A new beginning or a bad mistake(Kiara)

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Renn's lips formed into a weak smile against Xander's lips as she felt his hands slip down and unbutton her jeans. She automatically sucked in her stomach as Xander's hands ventured further up her shirt, his hands cold against her warm skin. Renn's hands tugged on the back of his jaw, her tongue tracing over the delicate line of his lips. His hands fiddled with the hem of Renn's shirt and she felt his lips purse against her own, obviously annoyed with the restrictions it was causing. She slid her hands down to his waistline, her hands drifting barely below it as a cue for Xander to proceed. Renn was fed up with her shirt too. For a moment, her lips were empty, his leaving for just a moment so the shirt came off her head. Xander flattened against her, and his lips trailed back to hers. The bare skin of Renn's front pressed firmly into Xander's, sending simultaneous chills up their backs.

His hands traced Renn's arms, only dipping slightly at her biceps. They weren't quite as impressive as Xander's but they were something. But his hands smoothed along her arms as if the indentions didn't exist. As if, they were floating. Renn's stomach left her, making her abdomen feel suddenly empty. Her head swirled, her vision edgy. Chills raced up and down her spine, making her shake involuntarily against Xander's body. His hands drifted down her stomach, as far as the undone button of her jeans. He spoke, but her ears drained out every sound besides the quickening pace of their hearts, sending blood pumping throughout her.

She'd never felt such desire to be so close to someone. She'd never wanted to be naked in front of someone. Never in Renn's life had she loved someone like she loved Xander. It was a different kind of love, one she was so unfamiliar with it. If Xander, her "big strong man", wasn't there to protect her, her safety always in his mind, she'd been scared out of her mind. But she wasn't scared. She was eager, and stupid. Renn felt her sanity slowly slipping away...

When had she moved on top of him? Had she even taken a breath in the past few minutes. Renn lurched away from Xander, gasping harder for breath then a drowning person. She landed at the foot of the bed, his bare feet touching her waist as she sat on her knees. Renn held her hand to her chest, afraid her heart might leap out of it if she didn't. Xander sat up in surprise, slowly inching closer to her in an attempt not to scare her. Renn didn't meet his eyes. She couldn't figure out her emotions. She wasn't scared of Xander. It was the thought of him with her that intimidated her. She was so lost when she was with him, her brain so compromised. When their bodies' were pressed together so close one couldn't identify one person from another, she acted completely on impulse. Her body took over her actions from her brain and she didn't even think. It was intimidating, scary, even, that he had that power over her. She trusted Xander, he would never hurt her. But what if she hurt him somehow? It was all so jumbled. The thoughts were there, the fears, the desires. They were mixed together and jumbled up, but the thoughts were there. Trying desperately to make themselves able for Renn to understand.

Xander didn't touch her. He stopped moving towards her. Renn pulled her knees out from under her and settled onto the bed, buttoning her jeans before crossing her legs. She placed her elbows on her knees and let her head rest in her elevated hands, covering her eyes. They sat in silence for a moment, Renn digesting everything she was thinking, trying to form the words to tell Xander. She was scared. Everything about them was unfamiliar. Everything they'd done Renn had never done before. They were like magnets, unable to be separated. Renn tried to stop thinking all together. To just speak.

[/size][/color]"Xander.. it's not you. I love you.. I-I've never felt something like this. I a-am not s-scared of you. I'm scared of what you make me... You make me... dangerous. And I can't think. I-I don't..."[/b] She threw herself at Xander, her arms linking around his waist as she moved onto his lap. She was doing it all wrong. This wasn't how it was supposed to happen. Renn started to cry in frustration, all her thoughts tearing at her at once. She hugged his chest as his protective embrace made her sigh. He loved her so much. He would do anything for her. If she was scared, he would stop for her. He could control himself for her. But Renn couldn't. She moved her hands to her lap, concealed from the rest of the world by Xander's huge frame. She had so explain this to him. Somehow, she had to convey what she was feeling. Renn moved a hand to his jaw, tilting his head so he looked into her eyes. He had to see the confusion in them somehow.

"I love you. More than anything. Ever. And it... it scares me. I'm scared of what I might do," She ran a hand over his chest, her eyes slipping to his bare skin for a moment before meeting his gaze again. "Listen. I'm new to this. Love is a weird word to me, or at least, a love like ours. And I'm like a kid learning to walk. I don't want to trip, and I don't want to mess it up. I don't want to make the wrong move. I just want everything to be perfect.. And.. I just.. want you. I've never wanted someone.. with my.. body.. before. I feel like I have a heart that I'm unfamiliar with. Like you took my old heart, and put something new in me. Something that I can't get used to... I am so lost right now, Xander. I don't know what to feel. I don't know what to do."[/b] Another tear of frustration slid down Renn's cheek. "Just know that I love you. Oh, Xander. I love you more than the word love can describe. Just... help me. Tell me what to feel. Tell me what to do. Please. I trust you, more than anyone."[/b] Renn's vision blurred from the tears threatening to spill over. She wiped them away with her forearm and smiled up at Xander's face. "I'm a big mess aren't I? I hope you can clean Xander."[/b] She winked at him and awaited his response.[/size]


