Another too young to leave the nest [Fawn Oneshot]

Dead

My brother, Storm, is dead. No, he can't be dead. I refuse to believe it but no, there he is on the fucking screen, the life bleeding out of him as that girl from twelve takes the final blow. My anger bubbles up inside of me, he's not allowed to die. He promised he would come home to us, he promised he would come back and read Red a story and be there for all of us. I can't breathe, my body can't take in any more oxygen. My sweet brother, Storm, the one I remember as a baby nestled in mothers arms when I was barely even two, is gone. His life has been snuffed out by Lucy, the district twelve tribute. From the fight onscreen, three people are dead, the girl from two, Beatrice, Storm, and the girl from three who was Storms ally's district partner. So much death in such a short period of time. I can not imagine the hell he must have gone through in the last four days.

I sit bolt upright in bed, sweat streaming down my face, lacing with the tears that leak from my eyes and stare wildly around the room. The tears have not stopped flowing since I watched him die yesterday, I know what I need, I need to get this pain out. How though. Crying isn't helping obviously, but I don't know what else I can do to stop this pain that's building up inside me. First Storm, Now Jabber, who will be next? Gentle Violet, Blind Red, Daredevil Mick, I can't imagine losing any more of my family. I don't want to lose anyone else I love. I could always leave the thought startles me. I could do it, but where would I go. I couldn't go to a relatives place, doing that would just make the pain worse. The forest maybe? What would happen if I was caught though? I'd be forced to watch year after year of Storm's as they prepare to go and fight like he did, to the death. But if I don't, maybe all this pain eating me up inside will finally go away.

My resolve is made for me and I silently rise from my bed, finding my messenger bag, and I fill it with two changes of clothes, a hat, a scarf, some mittens, and grab my coat. Then I head downstairs and search for some sort of knife that I can take with me that my parent's won't miss. I'm about to open the door when I hear a sound. I turn to see Violet's blue-gray eyes staring up at me. "Sister, where are you going?" she asks in a small voice. I sigh, so much for sneaking out in the night. "I'm leaving okay, Letta, I'll be back soon, I promise. Take care of everyone okay, be strong for Mist" I say, pulling her into a final hug. "I love you. Take care" I say, releasing her and opening the door. I slip through the crack and take off into the night.

The district is kind of eerie at night, scary even, as I head towards the fence and my ticket to freedom. I pause for a moment, my mind feeling foggy. This is it, once you leave, there's no turning back I tell myself before I drop down onto my stomach and squeeze under the fence, taking off my backpack before I go through and pulling it under behind me. I take a final look at my home, saying mental goodbyes to everyone, before I turn and dart off into the forest.

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