(There's.Nothing.Worse) (Open)
Apr 15, 2009 13:48:27 GMT -5
Post by Gempol on Apr 15, 2009 13:48:27 GMT -5
Is there anything worse than being alone? I don't think so. I never thought so. The loneliness is a monster in my heart, eating away at my soul. I've never felt like this after I ran away from home. But since the events at the beach I ... I just couldn't bring myself to be strong. I thought I was tough as nails. I'm wrong. I'm just a girl that's alone, away from home.
I blow my nose in an old handkerchief. Hunger is nagging at my stomach. I'm not strong enough to hunt, or even pick some blueberries. I can barely stand up straight. Which is why I've been lying on this blanket for about two days. It's been raining for about a half hour. I don't do anything to cover myself. I let myself become soaked by the raindrops falling from the sky. Maybe they'll wash away all this pain. But deep inside I know it won't.
I'll stay here 'til I die. I'll either die from hunger or from the seizures. They're both about the same. I've determined my fate two days ago when I spread out the blanket, certain I would never get off it. I didn't think my life would end like this. So pitiful. I thought my death would be epic, with a knife in my hand and enemies laying dead at my feet. Those were just dreams. So false .... so false ....
I bend down and let my finger run through the soft sand, making a small crevice in the smooth surface. My finger hits a nice round stone, and I pick it up. It's blue, but not entirely one shade of the hue. It is both light and dark blue, a strange combination. I toss it around a bit in my hand before slipping it into my pocket. Something to remind me I was here.
I take out a stone from my pocket. It was strange; both light and dark blue. I got it minutes before I met Sam. Minutes before my first spazout in years. I want to throw it out, to send it flying into the forest. To forget what happened. I sigh.
Go to sleep.
I don't try to fight the voice. It has total control over me now. I'm closing my eyes, saying my goodbyes to the world and to my family. The monster inside me is taking it's last bite ...
Good bye.
Words - 398
OOC: So emo :P
I blow my nose in an old handkerchief. Hunger is nagging at my stomach. I'm not strong enough to hunt, or even pick some blueberries. I can barely stand up straight. Which is why I've been lying on this blanket for about two days. It's been raining for about a half hour. I don't do anything to cover myself. I let myself become soaked by the raindrops falling from the sky. Maybe they'll wash away all this pain. But deep inside I know it won't.
I'll stay here 'til I die. I'll either die from hunger or from the seizures. They're both about the same. I've determined my fate two days ago when I spread out the blanket, certain I would never get off it. I didn't think my life would end like this. So pitiful. I thought my death would be epic, with a knife in my hand and enemies laying dead at my feet. Those were just dreams. So false .... so false ....
I bend down and let my finger run through the soft sand, making a small crevice in the smooth surface. My finger hits a nice round stone, and I pick it up. It's blue, but not entirely one shade of the hue. It is both light and dark blue, a strange combination. I toss it around a bit in my hand before slipping it into my pocket. Something to remind me I was here.
I take out a stone from my pocket. It was strange; both light and dark blue. I got it minutes before I met Sam. Minutes before my first spazout in years. I want to throw it out, to send it flying into the forest. To forget what happened. I sigh.
I don't try to fight the voice. It has total control over me now. I'm closing my eyes, saying my goodbyes to the world and to my family. The monster inside me is taking it's last bite ...
Good bye.
Words - 398
OOC: So emo :P