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Xander's smile made the tension in Renn's shoulders release against him. She wasn't wrong, and he'd taken everything the right way. His arms pulled her into him, resting her face against his chest. He kissed the top of her head and Renn hugged him tighter.[/size][/color]

"There is nothing you could do now that would be wrong Renn, and I don't expect anything from you. We both have new hearts, when we got to know each other we didn't realize it but we started new lives. I can't tell you what to feel because it wouldn't be real, the feelings we both expressed only minutes ago were the feelings that we both felt on the inside. You shouldn't be ashamed of it, I mean, look at us, we're both shirtless in front of each other, with no care in the world as long as we're with each other. We just need to keep doing what were doing, loving as we're loving, our lives are ahead of us now, Renn and Xander Thrash. We shouldn't be afraid of the feelings we have, it's the desire in both of us to be with each other, to give ourselves to each other. At first I felt that it was wrong, that we shouldn't be doing it, but I realized it was what my heart wanted. You're not a mess because of it, but I'll always be here to clean up after you, whether you leave a mess behind or not."

Renn's chest tightened. He was so stuck on them being engaged. Renn wasn't ready for it. She didn't particularly want to get married. Not because she didn't want to be with Xander- she wanted that more than anything. It was because they were so young. If people started addressing her as Mrs. Thrash, she'd feel older. They still had their youth to live out. When Renn thought of married couples, she thought of responsible people. She wanted to do the exact opposite of responsible with Xander. Gently, his lips bent down to her's. He took her hands and rubbed them on his chest. Renn's breath shot out of her, and her hearing was muffled. She knew where this was going, and she became stiff, not looking Xander in the eye.

Renn was frozen. All she could do was let Xander's hands lead her's over his body. They stopped at his jean button. He whispered something in her ear, but her body remained rigid, her eyes on the curtains behind him. His hands released her's. She had to stop him. Renn was nowhere near ready for this. Not now. It was her greatest wish, but they couldn't. Not now. Renn didn't want to lose herself this way. She wanted to tell Xander. She wanted to take his hands from her waist, but she remained still, frozen in fear. What would happen if she did stop him? He would be upset for sure. What if she upset him? Renn was frozen in the fear of hurting Xander, as she knew he would never hurt her.

His hands slid around her waist, then, without the slightest bit of hesitation, undid the button of her jeans. Renn took in a sharp breath, her heart pounding wildly in her chest. Then he stopped. Renn forced her vision to him, just as his pants slid off his ankles. She took in another sharp breath, her eyes going back to the curtains behind him. There was something more intimidating about a naked Xander than a clothed one. Renn felt incredibly small next to him. He pulled her into him, his bare skin tingling her bones.

He fell back on the bed, pulling her on top of him. Her hands rest hesitantly on his chest, and she forced herself to breathe. Why, if she'd dreamed of this moment for so long, was she not enjoying this? More than anything, Renn was terrified. Black edged her vision as his hands moved along her back. She had to summon up enough courage to tell him to stop. His hands pulled her pants past her thighs, just to her knee caps. Renn's hands grabbed his abruptly. She wasn't ready for this. She wasn't ready for him to see her naked. Silently, she moved his hands to the bed beside them. Renn moved from on top of him, pulling her pants up as she stood. Xander hadn't seen anything past the hem of her jeans.

She paced back and forth, trying to think out what had just happened. She kept her arms crossed over her chest. Feeling awkward, she scanned the room for her shirt. Unsuccessful at finding it, she grabbed Xander's shirt from the foot of the bed. Renn stopped as Xander sat up and pushed him back down so he was laying on the bed. She wasn't totally decided this wasn't a good idea, she just needed a minute to catch her breath. After about a minute, Renn faced Xander, who'd stayed obediently laying down. She bent down and grabbed his pants from the ground. Tossing them lightly at him, she turned, silently telling him to put them back on. When she turned back around, he'd done as he was told.

He was sitting on the end of the bed, his knees bent and his feet on the floor. Renn uncrossed her arms and sat beside him. She rested a hand on his thigh as she turned to face him, crossing one of her legs in front of her. "Listen Xander. I've... I'm.. It's just.. I'm a.. Xander I'm a virgin. We can't.. I can't.. I don't even know if you were.. but.. I.. can't. I'm sorry. I just..."[/b] Renn took her hand from Xander's thigh and turned around, uncrossing one leg, and crossing the other, with her back to Xander. "I'm... scared. I've never done anything I'm not used to. Something unfamiliar to me. But then I met you. And you showed me I could get used to love. But I'm... a scaredy cat. I'm weak and puny."[/b] Renn turned back to Xander, her eye's meeting his own. "Your love makes me stronger, but not strong enough. Please understand Xander. I wish I could give you all I should, but I can't. I know I just asked you to tell me what to do, but I think I have my own perspective now... Please forgive me,"[/b] Renn pleaded.[/size]


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Xander's words warmed Renn's heart as they always did, and the fear in the pit of her stomach disintegrated. She watched Xander's eyes, a shy smile creeping onto her face. He was so perfect. His bulky arm moved around her waist and pulled her into him, his perfect lips meeting her's. The smile on her face widened against his lips as she leaned into him. Renn stared into his deep bronze eyes, feeling nothing but a sense of love. How could she ever deny such a strong feeling she had for him? How could she ever begin to think that there wasn't something between them? Renn questioned a lot of decisions she'd made in the past few days. Her head began to fall onto Xander's shoulder, but he got up, leaving her shivering from the lack of his body heat.

