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☀ summertime sadness; {axel} Apr 11, 2013 21:28:43 GMT -5

Post by Logan on Apr 11, 2013 21:28:43 GMT -5

SAGE MONSOON

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There's no remedy for memory your face is
Like a melody, it won't leave my head
Your soul is haunting me and telling me
That everything is fine
But I wish I was dead
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Another depressing day.

[/i] The sky was the darkest of grey that I have seen in a very long time. It hasn't been this dark since that stormy day on the beach, where my life was turn upside down. I don't want to think about the negatives times though, I just need to look forward to the positive. Positive, being the library. God, how much I love that little building in the middle of the district square. The tiny crooked sign that has the faded out letters of "library", the fresh smell you get when you walk by shelf after shelf of books. All the books are perfectly woven together, page by page. A new mystery to be discovered in each one of them. I want them all, but there's one big problem with that. You see, I need this little card that grants me access to all the books, but this card costs something that I haven't had for a long time. Money. I'm not the type of boy to go onto the streets and beg for money, like I see others do. No no no, I want to earn it, like any mature adult would. However, do you see anywhere that hires greasy-looking boys who live, pretty much, on the streets? No. I have different ways of getting the books I want, though. I don't like doing it the way that I do, but it's the only way I can keep my love for books alive, though.

What am I doing, again? My eyes gleam at the library that lies right across the street. It feels like it got smaller since I was a little, maybe that was because I thought everything was big at that age. The white paint on the outside was chipping off, but that's expected to happen to such an old building, right? The street complimented the building with it's dark charcoal color. Now, if I could just cross the street without getting wet from all the puddles. There was a good amount of rain yesterday, and I just hated it. Had to stay inside the whole day, without even going to the library to get a book to entertain myself. Eventually, though, I made it across the street without a single drop of water touching my raggedy clothes. Caterina was telling me about how there was a new shipping of books from the Capitol, and that I should check them out for her. Of course, I'd take any chance to go to the library. These new books were supposed to be many different love stories, ranging from many different genres. I've never been the type to get into all the love and mushy books like that, but it won't hurt to check them out, right? I know Caterina just loves stories like that, and anthing that will make her happy will make me happy.

What do I choose? I peeked my little head into the library to discover a little surprise. The main librarian was setting up a shelf just for the new love books that have came in. There were so many of them, I couldn't even count them. I definitely saw the prices of them, though, and I cringed inside at the sight of them. If Caterina wanted one, we would have to either earn up the money to buy one, or steal it. I didn't usually steal books from the library, because I really dislike doing bad things, but it was the only way. The door creaked as I pushed it open to stroll into the library. That fresh smell was still there, and it was completely empty. Just how I like it. The lady stacking the books didn't really notice me as I crept into there and glimpsed at the new stock of books. So many interesting titles of books, I didn't know where to start. There was one that really caught my eye though, especially the title. Now, I expected the basic love stories with the "happily ever after" aspect, but this book was different. Just the title made it seem gruesome. The book itself was titled "The Fixed Marriage", and I wanted to skim through it to get a good feel for it.

What is this about? After about five minutes of waiting in the background, the lady finished putting all the books on the shelves. My level of excitement was so high to see what this story was about. I slow tip-toed towards the shelf that had the book on it, and snatched it in silence. The cover itself was an eye-catcher. It pictured a man and a woman, in some sort of time line that I didn't even know. The backdrop was a classic stone wall, and they were both dressed in very interesting clothing. Maybe it's about a Capitol couple?[/i] The thought of it being of that put a bad taste in my mouth, but ma always told me "don't judge a book by its cover". I sat down in a nice, comfortable corner where I usually sat to read, and opened up the book. It had a short little epilogue, which pretty much explained that all marriages aren't about true love, but about more evil things. It also said something about the "medieval times", which was something not even I have recalled. This book is already on the top of my reading list just because of that. Still, this book is supposed to be for Caterina, so maybe I'll read it after she gets to get a nice feel for it. The rest of the books seems a little distasteful, but I grabbed a bright pink one titled "Princess Fairytale" for Lily to read.

Be careful, don't let anyone see. Now it's the tricky part, trying to get these books out of here without paying. The lady still hasn't noticed me, so maybe I can just go outside without her even noticing me coming in to begin with. Both of the books fit perfectly inside of my satchel, so I slipped them right into it. My eyes scanned the room to see if the coast was clear. The librarian was checking someone out, so now was my time to sneak out. With as much stealth and silence as I could, I stepped between row after row of shelves to avoid being seen by someone. So far, so good. Just as I was about to reach the door, it swung open, revealing many men in white uniforms. There was only one answer to who they are, and that's peacekeepers.[/i] I didn't want to face the same punishment I did last time I stole a book, so I waited silently behind the closest shelf for them to file in. I even counted how many there were. One, Two, Three, Four... Only four? Not that scary. Just as the door was going to slam shut, I managed to squeeze my way through the little opening before it closed. The rush of adrenaline I get each time I steal something is just too much to describe. Today's events went by so fast, and I just knew I had to take note of them in my journal. So, casually, I took out a simple pencil and my tiny, velvet colored journal, and found a nice spot right outside the library to sit down and start writing about all the things that happened.[/size][/left][/blockquote][/blockquote]

JOURNAL ENTRY...

