ALICE COOPER - D. 9 - FINISHED

There is no such thing as good and bad, everything sits on a peak in between. In everyday life some events shift the balance while the other side fumbles to regain power of the metallic device. The cycle repeats, just like life. Everything exists in a circle, it was made that way and so it shall be. Even I am just a pawn in the game of life, moved by turns in the path. Eventually I fall and do not return to my feet ( I know better).I trust the unseen force that directs me to the ground. Nothing is stronger than what lies ahead, it is all drawn out. Everyone is just a piece, following the directions that they are given unconsciously. They do not fall out of line, they do exactly as they're told and nothing else. Its all just a simple game and we were set up to play it, there can only be one winner though. It will be me, Alice.

I will be the one to win over the hearts of all the people, the little girl who accomplished life. They will look into my misty, brown eyes in wonder and applaud me with roses. I will be the queen that Panem has never had, sitting upon my rose throne with red lips and silvery-blonde hair that drifts just past my shoulders in tight curls. Never will any mere human doubt me again for I will have all power over them, they will listen to me and do as I say. Never will there be any doubt, I will be their protector and they will love me. Peace will reign and I will win.

Until then though I sit in this dark shack, a small roof just barely covering my blonde head, dark circles under my eyes hardly visible in the dim light that the window allows to come through. Dust covers the panes of glass, each image is distorted as one tries to see what is beyond the small peek hole. I Come here when I am tired, when I don't want to be seen by the eyes of others around me. People judge, they see you once and you're suddenly the weird girl, or the 'one who can't talk'. They know so little how much they hurt me, I would never give them the satisfaction of knowing that each world stabs me through the heart. One day they will feel my wrath though, the day that I sit upon my throne and look down at them. They will listen then.

"Kat-i-lyy-nn" It was difficult to speak, almost like a wall that stood in the way of the rest of my voice calling out to the birds and trees. I missed the time when I could laugh and whistle like a normal child, no longer was I so lucky.

The cat eventually came, her silver fur stuck all around her as though the sky pulled it up into the air. She always came when I called, such a good little kitty. She understood me better than anyone in the world, no one else saw the gentle side of me that Katilynn did, she was so special. Like family, she was always there for me when I needed her, never would she abandon me. Even though she lived in the wild, the small cat had proved herself so many times. Her belly round and plump from mice that wandered around the abandoned shed, the animal had such an easy life. No one controlled her as they did I, I was told what to do, where to turn. Kate wasn't, she could do as she pleased. She was wild and free.

My chapped fingers went out to pet her head, the silvery fingernails adorning my small hands grown out to uneven tips. I was never the girl that would bite her nails, a queen does not deserve to have germs infiltrating her mouth. She deserves so much more than this shack, than a small amount of food every night. No, there should be a feast for her, she is royalty, she is the queen.

I sat up, my white dress ruffled and dirty from the un-dusted floor. I walked with unsteady feet and had to catch myself a couple times, anyone from the lower side of the district wouldn't understand why I would want to be here, without shoes in a small abandoned shelter.

The shed was mostly empty, all except for one small cabinet that I kept in the corner. It had come from Faye's room, after she died it was given to me. Why did anyone trust me with such a precious piece of furniture? In any case, I remember dragging it here, sweat dripping down my forehead and plastering my blonde curls to my porcelain face. It was worth it though, everything about it was worth the pain that built up in my arms the next day. It was that day that I placed one of my most prized possessions into the bottom-most drawer, a small letter. It was handwritten by my sister before her demise, she was always so happy. Even though she was two years younger than I, she was so mature and didn't mind that I had difficulties that others didn't have, she never minded any of it. To her, I was just her older sister, she respected me.

Reaching my hand into the drawer, I pulled out the paper and began to read silently.

Alice -
Have you ever thought about your future? I find this to be a very touchy subject as I scarcely bring it to the attention of those around me. I want you to know something though, mum and dad told me to keep a secret from you. I told them I couldn't, I told them that I mustn't but they wouldn't back down on me. Through all of my tears I still obeyed them, even though I knew I was going to regret it more than anything in the later years.

And still I stayed strong as each day I tried to do the monkey bars at school, my heart lurching in my chest as I tried to keep a straight face. It wasn't easy, I would scream sometimes. Remember when mum told you that I was jealous once when you heard me throwing a fit in my room. Well, she lied to you.

Everything is a lie, little do you know but I have a heart problem, mum and dad knew that it would eventually kill me. They said they would make up a story to tell to you, possibly a murder thing. Older sister, I couldn't see you sad when I died, thinking I had been killed at the hand of a ruthless human.

I wrote this instead and as you have probably discovered by now, It has been hidden. It is a sad fact, but when you find this, it will be too late to change a thing. I just wanted you to know the truth. Use it wisely.

I couldn't stand to look at her curved handwriting for a second longer, the back of my eyes burned with tears that threatened to fall. It took a