He stood and walked to the dresser, and pulled a shirt out. Renn lifted his above her stomach, but as Xander turned to her she let it fall against her abdomen once again. The shirt Xander had found was tight against his body, clearly outlining every muscle in his chest and stomach. Renn's stomach dropped from beneath her. The shirt, in Renn's mind, fit him perfectly, and in this moment, she decided he was the most beautiful thing she'd ever seen. His hair was still bushy from sleep, but it kept it's spiked look, perfectly outlining his broad forehead. Setting the perfect place for his eyes to sit. Those gorgeous bronze eyes that distracted Renn so much when they first met. The bridge of his nose sloped so amazingly perfect, and right below it, his lips. Renn's little slice of heaven. His lips were full, and very kissable. Renn ran her tongue over her own lips, remembering how perfectly his fit into her's. He turned away from Renn, and she could see the bones in his broad and bulky shoulders stick out from the shirt. His waist was skinny, but strong, even from the back. His thighs and legs were perfectly toned, his calves nothing but muscle. And to Renn, he was the object of beauty.

Xander walked to the window, and Renn skipped across the room after him. She slid under his arm so that she was at his front. Her hands went to his chest, running over the smoothness of the shirt across his muscles. Pressing her body into his, she felt over his back, her palms perfectly covering the bulging muscles of his shoulders. Her head came right up to his chin, making him a little over a head taller than her. Xander's bronze eyes glimmered in the sunlight from the window, sending sparkles dancing across the blackness of his pupil. His gaze didn't find Renn though, nor did his arms. Instead, he stood like a statue, like Renn wasn't even there. He gazed out the window, and Renn silently slipped away from him, slightly embarrassed he hadn't reacted to her. Resuming her place on the bed, she watched his fists clench and unclench as he stared out the window some more.

Xander approached Renn, seeming even more giant as his form towered over her. His monstrous hands enveloped Renn's as he gently pulled her from the bed, telling her he wanted to take her for a walk. Renn followed his lead cautiously. He was totally unpredictable, and she hoped she hadn't upset him. As the fresh afternoon air hit Renn's face, Xander's hand gave her's a gentle squeeze. He began walking slowly, as Renn busied herself by trying to match his wide strides. She didn't pay attention to where they were going, she was just happy to have Xander at her side. Soon, she moved closer to his side, walking so close to him that their thighs brused every now and then. This is how love was supposed to be, and Renn thoroughly enjoyed it.

Renn looked up for the first time since they left the apartment. Xander had taken her to the Cherry tree by the lake. Renn giggled quietly at the boulder, remembering the moment she'd made everything worth it for Xander. The first time she truly oppressed her love for him. Xander sat down, leaning his back against the large trunk of the tree. His hand pulled her down, but Renn would have plopped down next to him anyway. He pulled her head onto his shoulder, where it so perfectly fit. Everything about him was no less than perfect. No less than everything Renn wanted. She inhaled his scent, like the silence of morning. Like the dew that settled on the grass at dawn. Like the warmth of the oncoming day. His scent was that of dawn. A scent Renn loved far long before she knew Xander, but loved even more now that it belonged to him.

Renn thought for a moment. They were getting married sometime soon. Renn would belong fully to Xander, and the constant lingering thought of her brothers wouldn't hang over her head as much. Because Renn was Xander's whether she had the ring to prove it or not. She scooted in as close as she could to Xander's side. Pulling his arm over her shoulders, she snuggled into his side, perfectly content to stay exactly like this forever. In the comfortable embrace of her fiancee. But no moment, no matter how comfortable Renn got could keep from being ruined.

[/size][/color]"Look who it is Rahm. Came back to relive the 'glory days' did we Renn?" Renn turned around the tree, holding Xander's arm around her shoulder. The thin figure of her brother Jameson crept silently towards the couple on Renn's side of the tree. Meanwhile, Rahm, his bulky and rather intimidating figure crept towards Xander. Renn felt Xander's body tense and she turned to jab him in the ribs, scolding him for thinking she would let another fight happen. "Would you cowardly bastards come out where I can see you? You're giving me neck cramps."[/b] Renn spoke. Jameson straightened his figure, surpirised by Renn's language. She'd never cursed in front of him before. Rahm and him came and stood in front of them. Knowing Xander didn't trust Renn's judgement completely, she stood, pulling him with her so that him and Rahm could be of equal advantage, just to please him.

