this is it, boys, this is {war} :: streetrats
Jan 2, 2013 23:33:54 GMT -5
Post by Deleted on Jan 2, 2013 23:33:54 GMT -5
i wrote the gospel on giving up, you look pretty sinking
but the real bombshells have already sunk, prima donnas of the gutter
at night we're painting your trash gold while you sleep
crashing not like hips or cars, no, more like parties
this ain't a scene, it's a goddamn arms raceColt sleeps more soundly now that I've been pulled back from the edge of oblivion. I watch him as the hours pass in the sputtering candlelight, oddly fascinated by the way his dreams play out over his face, either in sleepy smiles or the creasing of his brow in the wake of nightmares. Winter will soon have One in a vice grip; I knew that as soon as I woke up two days ago to find a thin dusting of snow along the windowsill. A million childhood memories of freezing nights under threadbare blankets aren't so distant now, not after I've been spoiled by the advanced heating systems of Thirteen and the constant warmth of Colt nestled beside me under the sheets. It's going to be cold in this house soon, not just uncomfortably cold but dangerously cold, as my eighteen years of bronchitis and occasional bouts of pneumonia will evidence.
It might be that we end up moving in with my aunt and uncle, although that's a prospect that makes the never-far insanity come rushing to the forefront of my mind. I hate the idea of being trapped under the same roof where Kiera laughed and loved and lived, the idea of her ghost haunting me with every breath in those hallowed halls. But those halls are warm, and the roof doesn't leak, and now that Moira's moved out there's a room open - I would take freezing to death over having to stay in Kiera's room. A death from cold would be far less cruel than a death from guilt. I make a silent note to talk to Uncle Ambrose about it when I have time. Tonight, there are greater plans at work.
I shiver as my bare feet make contact with the cold, worn hardwood, feeling around in the half dark until my hand closes around one of the sweaters tossed carelessly on the floor in favor of better activities. It's Colt's shirt, but it doesn't really matter. It's warm, baggy in a cozy sort of way from where it's been stretched out over a stockier frame than my own, and it smells like him, like sunshine and soap and home. I chance another glance over at him, still out cold (the boy could sleep through the damn apocalypse, but for once that's a good thing) with his arm curling around a pillow where my waist should be. Something stupid and nameless about that makes a soft smile settle on my lips before I turn away, grubbing for my own jeans because Ripred knows those are one garment I can't borrow from anyone, too long-legged and whippet-hipped for normal clothes. My watch reads two in the morning as I finally slip out of the bedroom, but after two steps down the hall I think better of it, rushing back inside for something I never should have forgotten. Colt stirs when my lips press against his forehead, but he doesn't wake up. Good. He's seen enough of the darker parts of me without following me down the road I take tonight.
Downstairs is even colder, to the point that my teeth are chattering by the time I manage to scramble into socks and boots and an old leather jacket that I picked up at some thrift store forever ago. I reach for the front door after that, but stop when Colt's invisible nagging at the back of my mind tells me to bundle up for god's sake before I get sick. Snorting but still managing to grin (I'm still not used to living in a world where anyone cares about me), I grab a scarf out of the closet and wind it around my neck as I duck out into the crystalline night. Dawn will come to a pearly-white District One. Children in the rich side of town will pile on their down jackets and go shrieking down the hills on their brand-new sleds, but the kids on these streets will be in threadbare clothes and flying over the slopes on cut-up old trash bags. They'll all make the same snowmen, but ours will be a little dirtier. For now, though, it's a pretty silence the falling snow looking like something off a rundown Ratmas card as it descends to paint the slums into something a little more magical. I grab a broom off the front porch to sweep away my tracks until I get to the road, tossing it back when I'm done. In these night-shadows I am a ghost. To the eyes of most, I don't even exist. And that's a good thing. There's something fearsome about the idea of an army led by a vengeful phantom.
Ella promised me they would come. I had questioned her sanity at first, asking what she thought having a known psychopath would do for her recruiting effort, but I had stopped in the wake of the look she gave me. It's your family they're after, Kaelen. It's the people you love. You've got more to fight for than anyone else here, and you're smart enough to lead us. Plus, they're all scared shitless of you. Fear is a powerful motivator. I don't look like something to be feared, though, not tonight. All I look like is a skinny streetrat in a worn-out jacket slogging his way through the snow, six foot six of spindly limbs that scream of childhood malnourishment. Ella promised me they would come. Tonight, I address my own. Tonight, I start to build our army.
