TGIF // Marr
Nov 6, 2013 5:39:20 GMT -5
Post by k!ah on Nov 6, 2013 5:39:20 GMT -5
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[/size]I[/font]My feet make no noise as I race through the darkness. Most people might find the darkness a place where fear is hidden. They might find themselves running into an uncomfortable place, a place of the unknown… but to me- fear was like my second home- fear was a place where I felt comfortable, where I felt free, where I felt that I was in control. I could control the darkness, as much as it could control me. If I wanted to be concealed then I could. If I wanted to be visible to the human eye then I could do that as well. I loved the darkness and the feelings of life, the feelings of freedom that it brought to me. Darkness may seem mysterious to many, but to me it was as light as day, and as familiar as my thumb.
Tonight I ran free. I owned the streets, my body weaving in and out of the narrow maze of the alleyways. I had just finished my latest assignment and now I was free to roam. I knew where I was going. I was going to a place where I could relax, a place where I could allow my body to lose the tension that held me tight throughout my whole life- to the only place where I could not be an assassin, even if it was for a few hours. The place where I was headed to was a place that I was familiar with, I went there often liking to escape from my job- but don’t get me wrong, I love my job, it is the best thing in the world that I could ever imagine doing, but sometimes, sometimes I just needed a break, I needed to take a step back and smell the roses.
Rounding the last corner I slow down, my heart pounding like a race horse in my chest. It felt good to feel that deep burn in my calves, the leaping beat of my heart, the gentle ache in my chest. It was so empowering, the burn of adrenaline. A smile slipped onto my lips as I started to wander down the final street that would lead me to my destination. I could already hear the rythmatic beat of the music, that gentle thump thump thump. My smile grew, I loved music, I loved the way as it entered your body as a sound, just a sound but yet it made you feel as though it was physically beating through you, encouraging you to join in with the rhythm, begging you to move your body in time with the thump thump thump.
Then I round the last bend and I am bit with blinding lights- the whole street alive, alive with lights, with bodies, with music. I grin. This was my place, the place where one could forget their woes, could loosen up and have a good time with no regrets. It takes a moment for my dazzled eyes to adjust to the dramatic change in lighting, but when they do I stand still for a moment, my jaw dropping. I don’t know how many times I have come here (too many time to count) but each time it is the same jaw dropping reaction.
Picking my jaw off the floor I strut down the street, my body easily fall into the time of the music. I walk past a few girls who are huddled over a table chatting away loudly about life- about cats actually- and a frown slides onto my forehead, for a moment before slipping away my grin back in place. I don’t look over at them, but I hear their voices drop suddenly and I can feel the weight of their eyes on me as I wander past them, my smile growing. This was my place. The place where I could have a good time, the place where I could let everything go, the place where I could be me.
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