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April 11

Today started off with a dark grey sky, and the feeling of depression in the air. Everything took a turn for the best though, because of the Library. A new stock of books came in for me to pick though, and I picked two winners out of the stock. One for my little sister, Lily, which is titled "Princess Fairytale", and another book for me and Caterina to share, called "The Fixed Wedding". I'm really excited to read this book, because it seems like a nice plot twist to the basic love story of a book. Overall, it has been a good start to the day, and I hope it continues on.

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SAGE...

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What do I do now? So much has happened in so little time, and there's still the whole day ahead! The only thing I could think of doing is starting on the book I gracefully stole from the library. That sounds like a good idea, right? After crossing the street once more, I ended up in the same spot I started at. Now it was just time for me to sit back, relax, and get lost in this book. I found a comfy little spot at the ending of a wall that turned into a corner to sit down in. The district square wasn't really busy, so it was quiet enough to read. My hands reached into the satchet to grab onto the book, and even the feeling of the book gave me chills. I took out the book, opened it up, and started to get lost in the wonderful world that is... reading.

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My first actual rp post in six months! It feels so good to shake off all the rust and get back into the game. Thanks for giving me this opportunity, Axel! <3

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☀ summertime sadness; {axel} Apr 12, 2013 20:31:01 GMT -5

Post by Anna Banana on Apr 12, 2013 20:31:01 GMT -5

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Riley Everfield
The pain of my body isn't as great as the pain of my heart

What more was there to say right now, I needed to escape from my family, from the constant abuse and suffering. Since my parents and Ashton's parents had set up our marriage things had been tense for me, even more than usual. I had to sit and listen quietly while my parents told me everything that they expected of me, everything that they expected of the marriage, how our child would create a legacy for my family, the Everfield family. It was all so much to swallow, for a sixteen year old girl to be told that so much rested on her shoulders, that she was expected to give her parents a child to be proud of. How could I give them what they wanted when I didn't even love the boy that I was being forced to marry? How could I give them anything when I was no better than a failure, I wasn't a fighter or even someone who could tend to a house.

My child was bound to inherit some of those qualities, if not all of them, and all I could do was promise myself that should I ever have a baby that I wouldn't treat them as my parents treated me. I would never raise my voice with the child or hurt them, I would love them more than anyone or anything. This was how todays conversation went, me trying to explain to my parents that it was to much for me to handle right now, that I wasn't ready for my marriage. I wanted to learn more about Ashton before I married him, so I would have a chance decide if I had any feelings at all for him. They on the other hand told me I had no choice in this, that it had already been decided for me, I would be marrying Ashton whether I wanted to or not.

As a result I had run into my room crying, until eventually I decided I needed to leave the house entirely, that I needed to get as far away from my parents as possible. Although the district was only so large I knew exactly where I could go, somewhere that my parents never went...the library. Quietly I opened the door and looked out to make sure my parents weren't watching, and I slipped my room and down the hall. Carefully I turned the knob of the front door and walked out into the fresh salt air of District 4. Breathing in deeply I closed my eyes and smiled, this was about as close to freedom as I ever got, for the shackles that bound me to this house and my parents were long and powerful. This would be my taste of freedom before it was really taken away, and my shackles were transfered from my parents to Ashton.

I walked down the street clinging to the shadows unsure that if anyone saw me they wouldn't go to my parents. No, I would play it safe, play the part of someone on the run just so I could enjoy my freedom. It was a slow and painstaking process making my way to the library, but when I finally reached the building that may as well have been my second home I couldn't help but let a small smile form on my face. So much knowledge and literary masterpieces open for the whole of District 4 to enjoy, a whole new world locked away forever in the pages of a book. They were bound also, prisoners of the cover and back of the book, they understood what I felt. Whenever I opened a book I was letting those words and stories free, only to have the cover gently fall back on the pages, locking that world away until someone opened it up again.

I opened the door to the library and stepped in, looking at all the books, the librarian milling around from shelf to shelf organzing all of those masterpieces...a boy, a young boy. He was looking through the books, opening them and than shutting them until he seemed to find one or two that suited his fancy. Instead of taking them to the librarian though he slid them into the bag that he had hanging off of his shoulder. Taking a sharp breath I watched him with more interest, he was going to steal the books...my heart told me that I needed I needed to stop him, but I wanted to see what he would do...if he would do the right thing. He didn't though, I watched as he looked around seeing if anyone had noticed his actions, and satisfied that he had gone unseen began walking towards the door. Just when it appeared as if he would make his escape four Peacekeepers stepped into the library, and I saw a momentary flash of panic before he slowly made his way out the door.

I looked from the books around me to the door and came to a decision...I needed to get those books back from the boy and return them. If he was ever found to be in possession of stolen property he would be made an example of, whipped or even worse, and I couldn't let that happen to him. Walking quickly out the door I scanned the street until I found him slumped againt a wall, hidden so he was barely noticeable to anyone who could pass by. I made my way across the street and slowed down so I wouldn't scare him; than I cleared my throat and sat down next to him. "You shouldn't have stolen the book you know, those Peacekeepers will notice that the books available don't match up with their records. Don't you know how dangerous it is, come on we need to return them before you get hurt or something."

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