CAP Out of action (Anatra, Marree?)
Jan 11, 2014 16:13:03 GMT -5
Post by Jack Lexington on Jan 11, 2014 16:13:03 GMT -5
MATTHEW DUNHAM
How something as small as a finger could put me through as much hell as this I did never anticipate. It's not the pain that's bothering me because I've got a good supply of morphling running into my vein but the emotional stress of the doctors discussions.
Now they are trying to get me to make a decision whether my fingers should be reattached or not while I'm barely able to talk due to the effects of the pain killers.
"What?" Through half closed lids I look at the men in blue scrubs.
"What do you work? Do you really need those fingers? Amputations this close to the base of the finger are hard to recover from. We seldom get good sensation or motion range. If you don't absolutely need them I'd advice to not attempt a reattachment."
Some of his words strike a nerve. 'amputation' 'sensation' 'work'.
Licking my lips I try to form the words I need to get out in order to get though this the way I want.
I push myself up from the cold surface under my back just to find myself surrounded by doctors in a small room. Small pads and wires are attached to my chest while machines around me confuse the hell out of me. The arrows are still stuck in my bare arm and leg and have bled through he gauze around them.
Yet I try to focus on the task at hand. "I need...my fingers. I'm an engineer. I...work with.." I neglect to mention that I'm only an apprentice who does all the easy work and a career, who'd like to keep fighting.
'Holy shit is it ever hard to speak' I think as I sink back onto the cold surface.
After a few more discussions they finally obey my wish and put me through a multiple hour surgery to free my leg and arm of the arrows and make sure I wake up with five fingers instead of three.
The time afterwards isn't very pleasant because I'm a bad patient, who wants nothing more than to get out. On top of that I don't know whether my opponent actually lived to see another day. I'm ready to jump out of the hospital bed, no matter how down and low I feel, just to see the guy. Every tiny move, however, is so aggrovating that I can't do anything but keep still...at least for one day.
My father comes to see me but I barely talk to him. However he informs me that he thinks Tyren actually pulled through. This gives me a little hope at least. I refuse to talk about anything else with my father though.
That same day I still pull the IV out of my arm and try to get out of bed. Except all the bandages wrapped around me and my hand in a splint to make sure my precious fingers stay where they are, I almost naked though.
So I grab the bed sheet to wrap it around myself.
I need to see this guy. Needless to say I don't get far.
After a 'good nights' sleep I try again. This time clad in a hospital gown. And I'm more successful as I manage to make it all the way to his room, which isn't very far away. When I finally reach it my heart is beating in my neck and all my braveness from the arena goes down the drain. I can't possibly walz in and casually say. "Hey, how is it going. by the way...I'm sorry I nearly killed you."
So I lean my back against the wall and look down at my shaking hand that somehow can't open that door.