~I~ {Am} ~Human~ // [Kaelen]
Feb 25, 2013 22:34:44 GMT -5
Post by Ally is tentatively back on Feb 25, 2013 22:34:44 GMT -5
[bg=1A191C][atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=width,520,true][atrb=style,width: 520px;] Bean / Julian |
[bg=424242][atrb=border,0,true][atrb=cellSpacing,0,true][atrb=cellPadding,0,true][atrb=width,520,true][atrb=style,width: 520px; padding: 10px; border:10px solid #1A191C;] With a thousand lies, And a good disguise. Hit 'em right between the eyes. Hit 'em right between the eyes. I think, sometimes, that it's a little strange that I connect better with machines than people. I stubbornly hold on to my theory that the human mind is just a machine- I know the workings of my own too well to believe otherwise -but the human heart, human soul (Assuming those exist) is a mystery I don't try to puzzle out. Cogs and gears and levers and circuitry, that's where I'm at home, relaxed. I go through the motions almost unthinkingly, stripping wires and tightening screws and grabbing spare parts from their unorganized piles, flying about the room that's become a workshop of sorts. I even glance at my plans, sometimes, even though I've already memorized them. (I'm decently sure I'm not seeing them, anyway.) The last vestiges of a nightmare are clinging like cobwebs, gumming up the metaphorical cogs in my brain and making it hard to think and don't think about it it isn't real if you don't think about it and I have to move and I can't run away from my problems but making new, helpful devices out of wreckage is enough to convince me that the cobwebs'll clear, like they always do eventually. Some bundle of plastic and metal that might've once been a radio swings down from the ceiling, almost hitting me in the face. "Shit!" I half-shout, ducking and throwing my arms up over my head. I make a clumsy grab for it, stopping the momentum it's gathered up. I give the gadget a closer look, mystified. "The fuck is this one?" I huff, glaring at it. Annoyed now, I stop over to a table and start taking the damn thing apart. I try to ignore my own relief at having a definite project. The thing's clearly meant to be an alarm of some sort, which means it's not completely useless, so I get to putting it back together, making sure the speakers work (They do, holy shit, I almost went deaf in my left ear) and trying to figure out how to get it to be effective... Maybe a pressure plate? In case of intruders? It's not too big that it couldn't be buried... If we found a place where someone would have to step on the plate to get in... The idea has possibilities, so I skirt the dangling wire to get over to the table where I think I saw either a pressure plate or something I could convert into one, if I could just find it among the assorted wires and other mechanical bits... Aha! I grant myself a satisfied grin and rush back over to the other table (Is it actually a pressure plate? Yeah, I think so...) to figure out how to get the damn thing attached. There're footsteps on the stairs, making them shriek, because it's really damn old wood and it can't even handle the weight of an alley cat without protesting, but it only makes that kind of noise when there's a person. I don't bother to turn around, just continue with my tinkering. "I'm in the middle of something, you might wanna come back later." I mutter, just loud enough to be heard over the almost non-existent sounds of gears whirring and clicking. The sound stops, but only when I hear the clunk! of shoes on the floor, so I huff exasperatedly and say, louder this time, "Look, I'm not much for conversation at the moment, so just come back in a couple hours." I strip a couple wires and get them connected, clamping my teeth down on the tip of my tongue in concentration. I expect to hear the stairs again, so when I don't I just grumble internally about stubborn assholes not leaving me in peace, but don't say anything until I've got the wires all connected and functioning. "I'm not fucking kidding, so seriou-" I turn around, blink, and cut myself off. "Oh." Because my effective boss is standing at the foot of the stairs with his arms crossed and one eyebrow raised. "Dempsey." I mumble, shell-shocked. Of fucking course. I just have all the luck. "Uh, one sec, let me finish up here-" I rush over to the table to the left of the stairwell, resolving to ignore the fact that I might have just pissed off a serial killer and grabbing some more useful-looking equipment, and then heading over to a table on the right side of the room, shoving some wires at Dempsey and saying "Hold these real quick? Thanks." as I gather up the rest of the parts I might conceivably need and bring them back to the table I was working at. I put my back against the table's edge, trying not to squirm under Dempsey's look. "What can I help you with, Boss?" I ask with my cheekiest smile. And as much as I don't understand my own emotions any better than I understand other people's, I can feel a cold dread settling at the bottom of my stomach, because enjoying someone's wit does not make you immune to being afraid of them, not at all, and I've always known I'm a coward, so I'm briefly afraid that I'm about to be killed in some gruesome way, and I don't want those to be my last words but I can't say anything else. Logically I know that he can't afford to kill me, can't afford to lose my skill set, can't afford to lose any soldiers for his cause. But while the human mind may be a machine, a human is not just a mind. When you walk away, Nothin' more to say. See the lightning in your eyes. See 'em runnin' for their lives. |