It's war. It's been war ever since Elspeth Moreno thought it was a good idea to try to kill Ella in her sleep, but it became war for me when one of the rest of that ilk tried to beat Aurora to death in some alley on her way home from the rink. There's no bloodless solution now - and I can't really complain. Anyone who's seen the wanted posters can vouch that I have my own acquired taste for death and carnage. It was Ella's idea to fight, but it was my idea to organize. The Morenos operate like a military machine, I reasoned, so why shouldn't we? A few guttersnipes creating a rabble was formidable enough. But a whole army moving in force? Unstoppable.
Ella promised me they would come, and they did, a ragtag band waiting for me down the alley behind one of the scuzziest dive bars in the district. My nose wrinkles up distastefully at the putrid tang of whiskey on the air, but this is a good place to meet, off the beaten path and easy to escape from should the worst happen. My hands stinging from the cold even inside my pockets, I fumble for a cigarette and let the pseudo warmth scrape rich and rough through my lungs as I draw close enough to address the group. "Hello, gentlemen, ladies, whatever genders by which you may prefer to be addressed. I presume Ella didn't tell you who you'd be meeting here tonight; otherwise none of you would be here. Anyone who wishes to run away in terror is free to do so, but go only with the knowledge that if you alert the authorities to my returned presence, I will find you."
Silence. No one makes a move to leave. I smile, relieved to feel that it's one of the predatory, unsettling shark grins that used to be the norm before Colt that stretches across my lips. It's good to know that after everything, an outright threat from Kaelen Dempsey can still inspire fear. Ella had it right - fear is a powerful motivator, and sometimes it takes fear to make the masses hear you. Taking another nonchalant drag off the paper cylinder between my swiftly numbing fingers, I give them all a few more seconds of tense quiet before I step up on the ruins of an old wooden crate in order to see them all - I'm taller than the lot of them, but there's something about towering on my pseudo-soapbox that makes me feel like I'm commanding more attention. Fear will only get you so far in winning people to your cause. After you get their attention, you have to get the rest of them.
"I don't know some of you. But most of you, I do know," I start, carefully placing my words and inflections, wishing that I'd had the sense to actually write all of this rally-your-banners bullshit down. "Some of you I went to school with. Some of you I played with on these very streets as children. Some of you spat at the mention of my name after it came to light that people you loved died horrible, painful deaths at my hand. Many of you know my cousins, knew Kiera, knew her for the intelligent, insightful, selfless person she was. But there's something we all have in common here tonight. We all really fucking hate the Morenos."
A few laugh nervously, a few more mutter assent. Even more stay silent. The inside of my mind is an all-out panic, screeching that my charisma can only get me so far when I've become the monster that parents tell their children about to keep them inside after dark. It's your family they're after, Kaelen. It's the people you love. You've got more to fight for than anyone else here,
"I'm not asking you to like me." the quiet is a different sort now, something that speaks of the masses held in thrall. I've won their attention, and judging by the nods bobbing from some in the throng, I've begun to win something else. "I'm not asking you to respect me, or forgive me, or think that I'm a good person. I'm asking you to follow me and to fight for me. Fight for Ella and Kiera and all the people that high-born troglodytes like the Morenos think are less than them. Fight for the people you can save if we put an end to this soon. And fight for your lives, boys and girls. Because they're over if you don't."
I don't know what I expect, shouts of approval and thunderous applause and calls to arms. What I get is silence, although I can no longer tell what kind it is. The cigarette hisses beneath the heel of my boot as I grind it out in the snow. "Any questions?"[/blockquote]
bandwagon's full, please catch another
i'm a leading man, and the lies i weave are oh so intricate
all the boys who the dance floor didn't love
and all the girls whose lips couldn't move fast enough
sing until your lungs give out
[/color][/size][/blockquote][/justify]i'm a leading man, and the lies i weave are oh so intricate
all the boys who the dance floor didn't love
and all the girls whose lips couldn't move fast enough
sing until your lungs give out