S t o p & S t a r e //(Axel)

I stared out the window at the stars that once upon a time I would wish upon for my dreams to come true. I no longer needed to do that anymore though, all of my wishes and dreams had come true. I had the most beautiful girl in the district as my girlfriend, I had found happiness with her, the world was no longer so dark. Now when I looked out on the stars I didn't see them surrounded by a bleak dark world, I saw a world of light and happiness. I needed to be closer to the things that had granted me my wishes. My small hand reached out the window into the night sky and closed around the largest star in the sky, and I imagined myself pulling it down to hold close to my heart. When I looked back up into the sky I no longer saw that star that I had "pulled" down to my heart, in it's place were multiple much smaller stars. It was as if my hand had broken that larger star into many smaller ones, and maybe I had pulled a little piece of it down to my heart.

I felt a smile play along my lips as I thought of Stirling, and the next time that I would see her. Maybe...maybe I could sneak out and visit her tonight like in all those stories when one of the lovers would sneak out and visit the other. That sounded like a beautiful idea, and I loved doing what the people in my books did, they hadn't failed me yet, plus I loved the blush that rose to Stirling's cheeks when I did them. Jumping up from the floor I was laying on I walked a few paces forward to the window and swung one of my legs outside, and than the other. Once I got outside I was met by a blast of cool air that blew through my thin frame. A shiver ran up my spine, and I felt goosebumps rise up on my skin. Maybe I didn't put enough thought into this, a jacket would have been the intelligent thing to bring.

To late now though, even though the window was open it made more noise to enter rather than exit. Instead I walked along the thin trail that was behind our shack house towards the street. It was so dark and silent right now, only the whistle of the wind and the crash of the waves against the rocks. A soothing setting, one that would probably have put me to sleep if I hadn't had such a rush of adrenaline pumping through me. I skipped along the streets in a state of pure happiness, nothing could take me down now. As long as I had Stirling I was safe from everything, no one could hurt me, her arms would always be around me, and her voice would always soothe me. While I walked along the street I picked out all the places that I had been abused at, both physically and mentally, and I wondered if that part truly had come to an end. The only way to know was with time, time spent with the one Iove.

So caught up was I in my daydreams, or nightdreams rather, that I didn't even realize I wasn't alone on this darkened street. I kept walking forward until I bumped into someone or something, and upon hearing agrunt from it I realized it was a human being. Instantly I fell to the ground and curled up covering my face with my hands. "Please don't hurt me, please don't hurt me, I didn't mean to run into you or anything. If you hurt me Stirling will find you and hurt you back so please don't hurt me." So much for being happy all the time, apparently it would take more time than I thought for me to adjust to my new life. Moving one finger out of the way I looked upon the person that I had run into. It was a boy, obviously, one that I didn't recognize, and he was carrying around a pad.

The sun rising behind him gave him an unearthly glow and I couldn't help but let out a little squeel of fright. What had I gotten myself into now, how come every time I tried to go our and wander in happiness I instead wound up in some sort of trouble. Instead of rising from the ground I curled up even more wanting to make sure that if he was going to start beating up on me that he would have a hard time hitting anywhere of importance. I wasn't going to give him the satisfaction of being probably the 100th person to break my nose in the last year. Silently I dared him to come and beat me up now, he'd see what happened later if he tried.