"So Renn. What's it like being Xander's baby?" Jameson teased. "Great. And to what concern does that cause you?"[/b] Renn pulled Xander's arm around her waist, and it automatically adjusted tighter protectively. "Uck. I don't understand how you can get that close," Rahm chimed in. "It's quite literally disgusting." Renn raised an eyebrow at him. It was rather easy to get close to Xander. Considering he was now her fiancee. "Is it really?"[/b] Renn asked. She caressed Xander's cheek with her hand, pulling his jaw towards her and pressing her lips into his. The satisfactory 'ew's" from her brothers pushed Renn further, and she let her tongue trace around Xander's lips, until it slipped into his mouth. Her hand pulled on the back of his neck, pulling him further into the kiss.

After holding out the kiss longer then nessicary to prove her point, the passion behind it ever-growing, Jameson pulled Renn from Xander by her shoulder. Xander's arms fell from Renn and automatically grabbed Jameson by the collar of his shirt. Immediately knowing what that meant for Rahm's actions, Renn pulled his legs out from under him and pinned him to the ground. Xander was yelling something at Jameson and looked like he was about to throw a punch. "Xander! Stop!" Xander's ears were sensitive to Renn's voice, so she didn't have to yell that loud. Xander still held Jameson by his shirt collar, but his fist fell to his side. In the moment Renn had looked away from Rahm, he'd strategically flipped their bodies so that now he was the one pinning her. Xander dropped Jameson and came to tear Rahm off of Renn, but he'd already stood. Renn reached a hand out to Xander and he pulled her up beside him, his arm tighter than usual around her waist. "Now there, big boy. We didn't mean any trouble," Jameson spoke. Renn loosened Xander's grip on her, as his bone crushing strength had his hands putting pressure on the bruise that had formed from a similar situation the day before.

"But you can't possibly expect for two loving parents, and Maria, Renn's dear sister to not worry about her after she's been away for two nights, and two days." Renn's eyes narrowed at Jameson. Both he and Renn knew that this was Renn's weakness. Maria was one of the most important people in her life, and she loved her parents. Renn also knew, and Jameson too probably, that Xander didn't want Renn unhappy, and that this would turn into his weakness too. "Oh don't worry. They don't know about you, Xander. But just for curiosity sake, just how many times have you done it?" Now it was Xander holding Renn back as she lunged at Jameson. That was much more sensitive to her than Maria. Mostly because she was too scared to do it anyways. "Jameson. It's not your responsibility to keep track of what exactly I do or do not do with my... boyfriend."[/b] Renn refrained from the word fiancee.

Renn's fingers moved to her ring finger, slowly twirling it on her finger in an attempt to hide it. But Rahm caught sight of it. In two large strides, he was at Renn's side, taking her hand in his. "Oh my god. Renn. Oh my god! What were you thinking?! Of all people! Now it's our business! I can't believe you!" Renn yanked her hand from Rahm. She wasn't used to his touch, or even the sight of him. And it felt foreign. She didn't like it. "He... Oh my gosh. No. Jameson! He probably convinced her into this! Probably in the bed too huh? Stupid mistake, knocking up my sister!" Renn pressed the palm of the hand the ring wasn't on into Rahm's chest, pushing him away from her. Jameson grabbed her other hand, examining the ring. "It sure looks dirty." Again, Xander's body tensed beside Renn. It was killing him to have her brothers touch her. She ripped her hand from Jameson and took another step into Xander, rubbing a hand on his back to tell him to stop tensing. That she would take care of this.

"I agreed to marry Xander on my own terms. He's better for me than the two of you. My feelings actually mean something to him. He didn't do anything to me to make me agree to this. It was totally on my own accord! And there's nothing either of you can do to change my mind!"[/b] "And that's obvious. I just wish you'd think of Maria. She's always dreamed of being at your wedding you know." Renn frowned. It was true. Maria had always dreamed of planning Renn's wedding one day. Innocent little girl, always playing with the matters of love. Renn knew it far more serious than that. She stared at Jameson, unsure of what to say. She wanted to see Maria desperately. If only Xander and her brothers would get along.

Renn turned into Xander, her forehead resting on his chest. "I miss her so much, Xander. You'd like her. She's a lot less bullheaded than them.."[/b][/size]


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The minute Xander agreed to go to her house, Renn smiled gleefully at him. It had been years since Renn had spent this long away from her little sister, Maria, and she missed her so much. Rahm and Jameson glared at them. [/size][/color]"We'll go right now Renn, we'll go over to your house and we'll tell them about everything. No more secrets from your family, or at least the ones that matter." Jameson had his hands ready to assist his verbal protest to that idea, but Renn shot him a warning glare. She wasn't totally on board with the idea entirely, but if Xander was ready, if he loved her that much, she'd do whatever she could to please him.

