the bones you gave me :: {lalia!}
Feb 11, 2013 0:10:16 GMT -5
Post by meg. on Feb 11, 2013 0:10:16 GMT -5
[/center][/color][/font]the corridors stretch on.
I: Synovium
[/right] [/color][/font] You are used to the metal fingers that circle your spineThe woolen blankets that itch like some cheeky devil
You bring a sheet from home
Because you are used to this.
You are well aquianted with
Empty corridors;
Clacking heels;
Linoem;
The stench of disinfectant;
The nagging feeling that you will not be the first to die on this bed.
Not that you are planning on dying,
But a little part of you makes a quiet suggestion.
‘You might.’
There is metal in your body
A rod in your elbow to stop you from moving it.
‘Synovium’ and its associated damage has become part of your daily vocabulary
and your happy it’s that and not another,
simply because you like the word.
It slips off your tongue,
The ‘v’ sounding almost hopeful
And it starts with ‘sin’
Which is quite apt
Because it certainly isn’t doing you any good.
You spend your days trying to write cross word clues with your
trying to understand physics theories that are far above your head
naming main cities in each district.
Occasionally, you make up your own stories,
But you can never read them.
There is something about this room,
Which has become a second house
That locks you in.
From here, you cannot journey into your imagination,
Into the worlds which other have created.
That quiet part of your mind comes to life at night,
With thoughts such as ‘this world was created by others,’
And ‘if I could read the book of my life, where would I start reading?’
When the real question,
The question no one wants to ask,
Is when will it stop?
Fluroescent lighting turns shadows into monsters but also into your friends,
Two things you tell yourself you are too old for,
But believe in regardless.
But the daylight stretches time like bubblegum,
Chewed for so long that it had lost its flavor
And each bite upon it feels like a snap.
But the daylight makes your mind into a desert
A land in which a drought has made the river try up.
The sterile air makes the corners of your eyes feel like claws,
And stuffs a fist into the back of your throat.
But the daylight rolls on, in a breath so long,
You’d like to see the size of its lungs.
You thought that winter days were supposed to be short,
You never knew they could extend forever.
Appendix I: Credits
[/right][/color][/font]Idea from Katrina Vandenberg’s wonderful Atlas
Synovial membrane: a thin membrane in synovial (freely moving) joints that lines the joint capsule and secretes synovial fluid.
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