-- what is it like to be lonely? -- (nightbird)
Jan 10, 2013 13:31:15 GMT -5
Post by willow . on Jan 10, 2013 13:31:15 GMT -5
I'm so used to the snowflakes by now, the way that they fall on my hands and melt into nothin’; sometimes i feel sorry for them. Snowflakes have no life and no chance to live, they are forced through a continues cycle that only resolves in them fading away. Sometimes, I consider life being that way for everyone here in Panem, just a simple drop of icy liquid that slowly falls to the ground in a downwards spiral, as people we are the same, we are nothin’. I wish I knew how to stop the snow; if I did, it wouldn't have to suffer anymore, suffer the pain of becoming’ nothin’ again. Maybe, it would help all of us here, stuck in this icy place, just as much. It would help us remember what freedom has to offer and what it truly is. I just wish that Faith could see it a bit more easily, sometimes I have so much trouble understandin’ her and her 'older sisterly' thoughts and ways.
Even so, I endure the walk back to my house with a stone-cold expression on my face and whippin’ hair revolving around me; flashes of gold illuminate the air and fill it with one piece of something’ bright, somethin’ to cheer me on instead of the never-ending darkness and hopelessness. My feet are drenched in the white fluff and my teeth chatter from the cold; oh how I wish mum didn't make me go out for groceries. Why couldn't have Faith done it, she is, after all, the responsible girl of the house.
I can't understand mother, she's not even my real mum. Father made some mistakes and now me and my sisters are all forced to pay. It's the only thing I share in common with my sisters, other than my red hair.
The food sits at the bottom of my wicker basket, the contents are light but in the cold they weigh my arms down. My bony hands are exposed to the weather, the icy air bitin’ them with a sharp tongue and an evil smile. I’m not afraid of him though, I know that he wouldn’t really hurt me; he hurts other people, not me though. I am a child of the cold; I know what it’s like to be frigid and screamin’ for heat. I survived such an incident as only a child.
Survival was not on my side then, it didn’t matter though. I made it through and showed that the winter can’t claim me.
I’m too precious to be thrown into the hands of death just yet.
(note ; Sorry its so short >.>)
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