Xander took her hand, the warmth from his previously clenched palms warmed Renn's heart. She automatically moved closer to him, leaning in at the exact moment he had. His tongue traced tantalizingly over the line of her lips, the sensation making her giddy. Renn opened her mouth as his tongue slipped inside the confines of her lips. She had that sudden burst of energy Xander's closeness always ignited. His burly hand at her neck, their waist merging into one, made Renn pulled him closer, her hand pressing into his back, her toes stretching under her, making her height grow. And making Xander's lips closer. They'd never been this close to the edge. Never, in the time Renn had known Xander, did she want him more than she did now. It felt like her heart was ready to jump out of her chest and snuggle in next to Xander's. She tugged relentlessly at his back with one hand, using the other to put more pressure on his neck.

Slowly, his lips drifted from her mouth, and Renn's found his neck, momentarily forgetting her brothers were there. She didn't back away from Xander as she turned in time to see the repulsed looks on Rahm and Jameson's faces. Rahm's stood out more, the anger flushing on his face making his anger evident. Jameson stood straight, his fists clenching and unclenching, but the anger in his movements didn't meet his eyes. Renn knew Jameson had a sensitive side. She knew it made him secretly happy that Renn had found her happiness, even if it was in Xander. Xander backed away from Renn, taking her hand in his. She skipped after him, dropping his hand to wrap an arm around his waist. Holding hands was not close enough for Renn, and she was excited for Maria to meet Xander.

Stares of envy that Renn knew Xander wouldn't recognize fell upon the ring on her fourth finger. Even though it was simple, an old artifact of someone's life, the envy in the ice cold stares burned into her, but it made her smile. She had Xander, and he barely paid attention to the women gawking at him as they passed them. They weren't envious of the ring, but of Xander. Renn had overheard the conversations at the gym. He was all the talk of the girls her age. They all commented on his rock hard abs, which Renn had felt without the accompaniment of a shirt. Most girls just adored his muscles, which Renn had seen in intense battle, but also slopped lazily over her body as Xander slept. She'd seen them flex after carrying her in his arms. And Renn was the luckiest girl in the district. She had the man of every other girl's dreams. Renn, had Xander, the most perfect person anyone could have created. Renn giggled quietly as Xander's longing gaze down at her forced more grunts of envy from the girls they passed in the crowded streets.

As the street crowds thinned, and the envious stares left the couple, Renn stepped in front of Xander, looking over her shoulder to see the puzzled looks on her brother's faces. She turned back around, but balanced her feet atop Xander's. She wrapped his arms around her abdomen, and giggled lightly as he walked, moving both of them at the same time. Xander returned her smiles and laughs as they approached her house. His eyes were flashing happy grins at her. They were madly in love, but love still had a little bit of the childhood innocence to it. Though, more than often, the pair was forced to grow up a little, to do things that children wouldn't be able to do. Renn frowned to herself. Not all of those things had she been able to accomplish. As they neared the porch, Renn moved off of Xander's feet and resumed a more formal position of holding his hand at her side, a much too wide distance separating them.

It didn't last long. With one last squeeze of her hand, he dropped it to put an arm around her waist. With his opposite hand, he knocked easily on the door. Renn smiled up at him, always the polite gentleman. You know, when he wasn't fighting Renn's brothers. Renn pulled his neck down to her once more, letting her lips barely peck his before Jameson slid past them, opening the door and marching in. Now or never.

After Jameson, Rahm stepped into the house, both of their builds strutting proudly to sit on the couch and watch the scene unfold. Renn pulled Xander in, his arm following her waist wherever it went. At the top of the stairs ahead of them, Renn heard Maria's exaggerated gasp. The girl was only four years old, but a second after she began barreling down the stairs she noticed the understated ring on Renn's finger. She stopped dead in her tracks, her eyes finding the arm around Renn's waist and following the extension of the limb to Xander's face. Tears welled up in her eyes, and she barreled down the stairs. Renn stretched her arms out to greet Maria, but instead of running into her, Maria went straight for Xander, her tiny arms only reaching his leg. A look of pure surprise crossed Xander's face as Maria hooked her arms around his leg, hugging it as tight as she could. Renn laughed and took Xander's arms, wrapping them around Maria's slender frame. He hugged her hesitantly, a little confused about how different Renn's families' greetings were. Renn stroked Maria's natural strawberry-blonde locks as she clung to Xander.

"Maria, this is Xander."[/b] "You're husband?! My new brother?!" Maria interrupted excitedly. "Yes, Maria."[/b] Maria bursts into loving giggles as she left Xander's leg for Renn. Renn knelt down so that Maria's arms laced around her neck, and supporting her on her hip, swooped her up into an elevated hug. After they hugged for a moment, Renn switched the hip Maria sat on and grabbed Xander's hand. "This is Maria, Xander."[/b] Renn spoke to Xander. Maria reached out to Xander, one of her small arms pulling him by the back of his neck into her and Renn's embrace. Renn laughed as she kissed Xander lightly on the cheek, and Maria did the same, blush bursting over her cheeks as her lips left Xander's cheek.

