.:Alternate Consciousness:. {Ele/Rook}
May 29, 2013 11:17:43 GMT -5
Post by rook on May 29, 2013 11:17:43 GMT -5
RENE RALLIS
the night's playing up, again
and someone's there
the room is getting colder now
the light swings again and i'm scared
'cause someone's there
[/i][/right]and someone's there
the room is getting colder now
the light swings again and i'm scared
'cause someone's there
"Do you believe in fate, Rene?"
"No... We always have a choice..."
Of course there are infinite possibilities within infinite worlds. Every decision we make creates an alternate universe that snowballs into a different outcome. Coin flips, split decisions, words thought but not said... The world pivots around these moments. The moments are what I live for, and I see them all crystal clear. Rips in reality, gaps in my head, dreams unexplained... They are all doorways into other dimensions. Sometimes they are incredibly similar to the reality I live in, but other times they are so very different that I begin to get lost. Then, of course, there are the other worlds. The land of the dead, the world of souls...[/i] Places of spirit and afterlife. Those worlds are not parallels but destinations. Destinations are very much reachable. Of course you also get worlds within worlds. The Capitol is a world away from the shit hole that is District Eight, and it is linear, not parallel. There are universes without the Capitol or its corruption, but I have the misfortune to be born in the world where there is a government hell bent on control.
I look for a window now, as I wake from a hazy dream. My dream was one of the past, not of an alternate pathway. I dreamed of Elena, I dreamed of the derelict building she found me in and the decay that I had become. I wanted to be one with that building. I wanted to die and rust and turn into rubble... But she saved me. Why did she save me? I wonder about the alternate universe where she didn't save me. The universes where Elena was never born, or where she never went in that direction, or where Elena simply decided to leave me there... I’d be dead. I’d be part of a destination, an afterlife. Wouldn't I? I walk to the milky glass of my bedroom window and stare out at all the gray. My hand trails to my stomach, which is tied in knots and feels like someone has driven a sledgehammer into it. What did I do last night? Images of alcohol flash across my brain. I honestly don’t know how I feel about being saved that day.
I stand shirtless, my baggy pajamas hang off my thin frame and just touch the dusty floorboards of my room. I stare into the cracked, dirt mirror at my reflection. The creature that stares back at me is not as attractive as he once was. His eyes are rings of red and purple, saggy and tired. He turns around to get a view of his back, scarred, twisted and deformed. The grotesque zigzags are reminders of worse times. I sigh, staring at the white, fleshy scars that draw a story of madness across my body. What is he? He is me, and I am him... And there ain’t a thing I can do about it. If only there was a window to escape into, a world where none of this had ever happened and I was just a simple boy living in Eight. You'd like that, wouldn't you? Would you like an easy escape? Life doesn't work that way.
I step into some rough, denim jeans on and pull a striped tee over my head. I find some tattered trainers and grunt as I find they are too small for my growing feet. I tug my knife from the wall – It still juts out from where I threw it at the old wooden panels the night before. Stupid thing. I slip the old dagger into the makeshift leather sheath around my waist and make my way downstairs. What time is it? I suppose the time is somewhere near noon, so my father is out working. I take a stale bun from the wicker basket on our table and head outside.
The day is past its peak, just like the stale bun that I am begrudgingly munching on. I can tell it was sunnier earlier because of the fruit and vegetable vendors at market. It must have been brighter for them to take their stools outside, only for it to rain on them as the day stretched on. In another universe, it didn’t rain. In another universe they are still selling vegetables. Unfortunately I am taking the downpour of this reality. I half-jog through town, undecided on where my destination is. I take a left down an alleyway that isn’t too different to where Elena found me, searching for something to do.
I make sure no one is looking before I take my dagger out of its sheath. I search for a point, a hole in reality. This is the tricky part, see. I find a patch of air that feels heavier and balance my knife gently on the point, closing my eyes and going into an almost hypnotic state. I enter the new world inside my head, seeing all the different eventualities. In this world I took a right down market road and ran into an even heavier downpour. I took refuge in the library.
I read a book. I learned something. I met someone.
I blink out of the alternate universe and find myself still in the alleyway. Having woken from my daydream I decide that the library is a good place to go. I could learn something, or meet someone.
"It’s as good as anything..." I mutter, sheathing my knife and going back to the main street, taking a right towards the library. I'm not caught in a downpour as predicted, but it is rather blustery. The winds blow my dirty hair, making my eyes water. I charge up the stairs and push through the large oak doors and into the library. Now that universe becomes this universe. [/size][/blockquote][/color]
trapped in your world where you're burning in my eyes
you're like a shadow that never hides
i'm stuck in parallel worlds
it's something supernatural that won't let me go
it's paranormal and no one else believes me
[/i][/right]you're like a shadow that never hides
i'm stuck in parallel worlds
it's something supernatural that won't let me go
it's paranormal and no one else believes me
narrating
emphasizing
questioning
talking
listening
lyrics: Elliot Minor - "Parallel Worlds"
graphics: by Rook.
theme: "Something Supernatural" by Rook.
notes: Library plot~ Flow of Consciousness vs Parallel Worlds.