I don't know how to say this....
Oct 12, 2013 1:27:58 GMT -5
Post by Tom on Oct 12, 2013 1:27:58 GMT -5
I don't know how to say this... I have been contemplating leaving for awhile now (since the 64th games to be exact) I decided to stick it through until reaping and act happy, but really. I am just sad lately. I had three people close to me die this year and that killed my energy. School has been tougher. The site though has been a big thing keeping me happy though. It would brighten my day when I got a post, or people directly talked to me and wanted to do stuff with me. Though, lately, stuff has been "problematic".
Lately, I have been feeling like I have no role of this site, sure I am the "nice" member according to few, but I just feel like I am a waste of space here now. I feel like people are, do I dare say it, biased. I know sometimes it happens, but when I see it happening often, I just get annoyed. (and no this is not about the reaping, I promise). I feel like such a small person on the site, almost like a noob. People ignore me, sometimes say hateful things to me and I usually don't say anything back and move along, but it really gets to you, most of you have been outcasts or picked on, well when you do it online it isn't an different. there was one instance that really bugged me quite a while ago. I really wish they found out who did it. I just feel like a nuisance to the site. I try to help out and be nice and be the nice guy who greets as many new members and help out the newerones, but I really do feel left out here at the moment. I really do love this site and rping and I really don't know what I would do without it, if I left. Writing is the one thing I love to do and unstresses me from situations in real life, but when the fake reality turns in one like a reality, it's not very fun and some things have made me feel really stressed out. I really do love all members, even if I do say I hate you and stuff, your all really brilliant. I really would miss you all. I just feel like crap lately, at school and here and this is supposed to be a place where I feel welcomed, but I don't feel like that anymore.
The next question is, "Are you really leaving the site Tom?" And to be honest, I really don't know, this might be a short break, might be a long one, or it might be forever. I dunno yet, depends on how things go in the future or not. (So hang in there people I am threading with or making charries for, I may come back eventually). I just feel like shit on here at times. I wish things were different but they aren't. I love you all and you have taught me wonderful lessons and how true friends can really be. Thank you all. My life would have never been better. I will be on Skype occasionally. so this is a goodbye for now maybe? And if you want to talk to me, my Skype is Trenton.osmun99
Lately, I have been feeling like I have no role of this site, sure I am the "nice" member according to few, but I just feel like I am a waste of space here now. I feel like people are, do I dare say it, biased. I know sometimes it happens, but when I see it happening often, I just get annoyed. (and no this is not about the reaping, I promise). I feel like such a small person on the site, almost like a noob. People ignore me, sometimes say hateful things to me and I usually don't say anything back and move along, but it really gets to you, most of you have been outcasts or picked on, well when you do it online it isn't an different. there was one instance that really bugged me quite a while ago. I really wish they found out who did it. I just feel like a nuisance to the site. I try to help out and be nice and be the nice guy who greets as many new members and help out the newerones, but I really do feel left out here at the moment. I really do love this site and rping and I really don't know what I would do without it, if I left. Writing is the one thing I love to do and unstresses me from situations in real life, but when the fake reality turns in one like a reality, it's not very fun and some things have made me feel really stressed out. I really do love all members, even if I do say I hate you and stuff, your all really brilliant. I really would miss you all. I just feel like crap lately, at school and here and this is supposed to be a place where I feel welcomed, but I don't feel like that anymore.
The next question is, "Are you really leaving the site Tom?" And to be honest, I really don't know, this might be a short break, might be a long one, or it might be forever. I dunno yet, depends on how things go in the future or not. (So hang in there people I am threading with or making charries for, I may come back eventually). I just feel like shit on here at times. I wish things were different but they aren't. I love you all and you have taught me wonderful lessons and how true friends can really be. Thank you all. My life would have never been better. I will be on Skype occasionally. so this is a goodbye for now maybe? And if you want to talk to me, my Skype is Trenton.osmun99
Love,
Tom
Tom