Xander wrapped an arm around Renn, enclosing Maria as well in their embrace. They stood in the foyer like that for a moment, each of them hugging the other with equal passion. Renn's heart swarmed. Maria was the best judge of character she knew. And she seemed to take a liking to Xander. Rahm appeared out of the kitchen to their left. He unfolded each pair of arms, his touch on Renn tensing Xander. Then, Rahm even dared to unfold Xander's arm from Renn's waist. He tugged on Maria until she let go, she lent her head on his shoulder as he carried her into the kitchen.

Using Xander's shoulder for balance, Renn kicked off her shoes. She laced an arm through his and with his heavy frame in tow, walked into the kitchen after them. Renn's mother's eyes settled on the couple, her eyes darting back and forth from Xander, to Renn, to Renn's ring finger. Renn nodded to answer her mother's silent question. Tears of excitement ran down her mother's face as she separated the pair and hugged Xander, her arms not quite fitting around his neck, so she settled for his waist. He hesitantly returned her touch, his arms slowly wrapping around the frame with much similarities to Renn's. Jameson was chewing on a cucumber at the bar, and Rahm and Renn's father leaned against the back counter. Renn moved away from Xander, her mother's arms still laced around him, to hug and kiss her father on the cheek. He stroked her hair and whispered in her ear. "Now you're adult enough to make your own decisions, but will you please think this through? I've missed you, Renn. And by the way, I think you have Maria's approval. And as long as he's good to you... he's got mine," he whispered. Renn looked at his eyes, so genuine with fatherly love. He was always easy going. "Oh, Dad. You have no idea just how good he is to me.[/b] She replied, refraining from telling on her brothers. Xander was a fighter, but more than that, he was a lover.

Renn's mother had finally broken away from Xander, and using her apron, she wiped the tears from her eyes as she embraced Renn for a moment. She broke away quickly, and as Renn turned to Xander, Maria was at his leg again. She laughed, if only all the members of her family were this inviting. Jameson and Rahm sat silently at the bar. Renn could tell by their faces that they were too chicken to tell on them, besides, Renn always had the back-up plan of bringing up their attack on Xander, which her father would be very disappointed in.[/size]



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Xander, the perfect gentleman, strode to Renn's father, extending his hand and standing a comfortable distance away. Had he done this before? Red flushed Renn's cheeks as he explained his love for her. How he would always try to keep her happy. Renn's mother winked at her on several occasions and shook with giddy excitement as her father clapped Xander on the back. Being married was exciting to Renn. The fact that Xander would face so much for her made her heart swell in her chest. But she wanted them to be alone when they did get married. Being married wouldn't seem so intimate if Renn and Xander's families were there to watch.

Xander walked back over to Renn, hugging her close. The scent of dawn flooded Renn's nose, and she buried her face in his chest as he kissed the top of her head. Renn did truly love her family. She'd missed them a lot, but she had to control herself around them. The last thing she wanted to do was make them look irresponsible. No. She would control herself, and possibly give off the impression that they'd come no where close to intimacy. But the truth was the exact opposite. Renn watched, a smile on her face and love in her eyes, as Xander swooped Maria up in his arms and strode over to Renn. Maria's little fingers found Renn's face as Xander kissed her on the cheek. Giggles and blush exploded from Maria, her little voice bringing a sense of joy to Renn, but not even close to that of kissing Xander.

His gaze cast a happy glance at each member of the family, excluding Jameson and Rahm. Renn stared up at him lovingly, the urge to kiss him so strong as he stood broad-chested, Maria on his hip. Renn's mother smiled at them, cocking her head to side while releasing a sigh. She was in the middle of cooking an early dinner, and the pot began to overflow below her. A burning smell filled the air and Jameson stood quickly, throwing the burnt contents into the sink. Renn giggled under her breath as her mother joined in, pinching the bridge of her nose with her thumb and forefinger. Jameson rolled his eyes at his mother and bumped her with his hip, bumping her out of the kitchen more towards the dining area where Xander and Renn were standing. Jameson took over the food confidently. He was always a good cook. Renn's mother gazed at Xander and Renn, love in her eyes. She approached them, taking Maria's hand from the back of Xander's neck and lowering her to the floor. [/size][/color]"Why don't you show Xander around, Renn? Maria, we need to go... erm... I need to run to the market before dinner. Xander, you're more than welcome to stay." Renn looked at Xander, taking this opprutunity to flee to her bedroom. She pulled on Xander's arm as he tried to speak a thank you to her mother. She tugged on him until he followed her upstairs.

