I didn't recognize her...and that hurt me.
It was that same with my relationships I had with my friends. It had come as a great shock to the district when they found out Lethe was pregnant, and than the secret of who the father was. People lost some of the respect they had for the Turner family. I think it hurt my younger siblings the most, they didn't get along with her anymore, always plotting some way to make her life miserable. Being as I was only one person with only one set of eyes I couldn't keep track of everything they did. In a way it was a relief that she was in the Capitol acting as the mentor for the latest tributes. It would be a lie to say that I didn't miss her though, I cared about her still, now more than ever. Who knows what trouble she was getting into in the Capitol, the temtations around her, the people who sought to use her. No matter what anyone said she was still my innocent little sister, and no matter what she did she always would be.
A voice startled me out of my thoughts, and I registered it as the voice of my husband. He was the only person that understood me anymore, and made any attempt at continuing to talk to my family. Not that he had much of a choice, mother was very...persuasive when it came to that. Anyways, his voice startled me from my thoughts, and I felt his hand fall on my shoulder lightly. His lips brushed against my cheek and I smiled as I ran my hand along his cheek and than kissed his lips. "I don't deserve you my love, just as I don't deserve to be the mother of your child. You could have had anyone in the district, but you chose me." I smiled again as I rose from the chair I had been sitting in and gave him a gentle hug. I needed to get some fresh air, away from the constant footage of the Games, just a chance to be alone with my thoughts.
I broke away from my husband and slipped out the door, leaving him to question where I was going. He understood how I felt though, he knew I needed some time to be alone. My feet led me through the district square, past everyone, and to the edge of the district. I stared out through the links in the fence in the direction of the Capitol and layed my hand on the fence vainly reaching out to Lethe. It's unlikely anyone knew what I was going through, how could they?