between episodes [BROTHER] // blitz.
Jan 6, 2013 3:05:43 GMT -5
Post by ∂αмєη on Jan 6, 2013 3:05:43 GMT -5
Today was one of the rare days that I forgot to take the pill that adjusted my mood suitably. One of perhaps twenty days a year. It was tough to forget when you had two parents that wouldn't let you out of their sight without knowing if you were definitely under control. Did it bother me that my parents kind of treated me in a way that one would treat an animal? Maybe a bit, but I never really let it get to me that much. Only now, as I awoke to an empty house, did I really let it sink in. Everything was out of order in my brain, thoughts being jumbled together almost incomprehensibly. It reminded me of a high, if said high was several times stronger than usual and if it carried on over a significantly longer period.
Which didn't quite settle well with me. I could barely move from my bed without feeling as if everything in the world was just wrong. It's an odd feeling to explain, so I apologize if it's making no sense. Clouds usually fill my mind as the memories fade away. That's the usual feeling for me. And now, without the medication in my system, everything is overly clear. Details that I had previously missed now existed. And who could let that go to waste when it was one of the warmer days of winter? I certainly wouldn't. After spending a few minutes to clean up and look presentable, I headed out the door with a jacket in hand to use the newly found energy and clarity that the medicine usually got rid of. It wasn't long until the main part of town surrounded me and the common hustle and bustle of a warm working day eliminated the silence.
And if anybody that knew me were to walk by, they'd find it odd that I was staring at common objects with such a fascinated expression. Anybody would, really. But in comparison to the bleak sadness that usually consumed my days, this was certainly weird. In many cases, that was even an understatement.