"So, to begin our tour..."[/b] Renn spoke clearly, trying to make it sound like she actually had intentions of showing Xander around. As they cleared the top of the steps though, Renn took one last peek at her brothers and father in the kitchen. She locked her fingers with Xander's and took off at a full out run to the end of the hallway, to her bedroom. After she'd swung open the door, she dropped Xander's hand and put two heavy palms to his chest, shoving him on the bed. Renn turned to close the door, then climbed on top of him, her lips in desperate need of his. Sparks blew up inside her as the energy from Xander traveled into her life she'd stuck her finger in a light socket. Renn's hands found Xander's face, pulling his jaw further into her. Her tongue traveled along Xander's lips, and his mouth opened without hesitation now. She let her tongue glide into his mouth, searching frantically for his. Once it found it, she let it linger, enjoying the feeling.

After a few exasperating moments of kissing Xander with as much passion as Renn could muster, she let her lips drift to his neck, inhaling his sweet scent in the process. Renn forced herself to stop, afraid to get too carried away in her house. Maybe back at there place, but not here. She pushed her hands into Xander's chest, pushing herself up from him. His gleeful eyes met her's and she wanted to drop down and kiss him again, but instead she settled for rolling off to the side. She couldn't stay away from him for long. For the minute his touch left her, she fled back to him, snuggling into his side. His arm automatically removed itself from his side, wrapping itself around Renn as he pulled her closer. Renn lay her head on his chest and lay on her side, the front of her body matching with Xander's side. Her arm wrapped around his waist, pulling him closer to her. She took a moment from the comfort of his chest to kiss his cheek, whispering softly in his ear. "I love you. I love you so much."[/b][/size]


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Immediatly, Xander mimicked Renn's every move, pulling her on top of him and letting his tongue lace around her's. His arms tugged and tugged on her and she felt so inclined to get closer to him. Renn moaned in annoyance at the fact that it was inhumanly possible to get any closer than they already were. Her hands were at his arm, her tonuge still inside to confines of his mouth, readying themselves to pull him atop her when she heard the door click behind them. Xander stopped kissing her, his arms fell from her back and neck, and he quickly detached himself from her, vaulting to the opposite side of the bed from her. Renn did the same, bolting to the edge of the bed. Renn flushed with red as her father stepped in, closing the door calmly behind him. [/size][/color]"Ummmmm, I'm sorry I walked in on....this....I suppose I should have knocked first. Is there something I should know about here Renn....Xander?"

He stared at them, awaiting an answer. From the corner of her eye, Renn could see Xander's helpless gaze fall upon her. She grinned mischievously and reached for his hand. Encasing her fingers in his, she stood, and Xander followed, the bed separating their bodies as they walked on either side of it, but their hands holding them together. Renn quickened her pace at they approached the end of the bed, wanting so badly to be enclosed in Xander's protective embrace. They soon faced her father and Renn scooted closer to Xander, but leaving about an inch of space between them. It seemed strange to try and not be right next to Xander. They were like magnets, and any time she was even within sight of him she wanted to be at his side, his arm around her waist. Her father looked them up and down and cocked an eyebrow at Renn. "I was just showing Xander around. Nothing more,"[/b] Renn reassured him. He smiled as Renn pulled Xander around him and out of the room. Her father grabbed her shoulder as they passed and gave her a stern look. Renn winked at him and looked lovingly at Xander behind her. Tugging on his hand again, she stepped out into the hallway. Keeping that "comfortable" distance between them as she very slowly lead Xander down the hall, Renn turned her head to watch her father disappear down the stairs. Her gaze darted back to Xander and she started to run to the door at the opposite end of the hall, Xander in tow, and little giggles escaping her mouth.

At the end of the hallway, there was a door much like Renn's bedroom door. Her parents had given her this space to put her extra belongings when she moved in, and she still hadn't sorted through all of them yet. Opening the door, it revealed a small walk-in closet. It was nothing to brag about, but it wasn't the dim lighting or the close quarters that drove Renn to bring Xander in here. She closed the door behind him, and now she was free to close the space between them. Really, they didn't have a choice. The closet's tight walls and racks of clothes pressed the couple together. Renn's eyes met Xander's chest and he craned his neck to look down at her while she craned her's to look up at him. They stood there for a moment, their hearts perfectly content with the close proximity and the comfort in each other's gaze. Renn connected both of her hands with Xander's and let them sway a little while she continued to gaze up at him. He started to lean down to kiss her, but she ducked her head into his chest and his lips met the hair on the top of her scalp.

Renn chuckled slightly and released his hands, moving past him, there bodies pressed together, to the back of the closet. Xander's shirt on Renn's body was snagged by one of the hangars, but Renn broke it loose and moved the clothes at the back of the closet to the side, revealing a tiny door. Memories flooded back to Renn. Her mother had told her that she could have the room behind the little door. Only her parents knew about the room and she could find complete privacy there if she needed it. When Renn first moved in, homesickness struck her like a knife to the gut and she'd spent endless hours in the window seat at the edge of the room.

