Reluctance [Ani]
Jan 22, 2014 21:31:26 GMT -5
Post by Noah Vau - D2 (Cato) on Jan 22, 2014 21:31:26 GMT -5
PHENOM FIRESTORM
"Dialogue"
"Hearing"
Thoughts
Narration
I hate what that district one victor I met a while back has done to me. Feeling human isn't me at all. Before I met the victor, I was happy being a bloodthirsty son of a bitch. Its not like anybody else's feelings mattered to me. I enjoyed all the physical and grueling stuff that the academy drilled into my head. Training had been the one thing in life that brought me pure joy. Whereas some people enjoyed living, I only felt alive when a sword or a trident was in my hands. After meeting the victor things started to changed for me. No longer did I find one hundred percent joy in training. My love hasn't wavered much for it though not by a long shot. Its just not as entertaining slashing dummies up. Now I resort to taking out my frustrations out on fellow trainees at the academy.
There's also the matter of Scar. I still haven't forgiven her for severing my leg off. She hasn't gotten her repayment yet, but she will soon. I need to figure out how to make her feel the pain I felt that day so long ago. That battle should of been over in seconds, yet I got cocky. There is no other excuse for my failure that day. My first attack got her deep in the chest. It all fell down hill after that. If I just struck her just a bit harder, she would of been out of the battle. That's what I hate about myself. Sometimes I just get way too cocky and fights just go on longer than they should. I would be one unstoppable tribute in the games if I could reign in control of my cockiness. I can hear footsteps behind me, but I know who it is.
"What the fuck do you want Scar. I'm tired of you acting like my friend." I point to my leg as if to magnify the fact that she'll never be my friend in this lifetime or the next. The anger radiating off my body is ridiculous. The sheer strength of it sends ripples of anger within my fists. I can feel my blood pumping much faster now that Scar is here. Hopefully today is the day she gets her payment. If not today well someday she will. Why can't she just see that I hate her guts. Will she ever learn that her deed will always be hated by me. She won't be able to take back severing my leg nor would I forgive her if she could.