-- the circus is in town ( thomas sisters ) --
Nov 24, 2012 15:38:31 GMT -5
Post by willow . on Nov 24, 2012 15:38:31 GMT -5
Still, when your heart is sore
And the heavens pour
Like a willow bending in a storm
You'll make it
[/i]And the heavens pour
Like a willow bending in a storm
You'll make it
[/size]What is a summer day without the sun? What is winter without a little snow? Nothing can be anything without the assistance of others; nothing can be done by only one force. All except for tightrope walking, it only takes one lady to place her toes on the thin wire and prance across, grace is the key to everything. Without safety nets, without harnesses binding her torso, Esther dances to the tune of death. She defies it above all else. Right foot, Left turn, the touch of death will never come to her icy skin as she stands perched on the wire, only the freedom of a bird.
The circus is her most favorite thing, the frilly costumes and heavy make-up that stains her skin. Esther loves to hear the sound of people cheering and the feeling of pride as she know that it is her that made them happy, it was all her. Her smile turns just a bit more bright as she waves back, Bell tells her not to do such childish things though. Only in her dreams does Esther ever wave back to her expecting fans. Why not? Real life was with the living though and daydreaming, Bell said, wasn't healthy. Slowly she came back to reality of it all.
Esther began to work her way into her dress, first her right foot, than her left arm. It all followed a strict pattern that would result in perfection, why would anyone take the different path if they knew that a set of directions could lead them to glory and fame for the rest of their lives. Esther could never understand any other people besides her sisters; they knew exactly what she was forced to endure. Never would one of them, with their soft smiles and narrowed eyes, hurt her. She knew it deep in her heart.
The dress was soft with little frills at the sides and a tank-top sort of appearance near the shoulders. Esther needed clothes that would allow her to move freely, any sort of burdening thing would have her crashing to the earth in mere seconds.
She willed herself to strap up the back and put on a stone-hard face, this was her only chance. Preparing was the hard part, getting ready to walk into the light and force herself to a possible death every time. Practice makes perfection though, at least that was Bell has always said to her, such things as harnesses and safety supports were only used in practices, real life had none of that, you were expected to hold yourself up. Strings cut and let loose in the world no one is there to help you anymore, a puppet left out for the elements. It would be foolish for Esther to admit that she wasn’t scared; every time she performs it’s a new wave of fear that threatens to engulf her as she puts on a brave smile and heads out to the stage.
It took will and self-confidence for her to emerge into the light and walk out to the people, blindness over coming her as she climbed up the familiar ladder that led up to her possible death. She was not afraid, that was a lie. Each step could mean falling into oblivion.
And slowly she went, out onto the wire, Left foot, right foot, right turn, left duck, She had it all planned out.
Then the other side came flying at her and the whole thing was over with, a second of fear that erupted into laughing and smiles. It was for their enjoyment, the waving and standing people made Esther happy, she adored those who watched her.
Life was all about adoration, that simple word that over time took over Esther. To her, it was no longer a word more than a feeling of tingling happiness down her spine. The cheering was worth it.
Every second of it.
(I'm sorry it took so long for me to write this, I'll code my next post, I'm just lazy and trying to get all of my threads updated so yeah. ^^