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Will you be my friend?{Kate} Dec 6, 2013 19:57:08 GMT -5

Post by Anna Banana on Dec 6, 2013 19:57:08 GMT -5

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Hallie · Croft
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1. 16, Female, District 4, etc
2. words words words
3. words or phrase

“I never truly believed in love...until I found her, and now I'm happy.”

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[/size]How long has it been since I lost Stirling? One month, two months, it's impossible to keep track of something like that, the only thing that remains a constant reminder that she was ever a part of my life is the dull ache in my heart when I see her at school or when I see her with someone else. It took so long to get over that, it took so long for me to adjust to a life that she was no longer part of. I can't decide what hurts more though, the dull ache that lingers in my heart or the fact that I allowed it to happen, that I got over her enough to let it settle into nothing more than a dull ache.

I think that it's that I forgot her. I haven't forgotten her, that she is still somewhere locked away inside my heart waiting to burst out, and take me away in a tidal wave of emotions that will lead me out into the sea where I will get lost. It would probably be better if I did get lost though, I feel like I'm only barely making it through life right now, stuck between a reality where I'm with Stirling and one where I have to cope without her. Perhaps that's why I wander the beaches of District 4, hoping that the current will take me away. I've never felt more alone than I feel now, I feel like the one shining spot in my life was taken away from me when Stirling left me.

I've never been one to fall into the habits of drinking or drugs or abuse or anything, but if there was ever a time I felt like starting it would be now. I just...I see Stirling everywhere I look and it hurts me to see her in the face of everyone. I wish I could just fall in love already, I wish that someone would come along and spare me from the torment that is a broken heart. Is that so much to ask for, is that truly the thing that I want but can't have...release? I won't ever find someone like Stirling, but I might be able to find someone who can make that ache go away, someone who will be a friend like she was.

Slowly I sunk into the sand and drew my knees up to my chest, staring out across the ocean. It was so free, without a care in the world, no matter how many boats it smashed or people it killed and broke the hearts of...it never changed. Part of me wished I could be that unfeeling, to continue on with my life as if nothing had happened. I knew that wouldn't happen though, and I was stuck until that person or thing came along that could break the spell that was put over me the day I met Stirling.

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Will you be my friend?{Kate} Dec 6, 2013 22:08:47 GMT -5

Post by ᴋᴀᴛᴇ on Dec 6, 2013 22:08:47 GMT -5

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Today. It was supposed to be a good thing, right? Today's the future of yesterday and all, a chance to make something new of your life. You're the only person who can bring you forward in life. I'd heard all of that crap so many times before, but it wasn't something that was true. When you were down, when you were really, really down, no amount of attempted positivity can raise you from the depths of despair that you've fallen in to. Of course, maybe I'm just pessimistic. No, I know I'm pessimistic. It's probably the only thing that I'm actually good at. At least, I think so. I'm always right when the pessimism strikes, anyways. Maybe it's just realism, then? Would that be a reasonable assumption?

I'm just a bad person.

Today wasn't anything great, though. So far, it was just a big blob of nothing and more nothing. I had nothing. I did nothing, expect have a melt down and then walk out of my house without even saying a second word to mom. I felt nothing. I don't know how to describe such a feeling, though I've had people ask me what I mean when I say that time and time again. It's like I'm not really me, like I'm working in auto-pilot instead of manning the controls myself. There's an eternal emptiness that I can't manage to shake, no matter how hard I try, and no matter what I do, I can't even will myself to feel. It's something that happens to me a lot, usually for some reason or another. It's linked to my emotions, I think. I get overwhelmed and then I turn it all off - I feel everything, or nothing at all.

I can't stand it. I'd rather just half-ass it all. Caring too much is complete crap. It's not even worth it.

The beach was a ten minute walk from my home. It was an okay enough day out that I didn't feel cold as I walked, despite only being covered in a very thin pale blue hoodie and pale denim jeans. I tucked my hands loosely in to the pocket of my hoodie - it was one of the long pockets that went from one side to the other. They were my favourite kind. By the time I reached the beach, my pale freckled skin was tickled pale pink by the breeze and the outdoor air.

I probably look horrible. I hate my freckles.

Surprising to me, there was someone already on the beach when I neared it, tucked in to a ball in the sand along the shore. I tucked my hands in closer to me, pressed against the flat skin of my stomach through my sweater. I was suddenly incredibly aware of the prominence of my hip bones jutting out to poke at my skin, and it brought a small smile to my face. I like being small. I like being tiny and flat and not blobby like I was two weeks ago. Fat makes me want to cut my flesh off, tear the offending lumps from my body. It's disgusting, and I don't understand how larger people can live with themselves. No offense meant to them, of course, but rather that I personally would probably kill myself before I allowed myself to get like that.

Back to the girl on the shore. Did I approach her? She looked awfully lonely, but what if she was there to get away from others like I came to be? What if she didn't appreciate my presence.

Oh well.

My steps brought my across the sandy area in a gliding stride until I was only a couple meters from the young woman. Leaning forward slightly, bending over just the slightest bit at the waist.

"Hello," I stated as I took another long stride forward. I approached the girl from the side, and my canine tooth chewed nervously at the far corner of my lips.

Don't be another mistake.

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