Post by amymayflash on Jan 1, 2013 9:53:17 GMT -5
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I feel my hair tickling the side of my neck, and brush it away quickly. My eyes burn from the tears that threaten to spill from my eyes and roll down my freckled cheeks. I blink them away and stare towards the sun. My life feels that it has no value, it feels that it's purpose is unimportant. I want to end my life at that moment, but I knew that I would regret making that decision as soon as it is made. My lips are dry and cracked, so I lick them to moisten them. A small sigh escapes my mouth as I begin to wander aimlessly around the town square. There are few people around, most of them are peacekeepers. They watch me with weary eyes, but know I probably wouldn't cause any trouble.
I know that I am being watched, I can feel there stares bore into the back of my head. I wince and shake my head slightly, trying to avert the peacekeepers stare. But they keep looking, and I keep walking. The feeling of being watched by white suited people with guns haunts me, it isn't natural. The peacekeepers seem to be like a camera, following my every move then striking when I do something wrong. I have always felt this, but kept my worries to myself.
My parents would just scold me for saying any of this, they would say the peacekeepers are a vital part of our lives and we would be lost without them. Secretly, I disagree with them most strongly. I know in my heart that if they weren't watching us, we would be free.
I notice someone from my school across the square from me and gulped back my sobs. I plastered that haughty, superior look on my face that I have gotten so used to the past years. The person looks at me, smiles and scurries past me. I sneer at them and turn my head away from them. I don't like associating either the wrong kind of people.
I have worked hard to get my status around the district to top level, and by being kind to lower beings does not help keep that status. Sometimes, I feel terrible. But other times, I know that it's right to do. My friends try hard to keep up with me, but I am far too high up for them to be an equal.