Now, she ducked into it, realizing just how much she'd grown since the last time she was here. After the general sickness of missing home was gone, her visits to her private quarters had become less frequent. Renn had a little trouble fitting through the small door, it's top frame only measuring up to her waist, but she manged. Xander examined the small doorway critically. He was taking much too long. Renn grabbed his hand and pulled him through the door. On instinct, his body shortened and his limbs found the right place to go as his thick frame slid through the doorway. The room behind it was dark. Renn felt blindly for the stool she stood on to reach the lightswitch while holding Xander firmly in one place. At her sucess at finding it, she used Xander's shoulder for balance as her fingers found the string hanging from the ceiling fan, the feeling of the chain in her hands more familiar then that of Xander's lips on her's.

Light illuminated the room and Renn grabbed Xander's hand as he lead her back down the two little steps of the stool. Renn turned him around to see the room. Plush carpet covered the floor. The pattern of the white flooring was interrupted by the rug in the middle of the room. On the rug, was a scene that Renn knew well. Her real mother had been a master seemtress, and had given Renn the rug as a parting gift. It was of her veiw outside her window. Of the Cherry Tree petals fluttering slowly to the ground. The reflection of the stream behind their house beaming summer sunlight in the background. The rough bark of the tree similar to the callouses on Xander's hands. The sky in the picture was the most memorizing thing about it. Light pinks and vibrant purples danced across the sky in swirls, simulating a pink and purple wind. The clouds shone with bright orange and the white petals of the Cherry Tree stood out against the colors in the sky. The sun shone with a dull yellow, but cast the most enchanting lights on the scene surrounding it.

The walls were a simple beige. Up to Renn's waist in the far sides of the room were the parts of the walls were straight. But beginning at Renn's hip and up was a slanted ceiling, both slants meeting in the middle of the ceiling. In the wall opposite to Renn and Xander was the window seat, the cushion a deep violet, the window clouded with dirt from the outside. On one wall, there was a small loveseat, colored a light green. The room wasn't all the large. A perfect square, about five arm spans for both the width and length. The ceiling though, stretched far above their heads, but the more you moved to the right or left, the lower it was elevated. Old photo books lay strewn across the floor on the left, the couch against the wall on the right. The lighting for the room was supplied by the dirt covered window and a light bulb beside the door. It looked much like a porch light, as the room was a balcony before Renn's parents built the room before she came. The light wasn't all the significant, but a lamp next to the window seat illuminated the room better, and Renn crossed the room, pulling on the rusted chain to light it.

She tucked her hands in her back pockets and stood in the middle of the room, hunching her shoulders as she faced Xander. He was gazing around the room, his eyes lingering on the picture books. On the wall above them were numerous pictures of friends and family from back home attached to the wall by tacks. In the center of all the pictures was a picture of Wade. It wasn't bigger and it wasn't intended to stick out. The picture was merged with the others, but Renn knew it was that picture Xander was focusing on. Renn tried to gain his attention by walking up to him, gripping what she could of his tight shirt in her fists. But he stayed focused on the picture. Surrounding it, were pictures of her and her mother, her and her dad, best friend, and more of her and Wade. Renn tugged on Xander's arms, but his attention was focused on the picture.

Sighing loudly, Renn walked over to the wall. She shrunk down and tore all the pictures of her and Wade from the wall, the total of them coming to only five. Renn shoved them under a picture book on the floor and walked back over to Xander. "It's been a long time since I was in here, Xander.[/b] His gaze lingered on the picture wall, and on the book Renn had shoved the photos under. Renn pulled on his jaw until her eyes met his. "I didn't bring you here to have you ignore me completely, Xander.[/b] With that, Renn pulled Xander's lips down to hers, letting the electricity pour out her body. It wasn't a lingering kiss, but Renn had successfully gained Xander's attention.

She grabbed his hand and led him to the window seat. Renn pushed down on Xander's shoulder's until he was sitting. Then, slipping her hands under his legs, put them up on the seat, her hand moving to the underside of his thigh once he'd situated himself. The window seat was perfect for two people, and Renn slid in next to him. It was a tight squeeze, but she didn't mind being halfway in Xander's lap. He pulled her in close to him with his arm around her shoulders and she scooted as far into his as she could. Renn snuggled her head into his side and soaked up the warmth in his closeness. She directed Xander's hand to her hair and they sat like this for a few silent moments.

But Renn also did not bring him here to be silent. She was the first to talk. "Xander. I need to talk to you about something... For the past days, all I've wanted to do is lose myself to you. I wanted to love you with every part of me since I met you. Then, when the opportunity arose, I didn't take it. And I feel stupid for that. I told you I was scared, and that I was a virgin. All those things are true. But there was something else I hadn't even admitted to myself until I saw you with Maria. I was afraid to have a child. I knew I wanted you to be the father, and I could have never hoped you'd be so good with children. But I didn't know myself that we were ready for one. But the more I think about it... the more I want it. The more I want to have a family with you. Being a woman, these things cross my mind before thinking about... the process. But I was afraid that they hadn't cross your's. That you didn't realize what would have happened if I got pregnant. I just need.. I need you to tell me that you want a child too. That you honest to goodness want to have a family with me."[/b] Renn gazed up at him, trying to read the emotions on his face, and awaited his response.[/size]

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