wishing on stars that aren't there {anymore}//open
Oct 20, 2013 20:25:00 GMT -5
Post by Knuckles on Oct 20, 2013 20:25:00 GMT -5
[/I][/color] I shake my head slightly trying to block it away. Never make a promise you can't keep. "But Mama, I wanna go with you. Please? Please? Please?" I can feel the tears forming in my eyes as I stare past the waves. Pain surges through my veins rapidly. I miss you Mama and Papa. I miss you.
Stupid, Stupid Stallion. I'm not the best person to give advice, but I'm trying to help a girl in need. I'm trying to help her because, well, I don't know why. I just want to help her. Maybe I should stop helping people. It never seems to do any good. I'm always messing things up. I should just stop trying. I stare into the ocean watching the waves crash down upon the beach below me. I take a deep breath. "Mama, I wanna go with you and Papa. I wanna go with y'all. Please, can I go with y'all?" Tears rolled down my face as I begged my mama. I wanted to go with her and papa on their trip. "No, you can't go with us. We have someone set up to watch you. We'll be back before you know it. I promise."
"Stallion, we'll return as soon as we can. It's only for a couple hours. You need to stay home." I let them go off. I didn't try to stop them because I was six. I just let them go. If I went, would they still be here? I shake my head. The pain is almost impossible to bear, and I'll never know the answer to that question. I could be dead with them. I could be dead with them. I look at the waves. Each wave is different than the one before it. It's all different. Each time a wave forms a different size is made. A different pattern of the water that makes each wave a challenge. A challenge I enjoy.
"I wanna go with you. I wanna go. I wanna go. Please let me go." The voice of my six year old self echoes through my head. Tears run down my face dripping on the pier beside me. "You can't go with us. I'm not changing my mind. That's that! You're not going. I'm sorry, but it's dangerous. Okay? You're not going to stop." I sit in the same place I sit eleven years ago when they left. I watched them leave without saying a word. Mama and Papa just got in their tiny boat and left. Did they know it would be the last time they saw me? Did they know they were going to die? I raise a shaky hand to wipe away the tears. "So, you surf, huh?" A silent voice breaks through my thoughts. I turn to the direction of the voice. I forgot she was here.
I turn my gaze back to the waves as my parents faces flashes before my eyes. Please be out there. Please keep your promise and come home to me. Please. I look back towards Xara. "Yeah. I surg. It's really fun. It's one of the best ways for me to pass time." I force the smile to grow back on my face. I look off to the side because I don't want her to know I'm staring at her. I just want her to know she has my attention. "We'll be back before too long. I promise." I shake my head slightly as I lower my gaze. "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." I place my head on my knees as I sob silently.
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ooc: It's short, but here it is :3 I'll try to keep up now.